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Saturday, April 26, 2008
6:59 AM
i got tagged by eriza. Are you.... 1. Materialistic. not exactly.. 2. A procrastinater. HEE! YEA..it's bad, ya know ]: 3. Hating your life right now. you've gotta be kiddin'. life's happy [: 4. In love. i guessss so :D 5. What kind of music do you listen to? classical ------to------ rock 6. What kinda books do you fave? adventure & romance, you know, the type that makes you feel good! 7. Favourite movie? - 8. Yourself with 1 word. sociable [: 9. The friends you really think are like you. i've got you guys, are you guys like me? 10. Stranded on a deserted island with no forms of communication and no signal, armed with your phone with no reception, what 5 things would you have? 1. good friend 2. another friend 3. book 4. i want a house! 5. & loads of people then i can start my own civilisation! LOL. 11. Same island. But this time, You only can pick 5 GUYS (no family relation), who would they be? goshh, are you trying to be funny? BUT IT'LL BE FUN :D they're not in order, okee! - jingyen - ryan - all the track guys squished into one body :P - GOSH! ask me about this one, if you need to know [: - jerry berry 12. Why? -.- jingyen --- he's random & he'll end up doing something stupid to make me laugh. ryan --- we'll have loads to talk about cos i don't know how he looks like or anything about him. all the track guys squished into one body --- it'll be fun, trust me! askmeaboutthisone --- he'll make me super super happy! jerry berry --- he'll have to stick with me cos i'm his SISTER, man!! & he's nice to talk to [: 13. What hurts the most? is knowing & trusting & loving & breaking. 14. Who last made you Laugh? Zestin. 15. Who did you last have a MSN convo with? jerry berry & jingyen in the same conversation! 16. The Cutest thing on Earth is... uhh, i think chairs are cute <3 17. If there were 3 things you'd like to change about your school what would it be? 1. dude, DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE CANTEEN FOOD! 2. could we have a proper track, please? 3. soccer field? yeaa?? PROPER FIELD, PLEASEEE! i'm saying, please!! 18. 3 days to live, What to do? make things right, make me happy, make everyone i know happy; EVERYONE! 19. Is sorry the hardest thing to say? depends who you're saying it to, but most of the time, yea... 20. The Best thing in the world is.. ME! ego, haha :D Tag 5 People. today, i spared the lives of 5 people..be appreciative of that! & I'M NOT LIKE ERIZA! go tag people ]: LOL. ta's! just talking, you make me hysterical! 5:32 AM
okee. here goes. temperature: high --> >20 degrees celcius moderate --> 10 - 20 degrees celcius low --> <10 degrees celcius rainfall: high --> >1000mm moderate --> 250 - 1000m low --> <250mm YAY, JOEJOE :D 5:26 AM
okee, JoeJoe dearest. i need you to memorise something MORE :D i promise that you can go & eat your chips after this. temperature: high --> >20 degrees celcius moderate --> 10 - 20 degress celcius low --> <10 rainfall: high --> >1000mm moderate --> 250 - 1000mm low --> <250mm thanks, JoeJoe :D push on, yea? you can do it! DO DON'T BE GAY -.- 5:17 AM
dearest JoeJoe, i need you to remember something: CU-MU-LO-NIM-BUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULUNIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! CUMULONIMBUS! yay! grats, JoeJoe! YOU GOT IT :D 5:09 AM
EEEEE! this can't be, man!! lol. BUT IT SOUNDS PRETTY GOOD, YEA? haha! 4:49 AM
HAHAHAHA! i had so much fun writing out my 9-paged Geog notes <3 & i wasted 2 pages cos i thought that it didn't look good enough. SO WHAT IF I'M A PERFECTIONIST? i mean, so what if i'm TRYING to be a perfectionist? lol. i like my notes to seem perfect! everything has to be proportionate & big & a little bit of colour. & i like notes in black! cos they're sleek & elegant! lol, it's true, okay! don't laugh at me. but you see, blue-black is nice too! but they're not for notes, they're for...homework! i'll be revising them later! gosh, i haven't done Bio..