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Sunday, December 30, 2007
9:12 PM
WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHIRSTMAS, WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS, WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR. i'm still celebrating :D haha, jk! 8:35 PM
i'll be going to church tonight for..Thanksgiving; i think. & for the time being, i can waste away my time, thinking about myself <3 lol, kiddin'.. i don't know what to bring to school except for some forms & my wallet <333 it's so good to know that i'll be getting my allowance again :D cos i'll be able to spent, spent, spent. (SHH, don't let my mum know..haha!) i finally realised that jiayun's definition of 'explode', is 'expire' haha! last last night aka the night before last night, i had this really sad, happy, sweet, fairytale dream. it was sooo cooool [: there were 2 princes, one was the good guy & the other was the bad guy. i had a step-mother&sister, which all hated me. they were filty rich people who lived in a mansion that kinda looked like a hotel. matthieu & bella were in my dream.. only for a short while, than they disappeared, lol. ya'll 6G-ers ('O7), 7th Jan; SCHOOL!! idon'tknowhattime..haha! school's starting tmr tmr. it'll be soo fun :D that's what i'm thinking.. but we'll be having talks & talks & talks for like 3/4 of the day, so i'm prepared to be bored. & i feel really awkard in the school-U, cos it's so..weird. & i've got to be sociable & put on a smile, like this :D & i'll have to continue t/f. that's good, i guess, cos i just realise that i'm f--a--t. well, fatter than before, so i have to do something about it & that is T-R-A-I-N-I-N-G. maaaaan, training's are tiring but IT'S DAMN FUN <3 oh, yea..i'll have to tie my hair when i go to school otherwise i'll get booked on the 1st day of school like my sister, HAHAHAHAHAH. L-O-S-E-R!! x: & i'll have to wear socks that are..above the ankle. & I'LL HAVE TO THE PERFECT LITTLE GIRL o_O it scares me; just the thought of it.. clarissa, is always that little perfect angel, just that she's such a bitch, cos she thinks she's damn bloddy great when she's not. (she won't read this, i'm crossing my fingers..) & i figured out that i could be that 'little perfect angel' she is, but i chose not to, cos it was way FREAKY! she'll be in the same school as i am, so i'm just going to TRY to be nice to her.. afterall, i've been pissing her off since P1, when she was in my class. she is such a snob! everyone's getting so bored, while i'm getting so excited [: school's starting = the start of studying without an end. school closes = STOP STUDYING. lol.. honestly, i've never really studied like, REALLY study hard kinda thing, only this year..cos everyone was talking about studying & PSLE..it seemed so important to everyone, so i just..studied. but you know, for the normal school exams. you don't need to studystudy, you just need to study & eat & grow fat & enjoy, HAHA. that's why my mum can't stand me.. i've got a stupid mosquito bite on my back.. of all places, MY BACK.. & i can't reach the spot. lol, why am i writing about this? you guys must think i'm damn lame, right? ]: haha. ta's! a dream is but an illusion, you feel & yet you feel. an illusion to make your feelings waver, your heart to fly...& drown. you are nothing else; just my dream. 12:12 AM
woke up really late today, so we were REALLY late for church, like 40min late X: after church, had lunch, shop..shop.. okay. that's it. & i'm having a stupid headache now cos it's bloddy hot today ]: hmph! my legs are aching so badly.. & it's really not very convenient to get in & out of the car with aching legs.. cos it hurts, BIG TIME. poor, poor joeline.. i'll have to go to church tomorrow for a service. thanksgiving? i don't know.. & i've gotta make an effort to go to Youth, cos everyone from my level is already going & i'm going to be the anti-social outcast again if i don't try to fit in. i'm going to vist my grandma today. later; for dinner. came back kinda late so i missed my cheesy korean drama ]: i'll just catch it on youtube when i'm free (: so..school's starting, i wouldn't be able to blog everyday.. i'll have to be a guaikia & blend it with the crowd. it's kinda scary, you know.. i have NEVER see so many guaikias in one place, at the same time before. IT'S SO TRAUMATISING!!!! i've made a SLIGHT improvement. i talked to 3 people in church today :D haha. it's good okay. G-O-O-D. i've just realised that my blog's kinda pinky.. ta's! everything i hold on to, is everything i can't let go. Friday, December 28, 2007
9:48 PM
guess what i've been doing? trainining was tiring, (so jiayun & i tried our best to slack.) 7 rounds, 100m walk, 100m RUN. i seriously don't know what's coach definition of RUN. so, we just.....ran! HAHA. candace, the serious, all-the-way kinda girl, seemed to be..i don't know, angry? whatever. came home, DID SOME STUPID CHORES FOR MY PARENTS ]: & sleeeeeep <3 & now i'm blogging :D yaaaay. haven't had lunch yet X: thanks, Andre! thanks, Jiayun for the prezzies..my shoulder's aching, lol..the cookies are great! thier kinda chewy, haha! love you the same <3 i'm kinda hungry now. wonder what's for lunch.. okay, anyway... MY SHOULDER IS ACHING.. idon'tknowwhy]: ta's! hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by. 3:23 AM
