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Thursday, November 29, 2007
2:48 AM
I'll be gone @ 3am.. really REALLY gone @ 6am. JOELINE'S ON A HOLIDAY; OFF TO CHINA. i'll be back on the 6th. love ya'll, miss me <3 ANTI-POSTING FOR A WEEK ]: BYEBYE. Wednesday, November 28, 2007
6:52 PM
what's the point of being so bold on the outside when you're so fragile inside? what's the point of shooting with an arrow when you can't bare to shoot him down? what's the point of lying when you feel that guilt in you? what's the point of crying when you know you can't change the past? what's the point of trying to forget him when you know you can't? what's the point of trying to forget him when you don't want to? 6:31 PM
I'M GOING TMR MORNING = TONIGHT. 3am++ i asked my sister the stupidest question ever, "Would you rather be an optimistic bitch or a pessimistic moron?" lol. man, i almost slept during chess training yesterday (again.) I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I JUST FEEL REALLY REALLY SLEEPY WHEN IT COMES TO TRAINING. after training, went to j-8, TO BUY FOOD <3 food, glorious food! went to the library after that. the library's kinda new, & it's uber nice!! THEY'VE GOT X-MEN COMICS THERE <33333333 that's the best-est thing :D i'm still loving my song <3 i was invited to go ice-skating by Bella. ain't going.. 1. I'M REALLY BUSY PACKING. 2. I AIN'T GOT THE TIME, COS I CAN'T DECIDE WHICH SHIRT TO BRING. 3. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SKATE. does it sound pretty gay? i does!!!!! that's bad.. i've got this keychain, it meant alot to me... there was one stage of my life when everything was really going wrong, & i felt rather..depressed.. WHAT ELSE COULD BE WORSE? it was raining that day. i was walking..walking..walking..walking..walking.. *WHAMP* the keychain drops. i just stood there like a dodo, staring down at the keychain. i had half the mind to just leave it there. than i picked it up & stared at it. (the rain was still falling) i realised that sometimes, what you treasure most can be gone, just like that. you could be stripped off your most valuable asset when you don't even realise it. & it sucks. someone could just fall back. leave you. stab you in the back. & yet you don't realise it.. you only realise it when time has passed. when you can't turn around & try to reach out to change everything. & all you can do is just.. sit down & regret. you just feel like you've lost everything, yet you know that there are people around to support you. that's when you feel like shit. or rather, when I feel like shit. this keychain will ALWAYS stay with me. & i'll always remember who holds the other half of it.. i said, "One step closer & i'll shoot you down.." he stepped one step closer. i dropped my arrow & cried. Tuesday, November 27, 2007
8:10 PM
i've got chess training today............................................................................................ : : : : : now you know how my face currently is.. : : : : : they're cute, aren't they? i'll be off this FRI, back on THUR. a week to China.. i'll see how it is.. hopefully, everything will be fine [: GUESS WHAT? i woke up at 10.30am today :D that's a GREAAT acheivement... (yea, i'm waking up 1hr earlier everyday...) i'm posting in the early afternoon, so there's nothing much going on. Bella, ignore She, who is White. LOL. I'M NOT RACIST, OKAY!!! why do you have friends? it's cos other people like your company/ you.. JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. you don't change your charater to be popular.. you just gotta be yourself... let me give you a VERY good example: ME! i am cheerful & random & sociable. people will naturally seek your friendship. (includes the fact that different people have different taste, so not everyone loves me ]: ) Adois!! if i'm a fool of myself, WHAT ARE YOU? a bicth of the nations. 1:07 AM
OOPS! i was bad..ohh, yea!
SEE? I'VE GOTTA BE MORE HAPPY. I'M ONLY PREEETTYY HAPPY ]:
NOW YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON!!
now, now..is that good or bad? 12:50 AM
I'VE JUST i look..the same.. ISN'T RED HOTT? oh, yesss...IT IS! Monday, November 26, 2007
11:46 PM
MORE ON CAMP! matthieu was talking to trees... RIGHTTT. & he's super random as well.. matt,"are you in choir?" joe,"uhh..no." matt,"why? it's a good way to express your talent..LALALALALALA." joe,"RIGHTT!!!" jeremy aka Bro spent most of the time making me laugh.. we were having a meal together; Jeremy, Bella, Matt, Sean & I. Bella,"when did you have your first kiss?" Jeremy,"PRIMARY 1!" everyone,"uuhhhh...." Jeremy,"this girl ran up to me & kiss me on the cheek, than she ran away.." everyone,"LOL" Jeremy,"there was another one. a girl pushed me onto a chair & kissed me on the cheek." everyone,"!!!!!!!!!!!" Jeremy,"than she said the next place will be one my lips." everyone,"!@#$%^&*()_+=... lol" WOAH, MAN.. that's way scary.. Sean is the GOOD guy. Sean is REALLY random. Shawn is the BAD guy. Shawn is REALLY extra. Bella is the HIGH girl. Bella like's her Ectasy very much. (haha!) Matthieu is the WEIRD guy. Matthieu TALKS to trees. Amanda is the SCARY girl. Amanda is TOO quiet. (smiling makes you age less[: ) Zacherie is the SUPER ADORABLE guy. Zacherie likes to pour water on people's head. (yahahaha :D) Adeline is the PISS-ABLE girl. (NOT MY SIS, I REPEAT, NOT MY SIS!!) Adeline get's pissed off really easily. Adeline is a mix of Golden Retriever, Chihuahua & Cockle Spaniel. (OOPS. i didn't say anything O.o) Joeline is the oh-so wonderful person you have ever met in your lives. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, i know that [: this morning: woke up. replied Bella's sms. & got a call from her. Bella,"you're now in a conference with two other people." everyone,"yada-yada-yada." Joe,"ermm..people, i just woke up.." everyone,"*stops yada-ing* WHAT!?" Joe,"need to go have breakfast now, k.." & I WOKE UP AT 11AM+ can't blame me.. at least it's earlier than yesteday; 12.20pm.. heehee.. GERALDINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY WONDERFUL T-REX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (JUST FELT LIKE IT) i'll just go do some blog-hopping right now. i'm going to cut my hair!!! THAT'S BAAAAADDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ADIOS! when you close your eyes, you're everything that i've ever dreamed of. 6:24 AM