& i really suck in it. NO TIME, LAAAAA ]: i need to memorise the...pathogen & diseases, circulatory & disgestive system, abiotic & biotic thingy, cells <-- this's a bad one! loads of stuff to memorise, especially the golgi apparatus, michrocon-something, etc. history, i need to learn the..indus vally civilisation. anw, went for training @ HCI today. we did hill run. i saw thye following people, in order: -TONGTONG! -charlene, this gymnast from NY. -CLARE! -JASURIN<33 -& the ex-peihwa girl. hongyi wasn't there, if you were wondering! OH, WHATEVER!! i'm guilty of sleeping in my room from 13.00 - 16.30. & i found my phone under my bed when i woke up. do remind me NEVER to sleep in my room on Saturday afternoons again, it's bloddy hot! anw, i dreamt that there was a Lemon Meringue Pie in the fridge :D i hate dreams, they make me jealous ]: oh, & last last night, i dreamt that i was in this village thingy & there was this stalker-ish indian guy that kept chasing me around & i freaked out really bad, BUT GUESS WHAT? he could teleport -.- & he teleported to everywhere i went ]: i know that i usually don't rattle on like that for posts, but i've been really so bored today. bored as in..i think i've been too absorbed in writing my darling Geog Notes <333> lunch --> sleep -->goeg notes --> dinner --> geog notes --> COMP! finally! but i've still got to revise them after this ]: i have a life, okay!! I DOOO! i'm even too busy to deal with emotions right now. i'm sorry, i think you guys got to freeze for the moment. ta's! THE FACTORS AFFECTING TEMPERATURE:
i like rainfall the best. they saw convectional rain usually comes with thunderstorms & lightning <33 Friday, April 25, 2008
1:39 AM
we had an English Language Comprehension Paper today. i did it rather fast...except for the Vocabulary part. i feel like spelling out full words today :D don't know why, Literature seemed boring today & i spent that whole hour thinking about other stuff. ICT Enrichment was even worse, Eliz & i were already half-dead, super lethargic today! don't know why either.. & i got really piss too! cos i felt like doing something lame & i found some stuff out & I got piss ]: anyway, i kinda realised that it happened in 2004, so..HAHA! WHATEVER!! i'm suppose to be doing Literature now. gosh, i suppose to like Poems & such..but it's a NONO for today ]: i need to sleep! eriza has her schedule all planned out; YOU MUGGER! i've got mine too [: after i get off the comp, deal with Literature, SLEEP <3, study geog like a super mugger..then, EAT! then...EAT SOMEMORE! then..walk around the house, then...should be dinner, then..BIO :D lol. slacker's time-table! i can't believe how affected i was just by reading something so simple; a bitch's post. i'm missing you so badly, dude! ta's! you're beautiful, in every single way. 1:33 AM
break it! break it! break it! break it! break it! break love! go away, you stupid feeling! i will poke you with my pencil.. BAHHHHHHHHHHHHH ]: Wednesday, April 23, 2008
7:04 AM
 this is what i call deprive childhood, jerry berry! LOL.it's a pity the playground didn't have swings ]; i never took pictures in playgrounds before..i just thought i was really dumb :D heehee, LOL. the big & mighty steps..somehow, i think i'm bigger!! 
last, but not least....LOL.  the one & only photo you guys have been waiting for -.- SO WHAT!? ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY o_o i love you, you love me, when are friends & family. with a great big hug & a kiss from me to you. don't you think you love me too? ladies & gentlemen, if you're wondering, this is my supposedly future husband, Nicky, as arranged by my godfather, aka Coach ]: -OHH, NOOOOOOO!- a family portrait, yea? both in white... AHHHHHH! CAN'T STAND IT! so weird! even coach agreed with me that he's way too guai! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ta's! stay away! BANG! BANG! BANG! 6:37 AM
X-country today. okay, eriza, whatever! hmph ]: yea, yea..joshua won ryan -rolls eyeballs 360 degrees-. BUTBUTBUT, ryan said 2 acsi guys were taking turns to block him, okay ._. so he was suppose to win, but...he couldn't! H-M-P-H! lol. it's scary; long-Ds. the scary people run like nobodys business & end up running super super fast. the not so scary people run :D the sad, but scary people run right at the back..freaking themselves out ]: today was a (quite) screwed day. race was @ 4pm. reached there @ 2.30pm. left there @ 3.16pm. reached jiayun's house for a little visit & sweets [: reached school @ 3.28pm. security guard didn't allow us in cos we didn't have our ICs.. BUT HELLO!? WE'RE EX-PUPILS FOR GOODU'S SAKE ]: saw mr lee, HE REMEMBERS ME! YAAY :D he didn't remember yukiko :P heee-ish! back to square-one, 3.56pm. 4pm; the race :D i didn't see weisheng! (although i was calling him over & over again & he was saying that he was cheering for everyone @ place A then B then C -.