went to school today for CCA Orientation. had a talk; a LOOOOOONG talk. we had a tour around the CCA booths, it was kinda boring ]: everyone there was so..stone, & i seemed to be like talking to myself.. clarissa was there, so she was the only one who could entertain me [: i was just trying to be nice to her for atleast once, okay.. afterall, it's damn nice to piss her off :D i was in Group #7. haha, jiayun, you're suppose to be jealous, lol. so i've gotta be sociable, smile & be happy.. I'M TRYINGGG--- THANKS, boyboy :D lol, must make sure you see this.. was watching one of Jeremy Sumpter's movie in the morning <3 he acted in CSI too..(as the bad guy/ murderer :P) haha. really really tired now.. cos i spent most of the time walking & walking & walking & walking.. guess what? i've finally sweat today!!!! it's been a long time since i've sweat.. there's no such word as sweated, right? lol.. sweat, sweat, sweat. saw xingting today when going to have dinner. early dinner [: lol, geraldine's so cute <3 haha. BUT JEREMY SUMPTER'S CUTER! Mr BlueEyes. Mr BigSmile. OH, YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAA........... i haven't kept any of my promises this year :D really!! lol.. okee, ta's! you took my hand, you showed me how. you promised me you'd be around. Thursday, December 27, 2007
5:30 PM
i've found a skin [: after an hour..lol CALLING FOR ANYONE WHO WOULD LIKE TO DO UP MY BLOG FOR ME!! cos i ain't got the time to. my pick: http://blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=128592&action=Preview it's a nice skin <3 don't you think so? SO IF THERE'S ANYONE WHO WOULD LIKE TO HELP ME, FEEL FREE TO GET MY PASS.. lol..don't even think about hacking. -sticks tongue out- HAHA. ta's! orientation @ 12.45pm SHARP. that's what they said -.- Some of us fall by the wayside, Some of us soar to the stars. And some of us sail through our troubles, And some have to live with scars. 4:18 PM
okee peeps, i'll change my blogskin when i've got the time to cos i'm quite sick of it although i think it's a really pretty skin. i'll be busy this afternoon; acting like a guaikia [: haha. so...JEREMY SUMPTER is still very cute <3 & i'm still the best :D (only for the moment..) my comp was spolit yesterday so we had a replacement. a super old comp, I'M USING IT NOW.. lol. just that the screen's kinda small & it looks kinda funny... SCARY, ISN'T IT? haha. goodmorning! 8.24am ta's! escapade to Neverland. 12:12 AM
Jeremy Sumpter/ Peter Pan is 18. he's attached; but not married yet. rightt, so i've given up on him ]: cos.. he's 18. ... & i'm 12-going 13. so, you get it? we're 6 years different. BUT HE'S SO HOT :D today; busy day. nice weather [: lol. went to buy the school-Us & books. with my darling pen refill <3 haha, it's blue-black!! may not be going for training tomorrow, Yun.. cos i've got orientation on. damn..i've been slacking. that's the line that's going to zip all my hopes away. BYEBYE, HOPES. ]: i wanted to be the best-est, cos i didn't want to lose. but, hello, joe!! YOU'RE THE SLACKEST (if there ever is such a word..) okay, whatever. anw, i've got a change in plan for my Hopes. & I AIN'T TELLING YOU [: cos everyone's gonna laugh & me & call me a loser, cos 3 years of everything'll soon be NOTHING. & i can decide, FINALLY! but i don't like to decide.. lol. commitment is not only about winning medals & trophies. it's about attending the training, belonging, knowing. that's what they told me. & so i found the LINE to end my Hopes. no, i ain't telling you more. t/f may be the world to me. something i've got a passion for. but what's the point? what's the point of being a star when you're just training & when it comes to the REAL world, you just..freak out.. what's the point? there's no more wine in the glass. cos the glass's broken. you broke it. so the wine you made; gone. efforts gone to waste, that's what i'm talking about. so i'll be wearing a mask & attend the masquerade with everyone. that's the game of Life. whatever. i'm going off-key. i'll decide sooner or later.. ta's!  i tried to jump, but couldn't reach. when i finally got one, i let it go; i thought i wouldn't know you anymore after that.Wednesday, December 26, 2007
4:04 AM
MUMMY, DON'T DELETE MY BLOG.. i love you <3 haha. thanks, boyboy..for your e-card :D i'm so sad without my darling electronic machine. cos i can't talk to people & ask them to be happy ]: tomorrow will be a busy day, buying school-U & some other idon'tknow stuff X: haha. boyboy, be happy :D & sociable. & smile [: miss all the people who i've smsed ]: cos i'm so freaking bored at home with no communication with the outside world. & my comp's dying..it turned purple just now. & IT KEEPS ON ACTING-GUAI IN FRONT OF MY MUM o_O sound retarded, right? IT'S TRUE, OKAY.. ta's! wanna talk to you so badly ]: 2:55 AM
i've just striked out some stuff from my posts. cos my mum read my blog & she was like, i want you to stop blogging & delete all those words on your blog BIG SMILE FROM ME. lol. i got it, eleesa [: i know you did TOO!! haha. i THINK i'll be going for youth this Sat.. THINK, THINK, THINK. so how's everyone? HAPPY? yes? GOOD. i want you to be happy. i spent 2hours doing my cheena homework. TWO BLODDY HOURS! that is like..forever!! atleast i got it done [: GUIAKIA!! hahaha.. cheena class this morning; 9am.. i was like trying to hard not to close my eyes. to stop yawning, to try to be..a guaikia..lol I TRIED SO HARD, OKAY.. & then... THE TIME CAME... IT WAS FINALLY OVER <3 oh, yea..baby! okay. yesterday i was trying on 2 types of uniform, cos i didn't know which school i was going to YET. so.. the ending: ARGUEMENT, happily ever after (NOT). with my mum. so..it was a badnight for x'mas.. peter pan is soooooo hotttttt!! i didn't really intended to watch it yesterday, cos i've watched it like 3 times already.. & that stupid girl who acted as wendy got to kiss him ]: DAMN HER.. make me so jealous.. lol. but really, really, really, he's so cute <3 REALLY!!  YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, YOU SEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D he has that uber cute smile [: really sweet eyes.. REALLY. ta's! Tuesday, December 25, 2007