CAMP WAS SUPERB! rightt. i'm sociable [: & proud of it! 1st Day: went there really early.. stone. stone. stone. you can't blame me, it was still MORNING. my perfect time to s-t-o-n-e. & then people started flooding in. there were 20 beds in a room. that's no good, if you were wondering. I'M CLAUSTROPHOBIC! my group was called: obedience. yea, yea..that's what i need. only person i knew was Isabella. everyone else was unknown. we had some ice breakers & stuff... night: IT WAS SUPER HOTT! must be me.. i'm sorry.. lights-out was at 10.45pm. played cards with the youths [emo boy & luven] till ____am?? slept @ 1.45am. btw, some people thought the place was haunted. & some STARTED HEARING NIOSES. oooooooooh, rightt -.- fyi, evening: super long walk to Labrador Park. we had a treaure hunt there. walking through forests, climbing slopes, looking for clues, running, etc.. the walk back was really crappy. cos Isabella & I were insulting some other person whose name is -[censored]-. well, she was pretty mad. so we decided to shut up. 2nd Day: team bonding activities. really really FUNNNN :D evening: planned for the freaking-people-out plan/ Plan Muahaha sean is super crappy. while discussing for the plan: some other person, 'what if they cry?' sean, 'we'll bring some tissue paper along!' rightt!!! lol. night: slept with Amanda & Isabella. we YADA-ed for a really long time. played cards. Plan Muahahaha was cancelled cos the guys thought that it would backfire. (Matthieu's bro is Zach Sean's Matthieu's buddy Amanda is Sean's sis Isabella is a friend [: ) bro aka Jeremy slept @ 12pm. & the evil guys asked for his PSP at 12pm. poor guy. he must have been sleep talking. yahahaha! slept at 2am++-- i was REALLY tired. so far, my group was leading [: 3rd Day: we had an amzing race. it was kinda fun, except for the turning & dragging of butts at the Obstacles. SOUNDS WRONG!! haha. we went to disrupt some fat girls game of Pepsi Cola cos she was bossing everyone around & didn't know how to play it properly. so we played HER WAY! *SMIRK* we started chasing after her. Muaahahahhahaha! btw, she was the main girl freaking out about the 'ghost' & 'hearing noises' thingy. then, we started plucking flowers & drinking their sap & connecting them at the ends. THEY WERE REALLY NICE <3 i think they were ixoras or something.. i've still got my line of flowers, just that they're..wiillltttiiiinnnnggggg. oh, mannn ]: i left early, at 3pm. MY GROUP WON! lol, we haven't talked about the bad guy Shawn yet. we was supposedly asking for Isabella's number when i was gone. HE IS BADD. she's still a small kid.. heeheee. primary 5 = small!! haha! & HE WAS BLOCKING MY VIEW MAJORITY OF THE TIMES WHEN I WAS LOOKING FOR SOMEONE!! hmph. overall rating of the camp: 9.5*/10* after the camp, I'VE CHANGED! want to know more? I'VE BECAME MORE CRAPPY :D helped Isabella fix her blogskin. to a black one. it's a nice one [: seriously, it's a nice blogskin!!! but i kinda forgot her URL.. so i can't visit her blog ]: AM I STUPID OR AM I STUPID? !@#%^&*()-=+ my sis just finished her Grad Night Party. she was wearing a cheena gown. made-up by a church friend. my second sis freaked out when she saw her. is that good or bad? [: my mum just said that she preferred my older blogskin, cos it was easier to read. ... i thought she wasn't even suppose to let me know that she reads my blog O.o she says that it's glaring & bright & the font's too small. whatever! I WANT TO GO FOR YOUTH CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! butican't. STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nvm, i'll go with Isabella next year. H-M-P-H!!! ADIOS! ohh, yea, baby! you're so good to me <3 Thursday, November 22, 2007
5:23 AM
this is my 3rd post today. COS I'M REALLY HAPPY THAT I'VE GOT CAMP TOMORROW :D the comp has finally STOPPED flickering [: so here are the pics:  yea, baby! 6G.. & more 6G.  & SOMEMORE 6G.. rightt. really bored.. 6G, 6G, 6G... ooooooooooooooooh <3 ta's! 2:24 AM
 Want to know something? I'm free without you, & i'm loving it <3 1:25 AM
TO ALL: congrats, if you did well. don't cry, if you didn't. my mark? -[censored]- too good to be true. LOL. won't state it to demoralise others & myself. i did fairly well [: well enough to catch up with my expectaion of 245. you get what i mean. congrats to NY. no failures, as expected. my class did fairly well. wonderful people <3 I'LL BE ON A SHORT HOLIDAY FROM 23 - 25TH. CAMP! CAMP! CAMP! CAMP! Yay! haven't pack my stuff yet. i just realise that my new skin is rather.. white. & bright. & glaring. colours were made for a reason :D yellow. red. green. PURPLE!!! blue. pink. orange. grey. black. i like this colour! JIANHONG STILL OWES ME 3 HUGS!!!!! hmph. realise one thing.. when i'm excited/ anxious, i start to SMILE :D haha. nothing much to post ]: i'm starting to love hot <3 ohhhh, yea, baby. you're so good to me <3 my blog's still song-less. i'll get a song..SOOOOOON. jiayun, so happy to see you today [: MISSED YOU SO MUCH! yada-yada. ta's! Wednesday, November 21, 2007
6:16 AM
i'm so please with myself [: i've FINALLY changed my skin. blogskin. i've got a little tanner. YAY! i can't stand being W-H-I-T-E. eek. today's the: i'm-trying-to-study day. MY ASS HURTS!! i studied Mathematics. i did some sums. i did 30+ i didn't like them. TMR'S RESULTS! exciting, isn't it? nervous is a BIG NO. it's like you're going to open your biggest whatever prezzie tomorrow :D great! OOH-LALA! i'm going to make sure i get darker. btw, i watched barbie today, want to know what i found out? IT'S DAMN NICE <3 lol. i must have been so deprived of TV. (nah, i was bored.) stuuuupid nutt. i don't like saying 'break up', it sounds so real..& scary. lol. JIAYUN, I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really really much ]: ta's! REMEMBER TO CROSS YOUR FINGERS & HOPE TO DIE WHEN RECEIVING YOUR RESULTS <3 i haven't proven that it'll work, but there's no harm trying :D PLEASE BE REMINDED TO READ THE SMALL PRINTS.. heehee. ALL THE BEST TO WHOEVER READS THIS. don't cry over sad marks, what's the point of regretting it? don't jump off the building over happy marks, it's not worth your life. haha! GoodNight. Tuesday, November 20, 2007
5:39 AM
i but i coudn't.  you didn't understand. it's not your fault, but i get mad. i don't know how to be fine when i'm not. words were meant to be spoken. but for now..there'll be silence. now what's left of me, is what i pretend to be. 5:16 AM