1:23 AM
 just a pic of my sis & i in Cheena. haha! & a stupid pic of me sleeping, i was tired then, okay..so i woke up 30min late :P HAHA! whatever! I'VE CHANGED MY SONG <3 it's an old one, but i love it :D HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA! lol. 1:11 AM
MERRY X'MAS, YA'LL! & a happy new year [: i wish you all the best next year, be good children, so santa will come & give you your prezzies :D always strive for the better, DON'T EVER THINK OF GIVING UP!!! always be happy, cos i want EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU to be the happiest person ever, cos you've got me <3 HAHA! nah, it's cos i treasure you guys ALOT!! thanks, ya'll, for sticking with me all this time. LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER [: i wished someone merry x'mas. guess what was his responds? 'i don't want to talk to you..' it's kinda..kinda...sad knowing that..but, friends come & go, i can't help it but just say to myself that i'll be meeting new people soon &..& i'll be happy soon.. stupid, i just tried to correct the situation & you didn't understand that. you've been a great friend, stupid guy. STUPID GUY! stood up for you, you slapped me in the face. well, school will be starting for us all. it'll be fun going to a new school, new people, new charaters, forgotten past. jiayun, i've yet to give you your prezzie. LOVE YOU THE SAME <3 haha ;D thanks for everything, love.. so what i'm going to do is to forget all those stupid people who gave me a bitter past. & i'll start loving everyone i meet right now :D thanks, God.. for giving me friends! ta's! i've been watching too many fairytales, i've found myself now. I'M FREE!! & i want you to be as happy as i am. Sunday, December 23, 2007
1:03 AM
WEIMIN HAS SHIFTED: www.disconect-ed.blogspot.com okay, i've got another party today. & i'll just eat & smile again, like i did yesterday.. lol. & i'll get more prezzies [: i've realised that i'm a damn fortunate kid, cos there are people who don't celebrate x'mas like i do, & some..don't get gifts, like i do. so..yea, it's kinda sad........... missed lunch today. so i'm damn hungry ]: so i decided to eat bubblegum, but it doesn't help..haha! X'MAS IS COMING! i didn't know it'll come so soon. cos usually i'd have to count the days to x'mas. but this year, it just comes <3 LOL. so..today, the party is for my mum's side of people. I'M HUNGRY! as in seriously, i'm damn hungry right now ]: i'm going to snitch some food from the kitchen.. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA :D ta's! it's good to know that you'll always be there. Saturday, December 22, 2007
1:33 AM
i'm so freaking sad that you're not appreciative of what i've done. i've lose a friend. & it's as good as i've lost everything & you come back asking me to buzz of.. you freaking i'm sorry...you're all i've got. Friday, December 21, 2007
11:44 PM
i like pain, i'm a sadist . i was feeling rather crappy this morning. my mum: get the lettuce ready. me: do we need any stamps for the postage? my mum: shut up. LOL. so fun, everything's underlined.. yesterday, my dad was crappy. so everywhere i went, he waved an umbrella in my direction. today, my dad & i were being crappy. my dad: turkey, CHECK! salad, CHECK! pork, CHECK!....yada..yada.. my mum: you're driving me nutts! (& i just finished mopping the floor for my mum; i was being nice) me: staircase, CHECK! piano room, CHECK! living room, CHECK! my mum: you see la! like father like daughter, ALL THE SAME ONE.. P/S it's kinda fun to annoy my mum, lol..i know, very evil :D X'MAS IS COMING <3 i just realised that, lol.. the underline thingy is getting annoying.. lol.. ta's! i don't want another pretty face, i don't want just anyone to hold, i don't want my love to go to waste, i just want you & your beautiful soul. 11:21 PM
You know what those memories were? Those were the memories of nobody; left alone to face te firing squad. Stupid boy, you never did mean anything you said. & i was the biggest fool to have trusted you, the biggest ass to have known you. so... the family gathering will be held later. yea, & my family's really tired.. actually, it's my mum, lol.. you know sometimes you turn around & laugh at the past. the wonderful people you meet & the stupid people you meet. you were once Mr Lovable. only to have died down & vanish. only to know that everything was, indeed, a false impression. only to know that everything was shit. i use to think that memories were the sweetest price for meeting people. & i thought everyone was everything. i was stupid. okay, whatever! i'm a happy person now, with faint memories of the past. i don't know why they're so faint.. not that i wanted them to be faint. they just..go. but i'm still a happy person with memories of yesterday. chess competition, LOL. kiddin' i use to say that i like to be happy, then i realise..WHO DOESN'T? ta's! when people fall out of your view, you can't pick them up. you can only cross you fingers & hope that they'll pass by again. & i was hoping to bring you back into my view, only that i can't. i like the way you smile. i like the way i smile much sweeter than you. lol. 7:56 PM
don't really have time today cos of the family gathering thingy. met 3 spiders today. i kinda accidentally squished one, BUT SERIOUSLY, IT WASN'T MY FAULT!! it's just so...squishable, lol.. but i really didn't mean to, cos it's damn gross.. anw, it turned out damn gross.. yea, & i don't know which side of the family is coming today. & i don't know what i'm going to do other than eat & try to be friendly, cos i'm not say very close to be cousins. & tmr will be another one. the truth is: you just put on a smile & pretend to be the sweetest person ever [: lol, it works instantly.. my yahoo account is died-ed, haha! just packed my table. my definition of 'pack' is: tojust stack up all the books & make the table look really neat. HAHA! ta's! 1:35 AM
now everything's ended. illusions are gone. & i can't do anything but to sit back & watch you go. byebye, boy. 1:17 AM
won my game today. it's the last-est day, if you're wondering. lost both my games yesterday. played with 5 Northland kids. & their teacher o_O lol. so i'm kinda tired today. i don't know why. santa claus is scary ]: HOHOHO!! having a family gathering @ my house tmr/ x'mas party. & another one on the 23rd.. SO THERE'S GOING TO BE LOTS TO EAT :D haha, kiddin'.. my parents are going to buy stuff later. & WE JUST CAME BACK FROM CARREFOUR!! gosh.. how was your sec 1 registration day today? i didn't go ]: cos i couldn't.. my parents went; my mum signed me up for this malay course thingy. !@#$%^&*()_+ OH MY SHIT LA! (that was my responds, & she got really mad, lol) ta's! not much to blog about today \: & i thought i'd play for you, but only to known i'll be straying further. Wednesday, December 19, 2007
6:07 AM
i closed my eyes & waited, only to find myself broken when the storm was gone. & i thought i'd look for you to bring me back to how i was. so i missed you. only to know that i was different, & you had left. 5:54 AM
i was a very selfish person last month. i wanted all my friends to stay,. i wanted to remember every single one of them. i didn't want to lose any. cos i treated them as something i treasure; a valuable, every single one of them, but only to find out that they didn't see me as i saw them. so i gave up, gave up on everything. lost both my games today. don't wanna talk about it. 4 words: i'm a loser today. tmr will be another day. went to school today, after the 1st game. as usual, everyone was gone by then.. saw Yang. 3 MORE GAMES TO GO, JOE! sigh.. ta's! staring out the window, waiting for you to pass by. Tuesday, December 18, 2007
6:53 AM
what am i? what are you? who are they? ALL all & if i agreed with you that he's a & if i nodded my head, saying no in my mind..i'd be lying. 6:29 AM
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5:06 AM
i love geraldine's blog song <3 won both my games today [: played with 2 small Northland Pri guys.. one chinese, one indian (with super big eyes, he kept staring at me..HMPH!) the guy(G): "ARBITER!" (raises up hand) me: great, what's wrong now..? G: my opponent is adjusting her pieces during my time & it's irritating me.. me: -.- OH-MY-GOSH!! he's so retarded!! (serious, my jaw dropped la!) arbiter: as long as she says adjust it's okay. G -he shuts up- THAT IS SO..ARGH!! i'm speechless, man.. my thought bubble: I AM GOING TO DESTROY YOU TODAY! yea, so i won :D seriously, he's such a retard!! out to get me or what? he hates me ]: WHATEVER.. lol. 2 more games tmr.. sigh. 4 games are over.. 5 MORE TO GO! -gasps- -faints- just realised something.. the chess mums don't like jay chou, JUST COS HE MUMBLES O_O no fair! no fair! he's songs are nice <3 most of them, anyway.. ta's! GoodNight [: thought i'd be seeing you around today [: Monday, December 17, 2007
5:09 AM
YO'S! two more tmr. two more tmr tmr. two more tmr tmr tmr. one more tmr tmr tmr tmr. THAT IS HOW MY LIFE'S GOING TO BE FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS, OR SO I THINK SO.. it's a great life, isn't it? (not) SCHOOL WILL BE STARTING SOON :D i don't know if it's good or bad... my 1st game today: i was really sleepy. my 2nd game today: i was sleepy too! SUCKER! i had such a freaky nightmare. N-I-G-H-T-M-A-R-E! i dreamt that we were doing this selection for something that has to do with running; sprinting. & i was running with the P3s.. & i was running as fast as i could, but i was still at the back. i got 2nd last in the end.. another time, i dreamt that.. this 2 chess guys which i don't know at all were chasing me to like attend this chess course which i really didn't want to attend cos the coach was such a bastard & he kept mocking me. & i was running like shit, i was really RUNNING!! but those 2 assholes got me ]: & i felt like such a failure cos i couldn't run away. o_O i know, very lame.. BUT I HATE IT WHEN I START DREAMING OF MYSELF RUNNING. COS WHENEVER I DO SO, I'M THE RUNNER WITH THE TAG CALLED: L-O-S-E-R. low self-esteem; MUST BE! okay, whatever.. as usual, i'm slacking AGAIN. HAHA! Man U won 1 - 0 <33 I KNEW IT :D isn't that greeaaaatt? YES!! i'm really tired ]: IT RAINED TODAY {: although it wasn't the big, heavy, noisy, wet, thunderstormy kinda rain i like.. I LOVE IT WHEN IT RAINS <3 when i was really young & we shifted to the terrace, & when it starts raining.. guess what i do? i start playing in the rain!!! SERIOUSLY, IT'S DAMN FUN! YOU SHOULD TRY IT ONE DAY :D you get all wet & cold.. but you really do enjoy yourself [: I like THE PIANO. COS IT HAS black & white EMO KEYS. lol, kiddin'.. but playing the piano's fun.. cos when you're piss, you just bang! the piano (but i don't do that, lol.) & when you're in the mood to play the piano, you just play until your hands ache. & you just repeat the songs you like over & over again, until you're sick of it.. & you try to keep on playing although your hands are almost dying... COS IT'S DAMN NICE TO PLAY THE PIANO <3 seriously, it's true..for my case..lol yahahahahaha! jiayun's back :D geraldine's back :D JIANHONG WILL BE BACK TOMORROW [: I WON'T BE GOING TO SCHOOL ON THE 19TH !@#$%^&*()_+ unless i finish my game early :D TA'S! goodmorning, my lovely angel [: Sunday, December 16, 2007