training today; in school. we did high knee & lauches. that's all. mr lim spent 30min yada-ing away. went to Island Creamry with Eleesa & Charmaine. Eleesa & I shared a mud pie <3 she had to go off early. Charmaine & i started doodling [: SUPER FUN :D jiayun's currently enjoying herself @ SSP's Camp. miss me, yun ]: & to mr camel: DON'T TALK TO ME, GET IT? DON'T DON'T DON'T DON'T DON'T cos each time you talk to me, you get me really mad & upset; & THAT SUCKS! (cos it's raining tonight, & i'm suppose to happy when it rains.) this holiday, i've been trying REALLY hard to be happy. so don't you come crashing my glass bottle of fantasies. cos i've got my best-est guyfriend who is willing to listen to all my complains, & is always there to give me a great hug. don't forget, i've got my 2 Bros too! so what are you going to say now? i'm 3-timing? want to know the main point of me complaining? what have i asked of you all this time? i've only asked for you to trust me, & time & again, YOU DON'T. i've NEVER EVER asked of anything else from you. I DON'T LIKE ANYONE NOW. I DON'T. I D-O-N-'T so just leave me alone. i talked about the circumstances, you didn't seem to understand me. did you bother asking? NO. haven't you heard? ask & you'll receive! i'm sorry if i'm too harsh on you, cos i'm really mad now. you just destroyed my night. & bear in mind that i don't mean everything i say, cos i'm really mad & my best-est guyfriend is NOT online to listen to be yada-ing away. thank you for your time. !@#$%^&*()_+= i cannot take it! i'm suppose to be happy so that i wouldn't start ageing. *takes a deep breath & sits straight* yesterday, i learned a new definition of a word & symbol. (from coach) walao = joeline, you're a big girl now. STOP CRYING. !@#$%^&*()-=+ = eleesa's lingo. ha. i'll stop crying if you stop making me run 4x 400m. it's so entagonising! i've been looking at pictures every night. just to be happy. my bro's a nice guy. my other bro; zongrui; haven't been seeing lately. the slacker doesn't go for training ]: my bro (the nice guy), gave me a white balloon <3 awwww. THANKIES :D I WOULD LIKE TO THANK JIAYUN & YUKIKO AGAIN FOR TEACHING ME HOW TO RIDE A BICYCLE [: lalala. X'MAS IS COMING, I'M NOT IN THE MOOD FOR IT RIGHT NOW. I'M STILL PISS, DAMN IT. MY ANGER CAN'T JUST SUBSIDE IN A SNAP OF THE FINGERS. NO. IT CANNOT. & people; friends: please do NOT say that i'm ruthless, heartless & really mean. COS I'M PISS! thanks. NO MOOD TO POST COS OF THE DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN FEELING IN ME. & MY GUYFRIEND IF NOT ONLINE!!! THAT'S WHY THERE'S NO MEANING IN POSTING, COS I DON'T GET AN INSTANT REPLY. hmph. wanna know something? YOU SUCK! big time. Monday, November 19, 2007
2:19 AM
new song! i love this one A-L-O-T. i played club penguin now i starting to dislike it. someone find me a nicer game. (excluding Maple) i think.. I THINK.. THINK.. THINK... THINK.... it's all over. i'm so sorry, geraldine. it's not your fault. the problem lies with me. jianhong owes me 3 hugs now!! yahahahaha! loving you, darling, makes me so confuse. i don't know what to do. 1. i've screwed up enough of your life. 2. you can't lean on me all the time, & i to you. 3. there's going to be a day when i'm gone. 4. you've got to learn to love someone else. i love you too much till my heart bled, now i ain't got feelings. a crush is a passing emotion, can you not be just a crush? cos you'll fly away like everyone else. my lover, my friend.. Sunday, November 18, 2007
11:24 PM
Tagged by Clare :D 01. Person who tagged me: Clare :D 02. Relationship with her: Friend, Deskmate, Classmate, she's the cookie monster; i'm elmo. 03. 5 impressions of her: random, short, chirpy, crappy, wonderful! 04. Most memorable thing done for me: she gave me a prezzie last year <3 05. Most memorable words for me: haha (i like to hear ppl laughing, lol) 06. If become my lover: oh, NO THANKS! i'm attached [: 07. If become lover, things to improve are: make sure she grows taller. 08. If become enemy: hmm, she'll be the first one dying/ crying/ sleeping. 09. Reason become enemy: she's jealous i'm taller than her [: mUAHAHAHAHA. 10. Most desirable thing to do for her/them now: squish her head down. SHORTY ._. I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING. 11. Overall impression of her/them: she likes to feel TALL! 12. How I think people will feel about me: sociable & athletic & CHEEEEERFUL :D 13. The characteristic I love about myself: sociable & random..oh,yea! 14. The characteristic I hate about myself: freaking out all the time, not confidient of muaself. 15. Most ideal person that I want to be: na-ah! I AM SHEMAN, THE WARRIOR PRINCESS <3 16. Say something to the people you care about: miss me, love me, know me, memorise me [: 17. Pass on to 6 people who you want to know how they feel about you: [1] Jiayun [2] Yukiko [3] Eleesa [4] Camel [5] Geraldine [6] xxx (ANYONE WILLING TO) the bottom is:-[censored]-cos i didn't want to complete it [: whoever read that whole pile of words up there, YOU'RE ONE PATIENT PERSON. patience is a virtue.. w-h-a-t-e-v-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-r just cos i didn't learn that. hmph. i'll be going for church camp (for the kids) on 23rd - 25th. yay! i'm realling looking forward to it. (& hopefully i can be more sociable) i haven't been socialising for a long long time, partly cos i've got no one to socialise with. btw, Bro's going for the camp :D WOOTS! i almost gave up reading everyone's blog EVERYDAY. it takes up ALOT of time. as in, ALOT. but not to worry, my fellow friends/ aquaintances.. i'll (TRY TO)continue to visit your blogs everyday : *expressionless (is that good or bad?)* RESULTS ARE OUT ON THE 22ND! it's so exciting, dont' you agree with me? hopefully... HOPEFULLY, I DON'T START CRYING. i'll cry if i get 220 & below.. SHIT, NOW I'M FREAKING OUT. i better get like 239 & above. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what if i don't? than be prepared to face your life's destruction. OOOHHH, right -.