1:09 AM
i still remember the time jingyen deleted all my contacts & then he said liked me. HOW CRAPPY CAN HE GET? lol. 12:10 AM
watched stairway to heaven.. emo story. the guy is like damn cute!! but it's a really sad story ]: with alot of bitches involve in the plot. lol. technical meeting later @ 8pm; another competition.. church was normal. as usaul.. weimin, THIS IS A 2ND WARNING NOT TO ANNOY ME, okee? it's good to ask someone to shut up before they start crapping. & i've got this feeling you're going to start crapping. so, thank you for haha! well, my family & i are currently trying to kill time right now. we wanted to go shopping, but the carpark was full at raffles city ]: so we just..drove home. the stupid neighbours ARE STILL making hell lot of noise with some weird stuff. my sport shoes are still wet!! I'LL BE MISSING SCHOOL ON THE 19TH. sucker! i still think the guy from the show is damn cute <3 THINGS I HATE: #01: people insulting me. #02: people insulting me. #03: people insulting me. #04: people insulting me. #05: people insulting me. #06: people insulting me. #07: people insulting me. good, now you are clear of what i hate :D P/S guaikia's not an insult..LOL, andre.. P/S popiah's not an insult either [: MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i'm not retarded, if that's what you're thinking..my neighbours are! Man U VS. Liverpool [: yea, yea, WE ALL KNOW WHO WILL WIN!! Man Utd <3 woah, man.. i know i rock :D thank you!! i've realised that nobody seems to be online on Sundays.. only some dead people, LOL. btw, i saw 7 Ronaldo posters beside the road when i was in Cheena; i counted :D jiayun, i'm so sorry i couldn't tear it down for you.. cos people will stare & me & scold me in cheenaly & i wouldn't really understand what they're talking about & they're too big to be checked-in onboard the plane [: my eldest sister is Paw Paw Spears my other sister is Juniper Berry i'm Bourgurl. SO RETARDED, lol. we went to buy groceries(not exactly groceries, but cookies & stuff), cos we had nothing to do, & we happened to be walking at the organic section..& all this crap started..LOL. it's 5pm. everyone's dead. ta's! yea, & you'll be that hot guy on TV.. Saturday, December 15, 2007
7:13 AM
DEAREST COMPUTER, I'M DAMN PISS WITH YOU, COS I WAS POSTING ABOUT HOW RETARDED MY NEIGHBOURS ARE & YOU HAD TO BLODDY HANG. I HATE YOU! YOU'RE ONE STUPID, OLD, UGLY, FUGLY MACHINE THAT OUGHT TO DIE! BLEARGH! I AM SO BLODDY DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU. HMPH! anw, i'll just tell you guys the conclusion of how much my neighbours suck. THE ARE FAT, BLODDY, IDIOTIC PEOPLE WHO ARE BLODDY PAMPARED TILL THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO OPEN THEIR FREAKING GATE. & their stupid, fat, ugly people too! THAT'S IT. short & sweet. & I'M SO PISSED ]: cos the stupid computer sucks!! i am going to die. i'll be going to church tomorrow :D finally. yea, i'm an anti-social outcast. you can't blame me. morning's the beest-est time to stone & church's in the morning.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA x: i'm such an ass.... WAIT, I'M NOT.. MY NEIGHBOURS ARE.. they dirtied the whole bloddy road with their shit la.. came home finding the bloddy road filled with shit. that's what you get when you've got stupid, inconsiderate neighbours who are only out to piss you off. SUCKS! really tired... STUPID COMPUTER. STUPID NEIGHBOURS. I ROCK :D thank you..lol GO AWAY, DODOS.. buzz off.. Friday, December 14, 2007
8:56 PM
my parents put-up & decorated the big tree.. my sis & i did the baby tree. lol.  IT'S REALLY CUTE! i kinda wanted a black & white emo x'ms tree, but we didn't have black stuff, only that white thing on the tree, haha! & there's a retarded angel on top of the tree..  that looks damn guai. so.. tmr's the start of a new tournament. sigh.... & I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO GO TO SCHOOL COS OF THAT ]: this sucks! jianhong still owes me 2 hugs [: too bad, he wouldn't be seeing me. damn, i really wanna go back to school! not that i love it or what, but..i don't know why. the track in school's kinda nice, although it's like 250+m & it's traingular. LOL. & it's super fun to wet the classroom <3 & EVERYONE'S STILL ON HOLIDAY!!! hmph. i don't even know if i'd be continuing track next year... cos it's really nice to slack & stuff X: but... I WILL <3 cos it's really fun &stuff. 5:29 AM
eleesa, i'm not going for training tmr. i'm so sorry, you're going to have to make some new friends again. but don't worry.. i'll be around soon. 5:15 AM
my dad just put-up the x'mas tree. theme: golden x'mas. it's retarded. serious. the tree looks rather empty. & he talks about simplicity -.- my mum's getting the prezzies. Dee's being extra, commenting on stupid things. haha! i like the way you drive me crazy. 12:32 AM