- SO I WISH EVERYONE ALL THE BEST WHEN COLLECTING YOUR RESULTS. RMB TO CROSS YOUR FINGERS & HOPE TO DIE [: (hopefully it'll work) i studied the 1st chapter of Sec 1 Mathematics. prime numbers & consecutive numbers. prime numbers only have 2 factors & no more than that. consecutive numbers have more than 2 factors & lots more than that. BOOOHOOOOOHOOOOO! i don't like it. I DON'T LIKE IT AT ALL. maybe i should have just started with English Language. i'd be a happier person. & i've got to read a book called: The 6th Lamentation. cos i want to, but i'm not interested in it. i haven't finish reading Rule of Four, cos it's started to bore me out, & it's really long-winded. so my bookmark is only halfway through. & i need to pack my file, although i don't want to cos it holds many memories in it. btw, I FOUND MY PRIMARY 2 - 6 CLASS PHOTOS. guess what? WEESHENG LOOKED LIKE A NUTT IN PRIMARY 3!!!! & ANDRE GROWS CUTER EACH YEAR. (sadly, he doesn't grow taller. haha!) so i'll have to find my primary 1 class photo, just to see who looked like a nutt. lol. TRAINING ON TUESDAY; ANYONE? 8 - 10AM IN SCHOOL. LIGHT TRAINING. (according to coach) i'll be going. soooooo. what now? yea, i've got the pics into the comp. but sadly, I'M USING THE LAPTOP.. cos the comp hates me, thus flickering at the sight of me. yea, yea. whatever! flicker. flicker. flicker. hmph. btw, sorry guys, couldn't attend your soccer game today. I WASN'T ALLOWED TO! !@#$%^&*()_+= tick. tock. tick. tock. drip. drop. drip. drop. ding. dong. ding. dong. splish. splash. splish. splash. splosh. splosh. splosh. man, it looks ugly. UGLY, FUGLY WORDS. today's a I-WANT-TO-SLACK-BUT-A-CAN'T day. that's so painful for me. cos i just want to stare out of the window & see the trees, like i did yesterday. it's really fun if you've got this forest thingy behind your house. i saw squirrels & white-headed birds. SO FUN! SO FUN! btw, last night. there were 2 silverfishes mating on my bolster. i thought they would do it in some place more..private. you know.. like in a book? lol. i realise that i can't sleep without a bolster. pillows are nice to hug! i wonder if JunHao is finally EMO [: hope so. if not, ALL OUR HARDWORK'S WASTED /: i've really got nothing to post! but i want to post! that's bad. fine, i'll go visit people's blog.. *sticks tongue out* Saturday, November 17, 2007
6:25 AM
 6G'O7, GIRLS! will upload more when i've got the time to.
went for training today. it suddenly seemed to be super tiring. but.. no muscle ache eleesa, leg pain ]: you okee?
jiayun, come for training!!! tuesday; 8am. okee? please..thanks!
rightt. no time. tomorrow, maybe. ta's! Good Night [: Friday, November 16, 2007
6:09 AM
Camel: each time you speak, i feel that guilt. but yet, i did no wrong. you don't know how i feel. i feel so weird & i hate that feeling. i want to be happy, like how i used to be, like how i want to be forever. but yet the circumstances always change to one with harsher conditions. maybe it won't work anymore. maybe this will end. everything will die down. yet i don't want it to. do you understand me? it's not your fault. it's no one's fault, it's the circumstances that has already been planned long ago, because these circumstances happen to be what is, indeed, already there. these circumstances are facts. & we live with these circumstances. there's no way we can change them. that's why i can't stand it. cos each time, i feel like i'm the one who's done wrong, i have no one to blame. deep inside, i know it's not your fault. i don't want to blame you. it's not you nor me. but i choose to put the fault on my side, i choose to think i started it. & because i think started it & i have the responsibility of dealing with it. but i don't know any other way to. the clear way is to let it die down. but i don't want to hurt you. neither do i want it to happen. but i know it must. because things will start to get from bad to worse if i don't. i'm so sorry, maybe i won't be able to keep my promise of 5 years & 1 month anymore. i don't know what to do.. i don't know anymore. i love you so much, i love you too much; i don't want to hurt you. but i don't know what is deemed fit for us. i love you, i really do love you. 5:16 AM
rightt. i hate my computer. it's flickering. & flickering & flcikering. computer, STOP IT THIS INSTANCE! shit, it doesn't listen to me ]: i'm going for training tomorrow :D i looove training <3>cross my fingers, hope to die. this is the second time i've said this. Big Guy & someone-i-know-but-i-forgot added me today. i'm too sian of visiting blogs. fyi, i do so to all my friends blog EVERYDAY. it takes up alot of time.. & that sucks. yada-yada. what is the difference between love & crush? love is long-lasting/forever. (it's something, but not a noun, it can be a noun, but i don't want it to be a noun.) a crush is a passing emotion that gets to you for a SHORT period of time. (noun) yada-yada. jianhong owes me a hug on Thur :D cos he said the hug he gave me on Thur was too short.. haha! & i need a pic of him! i've got everyone, except him. that's bad.. another hug!! I LOVE HUGS! do you? lol. i watched 2/30min of Dora the Explorer today. she was with her pet monkey, this new chicken friend & her PURPLE bag pack. andre, YOU ARE A BAD GUY. *sticks tongue out* [: OMG, MY COMPUTER HAS STOPPED FLCIKERING <3 *~!@#$$%^&&*()_~~!@#$%^&*()_+~!@#$%^&*()_+~!@#$%^&*()_+~!@#$%^&*()_+~!@$%#^&*()_+{};'pp">!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*()_+!@#$%^&**()__++~{}}:"<>/*~!@#$$%^&&*()_~~!@#$%^&*()_+~!@#$%^&*()_+~!@#$%^&*()_+~!@#$%^&*()_+~!@$%#^&*()_+{};'pp. shoots, my computer is flcikering again. now it's not. man, MAKEUPYOURMIND!! now it is!!!!!!!! ARGH /: there's this feeling in me. it's the it's-about-you're-gonna-get-into-trouble feeling. that sucks! i'm so sick of being stuck at home. i know it's only ONE day; today. but it's so..not nice. you know, i'm claustrophobic. (however you spell it) one day, i just might go crazy & think that the 4 walls of my bedroom or closing on me. sleeping is the best-est way to kill time. so... S-L-E-E-P :D i didn't have a proper dinner yesterday. so i was sad. there's NOTHING TO EAT AT HOME!! need to ask my Dad to buy some chips home. we bought Digestives yesterday [: they're really really really good. (when you're in the mood to eat, if not.. just forget about it.) i have finally realise why i'm so bored. NO MUUUSIC! Empty's a nice song. but it's empty.. sobsob. it's empty. maybe we're trying, trying to hard.. blahblahblah we're empty.. eTcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCcCc.. the pattern looks quite nice, don't you think so? I LIKE MUSIC. IT GIVES LIFE TO MANY. IT GIVES LIFE TO ME. (maybe i should start an i-pod advertisment) heehee. right, i'm sian of the song. yea, i know..we're empty.. falalallalala. now, JENNY <3>what's the problem? try to read between the lines... lines... lines... lines... lines... no lines ]: I'M AWFULLY BORED! let me tell you more about me: i like: myself. i love: jiayun&myself. i treasure: all the people i know. (including jiayun&myself) i don't want: to grow up i want: to fill myself with jiayun&myself & all the people i know. i also want: to spend more time with chocolates :D Great! Now you know me very well :D i promise to make new friends in whichever school i go to next year. i promise to continue to be sociable/ even more sociable than before. i promise to do well in my Literature. i promise to remember 6gers, Trackers, Jiayun & JianHong & all my friends. i promise to hold a class gathering every year. (without the spider & her friend, cos they didn't give me their contacts.) i promise to (if i continue it as my CCA.) i promise to try & retain my anger. i promise to train very hard for Track & Field. i promise to argh!!!!!! i'm getting angry now.. I'LL SHUT UP, OKAY. I'L SHUT UP! you don't have to say you love me, just because i do. you don't have to stay forever, i will understand. forgive me. forigve me. Thursday, November 15, 2007
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today was Grad! so fun! so fun! so fun! so fun! really very fun!! jianhong, thanks for the hug <3 so i don't know why people cried.. must be their emotional attachment to the school. i'm not attached to the school; proud of it! it was kinda boring; the speech. one right after another. i, as usual, was getting really restless. so i started to fiddle with things. as in..really things, not THINGS. yada-yada-yada-yada. blah-blah-blah. SHUT UP! SHUT UP! then the person finally shutted up [: finally! we took pics, loads of them. loads & loads of them. will upload them some times later. my definition of later: wait long long. haha! i received a gift, thanks, camel <3 frankly, i feel that no one's really going. cos the people i REALLY want to continue keeping in touch with; i know we'll keep in touch. i don't know why i'm so sure about it, but i know. cos people who really love, always stay together. JIAYUN, I LOVE YOU <33333 (ALOT) i'm not les, get over it. i just love her cos she's been a great friend. someone who would bother quarelling with me over which guy i should choose. someone who BOTHERS to do things for her friends that will make changes. someone who is so..crappy, LIKE ME.. & all of a sudden starts to burst out in laughter, i don't know why. thank you for making me laugh anywhere, anytime. there's just this weird thing about us. we just start laughing & laughing & laughing. you're my best-est buddy & you'll ALWAYS be one. i know, you'll ask me to be sociable next year. but..yea, i try..but..somehow you just rock more than anyone else. your laughter & happiness is what's so special about you. we'll keep in touch, FOREVER! yiyun, thank you for always telling me that i'm really EXTRA. thank you for comforting me eveytime i freak out. thank you helping me run errands. although you always do them with complains [: thank you. eleesa, thank you for being the 4th runner. for not giving up in every race that we ran together, not as a competitor, but as a teammate. thank you for cheering me on. for keeping me optimistic everytime i started to freak out & cry. thank you for understanding me, caring for me & loving me. [: the next face of my life; Sec school. that will be based on the results that i will receive next Thur. cross my fingers, hope to die. it'll be fine. what i think i'll get & my goal, is about the same. you see, i set goals that are TOO realistic. haha! that's what so good about me. i know how to make myself happy :D I WANT TO THANK EVERYONE WHO ALLOWED ME TO TAKE PICS OF THEM & WITH THEM. pictures are the best way to remember people. i'm getting happier & happier each hour that passes from the time Grad ended. i don't know why. & some people are out there emo-ing their hearts, lungs, eyeballs out. i painted my nails with taflon. so they're really shiny now <3 shine. shine. shine. shine. shine. shine. shine. shine. shine. shine. rightt. junhao is still learning how to be emo. he asked me why people are emo. i tried explaining, i tried.. but........TO NO AVAIL DID I MANAGE TO MAKE IT CLEAR. i'm a failure. NOT. i can't seem to be sad today. had luch with my grandma & aunt. we had buffet @ a cheena restaurant. my dad eats fast. katherine, i'm sorry. i couldn't make it to your house. I APOLOGISE! have fun without me :D coach came for our graduation. thanks, coach, for coming all the way back just to support us <3 we'll keep in touch. & you'll have to train me no matter which school i go to, cos i want you to :D coach, i love you. thanks for training me, making me do those super annoying stamina training that makes me want to cry & many many more stuff to thank you for. you HAVE indeed impacted all the P6 Tracker's lives. & lastly, on behalf of all the P6 Trackers, THANK YOU & WE LOVE YOU <3 come to think about it. my coach just rocks! he's given us all the opprtunities to really develop our talents in Track & Field. most importantly, he cares & he truly understand each & every one of us; out personalities, our strong & weak points & he knows literally everything about us. that's why he's a coach different from all others. he's OUR coach. the TRACKERS' coach :D i really appreciate all the hard work he has put in just to mould us into good sportsman we are today. i look forward to many many gatherings ahead. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.. ta's! keep in touch, love ya'll <3 today's really the last day, i'll keep my count, 5 years & 1 month.. they'll past, oh, please let them past. Wednesday, November 14, 2007