we're going to put-up the x'mas tree tonight.. i think. haha! one of THE UNKNOWNS added me randomly. (of all people..ME!) she's called annabelle, Pri 6, Dao Nan --> going to RGS. worst: she's a GEP-er!!!! YEA, & i was trying to be friendly & stuff when she said, "good thing you don't hate gep-ers." !@#$%^&*()_+ oh, man.. i'm a traumatised little kid ]: rightt, so she's off, deleted, blocked! STAY AWAY FROM ME, GIRLO!!! OR.................. OR.....I'LL CALL THE POLICE!!! lol. retarded. woke up @ 7am just to use the comp. stopped @ 9am. slept @ 10am. woke up @ 11.45am. YEA, & I THOUGHT IT WAS 3PM -.- can't wait for x'mas <3>1st Day: yada-yada. had dinner, a really..simple dinner at the restaurant. there was fried rice & noodles, served on really big plates. well, the P6 guys & girls were sitting together. & i was sitting beside WeiSheng cos he was my SHORT brother & i, sadly, had the opportunity to look after him while he was eating, partly cos he was too short to reach his food. LOL. when the meal was supposedly over, all the juniors ran off to do..something..?? & we the big, hungry p6es were like, "DINNER'S OVER? WHAT? WE THOUGHT IT WAS ONLY THE APPETISER!" coach & the other big people started laughing o_O you know, as trackers, we love the same type of food & we somehow share the same ideas.. "I WANT CRAB!" "I WANT CHILLI CRAB!" "NO, CHILLI CRAB NOT NICE ONE." "SHUT UP! I WANT BLACK PEPPER CRAB!" lol, so retarded.. so coach, as a very nice guy, BOUGHT US ONE CHILLI & BLACK PEPPER CRAB FOR US!!! cos we clinched champion for the whole B Div this year <333>2nd Day: jiayun is one BIG weirdo. i was sleeping with her in a room. I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING -___- we were on different beds, okay.. & i really wanted to wake up. guess what? she didnt' allow me to O.O btw, eleesa bought me chocolate coated gummy bears, & they were super nice to eat!!! we had breakfast, soccer, swimming, cycling. THE OTHER PEOPLE HAD TO GO FOR A MORNING RUN!!! HAHA, & the p6-es were alowed to slack <33>I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YUKIKO & JIAYUN FOR TEACHING ME HOW TO CYCLE :D didn't have a chance to acquire the skill of riding a bike when i was young.. YOU CAN'T BLAME ME! so, yea, we..kinda gambled & the safra arcade.. & our money; G-O-N-E. we played air hockey. SUPER FUN <333 color="#cccccc">you don't know me, i don't know you. i love my illusions, just like how you're one of them. Thursday, December 13, 2007
4:23 PM
 when you said ,"what happened to that smile?" i walked away. you knew that everything didn't fit anymore, but you tried too hard. you said you'd be happy if i was, you lied, not to me, but to yourself. it hurts to watch myself go when i could have chosen not to. it's strange to know that love is but an illusion; an illusion of you & me. 3:31 PM
i don't care what colour Jupiter is, I ONLY KNOW THAT IT'S PURPLE! was looking for flying saucers, too bad i couldn't find a purple one.. i found a green one, lol.  cute isn't it? & the rest of the pictures were not nice ]: (up to page 4 only, i didn't have the patience to) want to know why you shouldn't post in the morning? like what i'm doing now.. COS THERE'S NOTHING TO POST ABOUT!!! & you're 25% stone in the morning.. JIAYUN & JIANHONG ARE STILL GONE ]: it's like i've been waiting for a month or something now... !@#$%^&*()_+= what do'u do when someone freaks you out with cheesy talk? "lol, yea..." than in your heart you'd be like, o_O i've found someone who thought i was a guaikia.. & he asked me if i was in GEP.. ANDRE!!! ta's! i officially hereby annouced that i you miss a step, you fall & die. slip of the tongue; say bye to your illusions. 3:35 AM
this is to all the kids out there going through a difficult time/ rebellious kids like me who have problems with their parents: you always have to remember two rules: #01: Your parents are always right. #02: If your parents are not right, see Rule #01. THAT SUCKS. & if you, like me, don't like the rules, this is what you do [: this is to all the kids going through a difficult time/ rebellious kids like me who have problems with their parents: you always have to remember two rules: #01: Your parents are always right. #02: If your parents are not right, see Rule #01. THIS ROCKS. 3:02 AM
i've just realised one thing: JIANHONG & JIAYUN ARE STILL GONE ): BTW, MY SIS'S BLODDY RUBIX CUBE WHACKED MY HEAD ]: stooooopid cube! 2:35 AM
hope it'll rain tonight [: I LOVE IT WHEN IT RAINS <333> it's raining, it's falling, the old man is snoring, he went to bed & bumped his head, & couldn't wake up in the morning. CONCLUSION: HE DIED FROM A CONCUSSION. lol. morning started off with...cheena tuition. we found a new teacher near ACSI. lemme tell you this, IT'S LIKE DAMN BORING!! you sit there for 2 hours, firguring out your Zao Ju. even worse; it's one-to-one tuition, so you can't daydream & start munching on sweets or something ]: & THE TEACHER WANTED IT TO BE 3 HRS TODAY. & my sis was all, "sure!" afterall, IT'S MEEEE! not her. & they were talking about how i was going to go home when i simply HAD NO IDEA AT ALL. all the buses there are like..U-N-K-N-O-W-N. so i sat there, freaking out. that's gay, i know..SHUT UP! i don't like going anywhere further than Orchad Road, from my house. so in the end, i didn't stay an extra hour. phew! that rocks :D MY DAD FETCHED MY SIS & I <3> yay! the car doesn't seem to annoying to me now..lol my sis had her medical at NUH. & i was stuck with her, watching her jumping up & down, doing some weird stuff. FOR AN HOUR. save me..SAVE ME!!!!!!!! & finally, it's sweet to be home, WITH LIKE ANOTHER 22 ZAO JUs FROM THE CHEENA TUITION LADY. i ABHORE ZaoJu cos: #01: i have random thoughts, i can't think of anything related to the word to form a sentence. #02: the cheena words don't like me. #03: i don't like the cheena words. SO WE CANNOT CLICK! so i'm not going to be friends with the cheena words. hmph. lol. #04: the cheena words are officially not my friends :D & i'm so proud of it!! haha. i'm really happy today :D i don't know why. I WANT A FLYING SAUCER! lol, & i'll go & paint Jupiter purple [: & your illusions fall back to place. i'm loving it <3 Wednesday, December 12, 2007
5:01 AM
YAYS! changed song again. tell me about it [: thanks <3 4:46 AM
9th position when they were giving out trophies for the top ten. LUCKY? yes. i won 1/2 of my games today. last game, i just..wanted to win, cos: #01: my opponent was pissing me off by shaking the table, looking around when it was her turn = taking super long, exchanging all my pieces. #02: everyone was drawing for their last games. #03: i simply couldn't stand my opponent. two unknown have added me online, if you're her/him, NICE TO MEET YOU [: rightt.. stupid Joeline, LOOK! there goes your Illusion. byebye, Illusion ]: damn it, i hate you, Joeline. you know sometimes, you just have to admit that you're a loser. i'm a loser. cos i want everything, i dream TOO much for the not-so-great-things. & then start to brood over them. people come & go; the problem with me? i want to know people. i don't want to forget. that's retarded, i know. but i'm not a retard, okay.. W for Whatever. i'm going to start doing up my friendster, it's been not made-up for ages.. NOW YOU'RE GONE AGAIN! WHO THE HELL IS RACHEL? i'm jealous. jealous that i'm not the one you're talking to. that's petty. i can't help it. Tuesday, December 11, 2007
4:11 AM
JIANHONG & JIAYUN ARE STILL GONE ]: if you're thinking of being a moron, BE a moron [: what seems to be starting anew, will disappear tomorrow. try asking yourself to stop this illusion. When life gives you a lemon, say, "Nice lemon, what else ya got?" -a book rockmelon. stonemelon. papermelon. watermelon. firemelon. airmelon. landmelon. seamelon. wintermelon. summermelon. autmnmelon. springmelon. melonmelon. THAT'S ENOUGH. a watermelon's called a watermelon just cos it's more-or-less filled with water. a bloodcreature's called a bloodcreature just cos it's more-or-less filled with blood. O_O bloodmelon. acidmelon. oxygenmelon. nitrogenmelon. (carbondioxidemelon is extinct.) heliumelon. jOEmelon <-- endangered species of melon, cos there only happens to be one around :D I SAID THAT'S ENOUGH! want to know what everyone that's in the chess tournament is currently doing? studying, revising, going through games. want to know what i'm doing? B-L-O-G-G-I-N-G. & hopefully my mum doesn't read this X: lol. YOU ARE: UNACCEPTABLE. I AM: ACCEPTABLE. don't look down, it'll all be gone by tomorrow. when you play with Fire, Fire plays with you. when you get burnt, Fire blows out. what's lose is lose, regret is Unacceptable. just like how you let oppurtunities slip by; that's under Unacceptable. If you hold hands & smile, that's just the outward appearance, but if you hold hands & laugh, that's who you are. 3:20 AM
won 1/2 games today. WOOOOOOOOTS! tmr's the last-est day. WITH THE LAST-EST 2 GAMES. finally... it seems to be getting more & more.. tense, nervous, exciting.. the game, i mean. & i'm starting to freak out (as usual -.-) i'll just remind myself to.. to...to...enjoy the game :D that was a forced smile. andre (another one) is going through a difficult period of his life. he's supposedly in outer-space. quote, unquote; his mum. this is a black, white, grey box. GOOD, YOU'RE ONE STEP CLOSER TO BEING EMO [: don't ask me why. when you lose, you're one step down.
Monday, December 10, 2007
4:59 AM
won both my games today. thanks. saw Klarissa, cos her Bro was supposedly having training there. seen any paw-prints?? i found the bitch! :X rightt, i'm really mean ]: BUT WHO CARES :D so tired. i don't know why. 2 more games tomorrow. it's the 3rd day tomorrow. so tomorrow's tomorrow will be the 4th & last day [: 4 MORE GAMES! come on, jOE. COME ON. C-O-M-E O-N! when i'm winning in a game of chess, i feel really scared. when i'm losing, i feel like s-h-i-t. JIANHONG & JIAYUN ARE STILL GONE ]: one word: DAMN. W is for Whatever. HERE COMES jOE. THERE SHE GOES AGAIN. LALALALALALALALALA. just felt like it.. ta's! personal message to someone: THAT'S FOR MOCKING ME ABOUT HOW I SUCK! when a new guy comes around, you faint, ooh-lala! now i've found you. don't cry, don't be upset. cos it hurts on my side. the sweet sweet love story written by me,. yet anger knows how to dance around; forming illusions for the weak-hearted. now, disperse, like how you've always done so. Sunday, December 09, 2007
4:04 AM
HEADLINES: jOE LOSES ALL HER GAMES TODAY @ THE LATEST CHESS COMPS. o_o tell me about it. THAT'S GAY ]: cos i played with say-the-not-so-strong players. & I STILL LOSE! woooaah... 3 MORE DAYS TO GO WITH TWO GAMES PER DAY.. i'll try my best-est best, okee? don't ask me why. i don't like to lose. DRATS! now Jiayun & Jianhong's gone. & THEY LEFT ME HERE. to face the firing squad of..of whatever! i just re-read 2 books, Safe House & Mediator #3. i know, stupid teens has some gift, falls in love with a cute guy..yada-yada. IT'S JUST A MAKE-YOU-HAPPY KINDA STORY BOOK. so don't ever let me catch saying i'm full of crap. I KNOW YOU'RE THINKING ABOUT IT.. i was angry & started being really spiteful to my sisters one day, & i realise why people ARE spiteful. that's cos: #01. it makes you feel way better. #02. it makes you feel more superior than the other party. #03. it makes the other party feel lousy. maybe i'm becoming more..i-must-be-a-guai-kia-cos-of-what-i-think-and-say. THAT'S BAD, IF YOU'RE WONDERING. have you ever thought of ME being a GuaiKia? NO. good, cos it's..S-C-A-R-Y. high socks, tucked in PE shirt, super high pants, neat ear-length hair, clipped & tied up. neat handwriting, enthu in all classes, no matter how boring they are.