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junhao is turning emo, i can sense it! WOOTS! WEISHENG, JIAYUN: out Plan X may be working :D finally..wala! today was a sad, dull, gloomy day. (does this work, jiayun? lol) rightt. it rained today. I LOVE IT WHEN I RAINS. I dropped 1 bottle of vanilla coke into the longkang.. heehee. *covers face with both hands* class party this time wasn't as fascinating as the last time. then you see the longing eyes of other ppl at our door. awww. 6F was asking for food. ask & you shall receive. played soccer with the guys. SO FUN! SO FUN! SO FUN! i was on WeeSheng's team.. haha, jiayun, HAHA! jiayun went to GWC to watch Stardust with the others. i didn't want to. actually i did, but.. not so nice to my mum if i just go & not inform her about it. I'M SO GUAI [: rightt. i'm really going to miss 6G. ALOT. we're really close, the guys, girls & all. it's called a bond. like a band, it never ends, until someone wants to go. that's what i'm afraid of. i don't want to lose ANY of my friends. i want ALL. just the same as ever. that's one reason why i don't want to grow up. your friends will start to fade away, like the hair on your head. the ppl i'm going to miss: - 6G - TRACKERS - 6B - THE OTHER PPL I KNOW rightt, i'm going to miss EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU OUT THERE. PPL: thank you for giving me joy :D boston sounds like bastard. LOL. tmr's Grad Day i can't wait. & you hear ppl saying that they don't want it to come. BUT I DO! I DO! it's going to be so fun! remember to bring some sweets along if it gets too boring.. lol. it's going to be soooo crappy. yea, remember to look good tomorrow. there's going to be a lot of cameras coming towards you. 'SMILE!' 'CHEESE!' 'SQUIRREL-FISH!' lol. 6G '07. 6G-ERS, PLEASE EXPECT YOUR CLASS REUNION TO BE AROUND THIS TIME NEXT YEAR. DUE TO HEAVY RAIN & BAD TRAFFIC. NOT MY FAULT [: thanks. that was fast. okay. ta's! I LOVE YA'LL! andre, you've got good taste :D tmr's the day i start counting the 5 years & 1 month i ain't seeing you.. Tuesday, November 13, 2007
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i'm happy today :D grad rehersal again. SUPER CRAPPY. jiayun, joan & myself were like cheering & cheering & cheering..until a teacher came to shut us up /: whatever. i hate being shutted up; feel very stupid. the guys were ripping a deck of cards. gene was collecting all the #7s. i collected king & queen spades & some not-so-important numbers. (they were hearts <3) we were teaching junhao how to be emo. so he had his little emo corner. he tried, he really did. PLAN X, FAILED. sigh, jun.. keep trying. listen to EMO songs :D ha. i'm going to earn coins [: NOW. ta's! Monday, November 12, 2007
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i'm letting go, my friend, i'm letting go. cos i don't want to be your push-cart anymore. you just drag me around like some kinda shit. & i don't want to be dragged around. in fact, i hate it. & i've waited & waited & waited. I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANYMORE! 4:06 AM
sometimes when you realise that i've disappeared, you decide to chase me & catch me, just that i don't want you anymore. THANKS, JIAYUN & YUKIKO FOR TEACHING ME HOW TO CYCLE <3 chalet was awesome. cycled, played air-hockey(with the spammed machine), swam, BBQ, crapped, played card games & yada-yada-yada-yada. coach was so EMO. sobsob. (now you get what i mean) jiayun didn't allow me to wake up ]: lol. i really really really really wanted to wake up, but she was like, 1 more min, please, 1more min.. haha! we had Grad Rehersal today. 2 words: boring. crappy. you wouldn't want to know more about it. guess what? WE'LL HAVE ONE MROE TOMORROW :D dang.. short post today. i'm not feeling happy, cos i can't decide what to do.. joeline is gay, say that for all i care. when a seed passes by & you decide to plant that tree. you've got to take care of that tree forever. not just let it wilt & when you want that tree back, you just water it. it doesn't work that way. it dies. Thursday, November 08, 2007
you're not right; i don' t belong here. 4:24 AM
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candidate #1 for the spammer list: Clara. just notifying the Fakes. clara, if it's not you, than i apologise. i just heard that some people thought it would be you. the reasons, intentions & motives are clear. fake tt:D, Bernice, creep, bla. they share one thing in common: they're out to put you down & criticise you & your friends. AND. these Farkos only go to tracker's blogs. a coincidence? i don't think so. what's wrong la? the year's ending & of all times, YOU CHOOSE NOW;TO DO THE BITCHING AROUND. Stop being a dog. It's never too late. Give yourself another chance. ANTI- BLOG DOGGIES. All the best to Mr Handsome a.k.a Wee Zong Rui for his Inter-Class Soccer tomorrow :D you have all the support of 6G & the trackers. ESP ME!!! lol. (extra) jiayun & zong, be prepared to lose to a game of pool with me [: Muahahahahaha! REAL Bernice, don't be upset. DON'T BE. it's not your fault. if you're upset, you're only playing into the Dog's plan. that's what we don't want to do, right? you've got jiayun, me, geraldine, yukiko, katherine, weesheng & many many many other people. all my friends are as good as yours! cos we're all willing to work together & get rid of blog doggies. there's nothing to be afraid/ worried/ remorsed about. cos you've got wonderful friends. you should be happy that people are jealous of what you have; something that they don't have, maybe it's something they USE to have, but didn't treasure it & as a result they lose everything. maybe this special thing was friendship. & sweetie, you should feel fortunate that people care for you & will do anything at any cost to stop that stray dog out there. whoever that stray dog is, maybe your classmate, friend is, is not worth your emotions/ tears. cos only the people you love are worth your feelings. remember one thing, don't let this affect your mood/ life & you've got to learn how to stand on your own feet cos i won't be always around being your wonderful 'protector'. fight fire with fire. don't run away from the hurdles that you face, jump over them, burn them or just knock them down FLAT. but one thing for NOW, you've got one whole bunch of friends out there to help you cross the hurdle for the time being. when you fall, learn to pick yourslef up again & continue the race. the race of being the best, the most outstanding, the one that everyone wants to be; THE CHAMPION. i do believe that you HAVE the qualities to be one. you just have to keep on pushing that barrier that keeps on closing in on you, then, you will achieve what you have longed for. man, i just realise it's kinda looooong. jiayun, i still love you <3 FAKE BERNICE, if your life mission is to screw someone else's life up, please, JUST GIVE UP! cos you know clearly yourself that it'll NEVER work. let me repeat, NEVER! so just forget about it. one peice of advice: SHUT UP & GET A LIFE! you're just showing us what your parents are like & how they have taught you. don't disgrace your parents. don't make us think that your parents are dogs too. afterall, people do say that children are the reflections of their parents. think about what you've done, what your parents will say about it, think about YOUR parents. & if you'd like me to stop calling you a dog, maybe you should just apologise & leave, i wouldn't even bother to know who you are, i'm just crossing my fingers & hoping that you're someone whom i have never known or spoke to before. because you are an embarrassment to me. thank you for reading. honestly, i just..like kinda feel sad for everything that's been going on. i feel sad for the fake bernice, i'm sure she felt that what's she's done is stupid, but once she looks at what we've all said, you know, the anger starts to boil up & the water spills. fake bernice, i apologise if i have caused you any anger that disallowed you to repent. & i really mean what i say. look, i'm not the type of person that will never forgive the other party. & neither am i the type of person that will allow the fake bernice to continue her rantings. so i chose to be in her shoes & to feel how she feels. people, think about it. IT SUCKS PRETTY BAD. you guys are going to say that SHE started it, but what if on the way, she wants to turn back. she can't, cos we're not allowing her to do so. so we've got to give her a chance to head back to where she started.. i know it sounds corny, crappy & cheesy, but it DOES make sense. so..maybe we should stop criticising her. yea, we should stop it. BACK TO SQUARE ONE. I DON'T LIKE CAMELS! they have humps, & it makes them look disfigured & it freaks me out. and their eyes are like super big with super long eyelashes, although it looks kinda nice [: but in all, I DO NOT LIKE CAMELS! & therefore, nobody is allowed to like it too :D YAY (: purple made my moodswings. purple gave me happiness. purle brought my temper down. purple taught me how to love. purple is my favourite colour. purple is NOT the international gay colour. purple made me into a sociable weirdo. purple taught me how to forgive. purple is #7. Wednesday, November 07, 2007
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THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT; ALL WHO TURNED INTO FAKES/ PLASTICS <3 LOVE YOU ALL.. ALL!! fake Bernice: species: cross spaniel (full breed) gender: homomomomomomo (so IT'S AN IT!) home: Mandai Zoo, with JunHao. owner: Junli the T-rex (ROAR..ooh o.O) message to IT: hey, we ALL sympathise with you cos..you know..you're an IT. i wonder how it feels like to be a DOG. woof.woof.woof. GOT IT? it means, SCRAM THIS INSTANCE :D cos i've got wonderful wonderful wonderful loving sexy pretty smart sarcastic friends. and you're jealous that my friendship with them is STRONG & EVERLASTING. just admit it, you're just a loner with NO ONE (cos you're homo & no one wants you, YOU'RE AN IT TOO!) wants you. but this is not the way to gain friends, am i right? & normally, normal people wouldn't want to start an aarguement with me, cos i'm always right. AND you are/will be always wrong. & i have friends unlike you. they are REAL friends.. REAL! TIPS: 1. try having a gender of your own. like female/ male. 2. be MORE sociable (i know you're jealous that i'm sociable) 3. stop being a DOG. (wait, you ARE a dog, you can't stop being one..sad case!) 4. stop being envious & jealous of my wonderful friends & myself. 5. state your own name so that people won't think you're a gay-ass homo. 6. criticise people with more class if you really have to. 7. use proper spelling, grammar & punctuation when attempting to start an arguement. fake jiayun, i made that a #7 for you <3 had a talk on sexuality today. it was normal. jiayun, geraldine, kat & i were crapping throughout the talk. pain subject: Bitchell, THE MVP -_________- hmph. *heart starts to bleed* the speaker was Mrs Tan. joan was one DARING chick :D totally love her attitude! a relief teacher; Mrs Ho (hohohohoho) DANG! x'mas isn't here yet. 30min lecture, 30min rules !@#$%^&*() no time to post ]: sry. Ta's! Tuesday, November 06, 2007
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i can't get into my Hotmail. i've got no idea why. MSN is deleted again & there's no point going in, cos of my 1st sentence. my mum reads my blog; i learned today. so i'm going to be a Guai Kia (GK) aww. i'm not happy now. i was happy just now. but i wasn't happy earlier than. oh, joeline, SHUT UP! jiayun & i slept throughout the bus ride. hearing ben go, 'want some chips? pay money. one packet $5. everyone say cheese!!' *speechless* went to Chek Jawa today :D the boat ride there was really really exciting. the boys were all standing up, jiayun & i were sticking our heads out of the window, going, 'aeroplane! wave!!' lol. weisheng: joeline open your mouth. me: AHHHHHH!!! we were ALL having fun, while the spider & friend started sucking up to the teacher LOL. i had my grape flavoured push-pop today <3 we walked the broadwalk thingy. eugene was our 'tour guide' saying, 'look! this is panda's shit! ' 'catch up, class! catch up!' 'this is a leave that wass eaten by a caterpillar. want to feel it? ooohh.' 'to the right. to the right' (yea, & you'll be in the mangrove swamp.) haha, it was REALLY entertaining. we climbed up this 20-persons-only (erm, what's that called?) thing. a really tall thing. i kinda freaked out on the way up :D when we reached the top, there was this half-eaten snake.. the bones were showing, no blood, the skin; yes. some left-over meat. eugene, 'Miaori, want to take some home?' lol.. the spider a.k.a clarissa didn't dare to climb up.. maybe she forgot to take her web with her. too dependent on it :D & we walked & crapped & walked & crapped..etc. the boat ride back was really boring. we had to go with the 6F girls who were stonning; ALL OF THEM. MANY THANKS TO ALL WHO COMPLETED THEIR PROFILES ON MY AUTO- BOOK TODAY :D I APPRCIATE IT VERY MUCH. jiayun, I FOUND IT, I GOT IT! ta's! and they say love is like a merry-go-round. so may it be. Monday, November 05, 2007