EEEEW! now, now, i'm not being prejudice against GuaiKias.. yea, right! X: MY LIPS ARE SEALED. & i'll just shut up & go do what i ought to be doing right now ]: TA'S! tell me you're from Jupiter, Saturday, December 08, 2007
5:58 AM
will you come back now? cos i'm missing you. & i'll miss you later & forever. another day will pass, & i'll be conuting till the 11th. the last teardrop. i don't need you to wipe my tears. i don't need you to feel me up with happiness; i've found reality, i've found the meaning of upset, because of you. happy now? 4:33 AM
DAMN, I MISS JIANHONG ]: it's not fair at all! of all times, i come back, he goes & i can't go to church tomorrow cos i've got a chess tournament on; it'll last for the next 4 days, starting from tomorrow. & you know how i don't go goo-goo-ga-ga over chess. COULDN'T IT BE LIKE SOME OTHER COMPETITION? like who can scream the loudest? or who can annoy the most? maybe something like who can sleep the longest? this sucks! BIG TIME ]: i have no idea why i'm still so tired. this is the 2nd day back from GuangZhou. & i woke up @ 10.30am. & slept @ 2pm, & woke up again @ 5.45pm. ... I DON'T WANT TO DIE ... & when i woke up @ 5.45pm, i wondered what JianHong has done all the time while i was sleeping. SHOPPING. that's a wild guess. he smsed me before he left, cos i asked him to :D that's not funny. i got tagged for a quiz ]: According to the rules, people who are tag must write 7 weird things about themselves and then choose 7 people to be tagged.-blahblahblahblahblah- and please enjoy the following words." :} #01: I CAN'T STAND TWITS..iiex lurbbe euxxx...BUT I USE THEIR LINGO TO ANNOY [: #02: I love guys when I see them, then I hate them so bad.-shakes head- -sighs- #03: when I'm hungry, I'VE GOTTA HAVE THE BEST-EST FOOD. (If not, you wouldn't want to know what happens.) #04: I don't know why I keep dozing of when it comes to chess lessons. (IT'S REALLY NOT MY FAULT!) #05: I like to know that people love me <33> #06: I like dark purple & NOBODY ELSE CAN!! #07: I know that Jiayun's Grey, Eleesa's yellow, Yukiko's Pink, Tongtong's Blue & I'M SUCH A GREAT RAINBOW PERSON :D Yes, please enjoy ME [:
1. Geraldine [: 2. Yukiko [: 3. Maya [: 4. Katherine [: 5. blah--- 6. blah's friend-- 7. blah's friend friend-
SO THAT'S IT. Friday, December 07, 2007
6:46 AM
JIANHONG'S LEAVING FOR SHANGHAI @ 1AM LATER ]: damn it. of all days, it has to be the day after i arrive back here. HMPH! he's coming back on the 18th.. 11 DAYS!!!! THE HORROR!!!!!!! ]: 1ST DAY TO GUANGZHOU(fri): woke up @ 3am. reached there @ 10.45am. a friend fetched us to the hotel to check-in. lunch @ Japan Fusion, supposedly the biggest Jap restaurant in Asia. shop. shop. shop. shop. dinner. walk around to know the place. lights out. dreamt of: churchmates. 2ND DAY IN GUANGZHOU(sat): wake @ 8.45am. breakfast. shop. shop. shop. shop. lunch with friend. shop. shop. shop. shop. dinner with friend @ Tiger Prawn..super fascinating. shop. shop. back to hotel. watched a late-night movie. sleep. dreamt of: schoolmates. 3RD DAY IN GUANGZHOU(sun): wake @ 9am. breafkfast. church. lunch with friend @ Deluxe. shop. shop. shop. shop. dinner with friend. walk around the place. late-night movie. sleep. dreamt of: talking to churchmates when suddenly the schoolmates appear o_O 4TH DAY IN GUANZHOU(mon): wake @ 9.15am. breakfast. shop. shop. shop. shop. shop. shop. late lunch with friend. shop. shop. super tired. back to hotel. rest. watch whatever on television. really hungry. no food for dinner. walk around the place. found a restaurant. SAT BESIDE THE STINKING TOILET WITH MANY PEOPLE SMOKING IN THE RESTAURANT. stupid dinner ]: back to hotel. late-night movie. sleep. dreamt of: doing my manicure. LOL. IT'S TRUE! 6TH DAY IN GUANGZHOU(wed): wake @ 9.30am. breakfast. shop. shop. shop. shop. lunch with friend. shop. shop. shop. shop. shop. shop. kinda late now. really dead-tired. rest. rest. back for dinner. late-night movie. sleep. 5TH DAY IN GUANZHOU(tue): woke up LATE. very.. breakfast. took a shuttle bus to Clifford Estate to visit another friend. shop. lunch with friend. shop. shop. had a look around the estate. went to paddle on water..with my eldest sis. it's kinda like cyling on water. SUPER TIRING!!! went to friend's home. had tea-break. went to circus/ safari to watch an international..animal/ circus show. it was really funny & really scary & really enjoyable. went to a foodmart to buy sushi for dinner cos there was nothing else to buy ]: BUT IT TASTED GOOOD <3>7TH DAY IN GUANZHOU(thur): woke @ 6am. one cup of orange juice for breakfast. friend drove us to airport. had a really awful lunch @ the airport. (& it's suppose to be an international airport -.-) FLY. FLY. FLY. eating Poky <3 & chocolate <33 FOOD THERE WAS GOOD. AIR THERE WAS SUPER DUPER HAZY. RETAURANTS THERE ALLOW SMOKERS. & my family is super sway, always gets a smoker beside our table. THE COOLNESS THERE WAS WONDERFUL; 8 - 16 DEGREES CELCIUS. MISSED MOST OF THE PEOPLE EVERY NIGHT. WAS WONDERING IF THEY MISSED ME TOO \: MISSED JIAYUN VERY MUCH. MISSED YUKIKO VERY MUCH. MISSED GERALDINE, MY T-REX, VERY MUCH. this post is like awfully boring. cos all you see is. shop. shop. shop. lol. TA'S! touch me, kiss me. but you don't know me. Thursday, December 06, 2007
5:55 AM
Joeline is officially back today :D She is glad to be back in S'pore. She will post tomorrow when she's got the time to, as she is being chased off the comp. man, there're cute guys in China. SERIOUS! She has replied all tags. She has visited blogs up till JingYen's blog & she will continue to do so TOMORROW. She apologises if she has caused anyone any inconvenience. THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND UNDERSTANDING. Joeline appreciates it very much. i thought of you & decided not to miss you. |