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ppl, i'm doing a last minute auto book thingy. NEED YOUR COOPERATION :D thanks. 6J won. hmph !@#$%^&* champions - 6J (no comments, *rolls eyes* ) 1st runner up -6B (should have WON! congrats, though :D) 2nd runner up - 6G! 6G! 6G! WOOTS! (they tried, they really did..i think, haha!) 3rd runner up - 6E (no comments, *sucks thumb*) the participants in 6I didn't have any dickmanship. quote, unquote; lemuel, " GET THAT BLOODY SASH LA YOU! I'M NOT PLAYING ANYMORE!" this means, "i'm a gay-ass freak who doesn't want to lose, bleargh, i don't friend you." GAY! nicholas; 6F. YOU STOP ANNOYING ME! I'M WARNING YOU FIRST, K. YOU WOULDN'T WANT TO DIE TOO EARLY. IF YOU'RE JEALOUS THAT 6G'S BETTER THAN YOUR MISERABLE CLASS, JUST ADMIT IT, RATHER THAN TO BEAT AROUND THE BUSH. SO WHAT IF WEESEHNG FELL? FAKE ONE? THAN HOW ABOUT I PUSH YOU DOWN A BLOCKOF FLATS & SAY IT WAS FOR SHOW? DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW DEMORALISING IT IS FOR THE PLAYERS? NO, YOU DON'T. BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT A REAL PLAYER AT ALL. YOU JUST STAND AROUND & CHASE AFTER THE BALL. AFTERALL, WHAT ELSE ARE YOU CAPABLE OF DOING? HOPE THIS IS BIG ENOUGH FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND, I KNOW THAT YOU'RE EXTREMELY DENSE, YES I DO. you see, ppl. i support my class ALOT! especially WeeSheng, he's my younger bro.. so as a normal human reaction, i shout back. so don't insult 6G. actually, you can insult the noobs [: i didn't say anything.. haha. bitchell the MVP. congrats! trust me, i don't mean it. bitchell. bitchell. bitchell. SIGH. speechless. no comments. *gasps for air* *fainted* jiayun, don't be upset, I LOVE YOU TOO <3 -_- lol. my class's going to Chek Jawa tomorrow. hope it'll be something..erm..enjoyable & memorable. ..yea, right! ELEESA'S COMING BACK ON WED MORNING. SHE'LL BE IN SCHOOL ON THUR :D YaaaaaaaaY. saw you today, will see you tmr. what about next year? yea, till we're 17.. i'l count the days till i'm 17 <3 just for you. oh, just for you. Saturday, November 03, 2007
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i've got to do a short post now. Stairway to Heaven is showing at 2pm. it's 1.41pm now!!! went to church today. youth camp; haven't decided. hopefully, i'll be able to skip the chess competition & be free!!!! 12 july; the track & field thingy. really want to go. so i'll have ta skip the chess thingy too :D but he'll be there; at the chess thingy ]: jiayun, i think i saw a ring @ a shopping centre near my house, it was only a glimpse though.. i've decided to geta bottle for him, the reason: i'll tell you some other time <3 i'll love you till i'm 17/ 19! PROMISE!! you're more lovable each day! i love you so! 12:14 AM
seventeen: 17!!! LOVE YOU <3 forever. 12:03 AM
he's playing on Mon!! all the best to all playing in the Inter-Class Soccer on Mon :D i'm hoping that 6B / 6G will win though.. rightt, i'm posting in the afternoon & there's nothing exciting going on. JIAYUN, I LOVE YOU SO <3 COS YOU'RE THE CRAPPIEST PERSON EVER!! LIK ME.. HAHA. and Love, i'll be staying back to be that EXTRAA SOMEONE for you & him. fixed my blog song. I'M SO HAPPY TODAY, I DON'T KNOW WHY!! I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH <3 17! i'll remember you.. we'll keep in touch.. FOREVER!! Friday, November 02, 2007
tell me you love me!! 5:23 AM
and let love roam around our hearts & let it's presence linger there. that heart's just full of him. my comp's so laaaaaaag. it's a happy day today :D haha, i'm always starting with how nice a day is. played soccer. SEAN, YOU DIE! MY PANT'S ASS! QIRUI, YOU DIE TOO, WITH SEAN! Qirui almost ripped my blouse off, if he did, he'll get a slap. Junhao & WeeSheng rock <3>woofwoof gene was the same as ever, wanting to be in the 'winning' team. we lost, WeeSheng, Junhao, Jiayun, myself, Tongtong & some other ppl. damn lot of ppl today.. after school, the guys didn't stay back. so Jiayun & I went to Island Creamery & had a Mudpie each <3 not lame, then what? nvm, everyone has a kid in them [: NYGH called jiayun up :D i'm SUPER SUPER HAPPY FOR HER <3 color="#999999">until we're 17! yes! yes! yes! i'll love you forver. FORVER! if not 17, it'll be 19!! i love you too much that i don't want to let you go. show me the meaning of being lonely, but still love me inside. me; your happiness.. it's awaiting you. my friend, my lover, my happiness, as well <3 Thursday, November 01, 2007
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today's a good day, but not as good as the BBQ night. the girls sold: cookies, chocolate coated marshmallows, ice-cream floats, drinks, chips. the guys: Xbox. we earned: $662.50 not bad, huh? as in..for 12-year-olds like US! rightt. here's the exciting part. he came to my store, as promised :D that's really sweet, thanks! THE STUPID STUPID GWEN SAID I BAKED THE COOKIES!! ooohh..WOW -.- gwen, you die.. i didn't bake ANYTHING! so i made her tell him.. so sorry to disappoint you. fyi, I DON'T BAKE [: i was so happy. i had a whole 2 hours to see him <3> lol, kidding.. to whoever purchased food items/ played the Xbox fromm 6g: THANKS FOR SHOPPING & ENJOYING YOUR TIME WITH 6G, HAVE A NICE DAY.. i'm a nice person, but not all the time. went to serene after school with the guys & myself, jiayun, tongtong. came back at 2.30pm and played soccer :D P/S i just realised that it's a nice game. the starting was sweet, everyone cooperating & enjoying themselves. UNTIL QIRUI WENT HOME. the group thing..don't want to think about it. everything was screwed up. jiayun & myself wanted to be in weisheng's group. but eugene wanted weisheng & if jiayun & i joined the group; too many people. eugene, what i personally feel is that you want to be in the winning team. everyone would want that. i would. being in Track & Field, i've learnt that WINNING IS EVERYTHING. but, hey..look, this is training, an unimportant match, not a tournament-styled one. & you boys need to train on your stamina, endurance, tactics. why play in a team that you know you'll surely win? will every member of your team be able to play to his fullest limits? will you guys find difficulty when 'tackling' with your opponent? i t's a NO. if i were you, i'd be pissed. LIKE DU-UH!! so..yea, you just need to know that you're not boss & you don't have a say in what you want & what you don't want, even though you think you do. but, it's not your fault; you've always been like that. and frankly, you've got attitude problem, BUT NOT TO WORRY, i also got [: haha. jiayun, CHILL!!!!!! inter-class is on Mon..according to sean lee; 6H. don't know who's playing :D that smiley is dedicated to jiayun & eugene, just to lift the mood & cheer their spirits up [: am i being extra?? heehee. i heard that people who loved each other will end up meeting each other, so cheesy, but i've heard of it.. jingyen, my apologies; i gave you the SUCKER look, i was angry.. sorry. i'll remember you till i'm 17. then, i'll meet you; hopefully. i've decided to take the ring with me, & this promise i'll keep, just for you, just for you.. my sunset in the rain <3 |