- THEN DEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ) saw HQ, p.ss, jiayun, we got his number tag. it's with yukiko; 0841, i think. i think he ran pretty well for a first-timer! he doesn't agree with me. & i'm so sorry, i made him stay at the bus-stop until my bus came &..left him behind..OOPSIES! saw Josiah, Ryan..(yes, ANOTHER SIDE-VIEW!!! goshhh ]: ) & most importantly, i saw DINGWEI <3 he's in NPCC Land. not say THAT great or what, but be proud of it. he's still short [: & he's still really nice. & HIS FRIEND! this senior of his, who plays with rubics cubes & happens to be the fastest in his school, was there! guess what? that's the guy i've been seeing on 190s, stopping at the same stop, changing the same bus, but dropping off before mine. & i see him 80% of the time. so here goes: dingwei talks to him. i see him, he sees me. -EYES RAISED- O_O it's kinda scary, ya know.. OHOHOH! I SAW DAVID TOO! lol. the evil banana villian. & he looked so sad when he walked/ brushed past Nat. UH-OH! WHAT DID SHE DOOO? lol. i like to cry. i like to watch people cry. i like to make people cry. can you cry for me? will you do so? please? ta's! today, i'll watch you die! Friday, April 18, 2008
11:45 PM
& the tomorrow's the run. for all to see, for all to hear, for all to know about, but for me to experience. 7:09 AM
pictures of you, -joerin pictures of me. -eriza hung upon the wall, -joerin for the world to see. -eriza pictures of you, -joerin pictures of me. -eriza remind us of -joerin what we use to be -eriza YUP! THAT'S WHAT WE'VE BEEN..SINGING TUNELESSLY DURING 4 ROUNDS OF COOL DOWN [: i'm low & she's HIGH! lol. chern hwee started it! nicky was there! nicky? yes, nicky..my supposedly future husband -.- (as arranged by my got-father, coach) he's small & scrawny, IT'S TRUE, YEA!! there was this raffles David guy there; chern's friend...HE WAS LONELY, OKAY.. here goes: chern offers him a cookie. 'no, thanks!' [: ERIZA COMES INTO THE PICTURE (yea, she's extra, lol) 'I WANT! I WANT!' lol! maya & melissa were there too! & maya cheated me of my Oatmeal&Raisin cookie ]: she said it was, okay..when it was chocolate chip ]: YOU EVIL, DODO FISHBALL! muahahahhahahha. melissa's still my darling yellow root cell & will always be! THE ROOT CELL WAS A TRICKY QUESTION LAST YEAR, OKAY..for prelims... i'm gonna see jiayun this Sun <3333333 yup, still seven hearts for Ronaldo, haha! don't know if you're still piss, with me or him.. but don't, okee? people can make you so high till you smile everyday & in a moment, they make you feel such discomfort that you just..don't want to talk about it anymore; you don't want to talk about anything, not even the happiness or whatsoever. for how long will i stay this way? how long? ta's! this is a clock upon the wall, this is the story of us all..ERIZAAAAAAAAAAAA ]: i'm learning my lines, okay!!! Thursday, April 17, 2008
7:58 PM
when people piss you off, you do the same to them. but i can't bare to. when it's obviously there, you chose to ignore it. left's get drunk together, with vodka. i wanna love you, tonight. 7:34 PM
1.Time of starting this?8 10.32am 2. Were you named after anyone? nah, i'm way too special :D 3. Do you wish on stars? i use too, when i was younger :p 4. When did you last cry? SHEESH! yesterday.... 5. What is your favourite meat? steak <3 6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf? - 7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? YUP! cos i totally am sociable. 8. Are you a daredevil? GUESS SO! i love the rollar coaster [: 9. How do you release anger? let's see, scream, cry, run. 10.Where is your second home? nyps? lol, they were teaching us that it's our 2nd home... 11. Do you trust others easily? NOPE. 12. What was your favourite toy as a child? i don't like toys...i had 2 babrbie dolls though -.- 13. What subject in school do you think is totally useless? everything's good, but everything's bad..none of them are useless...THAT SUCKS, DOESN'T IT? 14. Do you use sarcasm a lot? YEA :D it annoys people the most. 15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? ? danm i feel dumb ]: .16. What do you look for in a guy/girl? character & some kinda looks, yea.. 17. Would you bungee jump? YEA! YEA! i'll jump with jiayun <3 18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? i use to, until i realised that i was the slowest to enter & leave the house -.- 19. What's your favourite ice cream flavour? I LOVE THAT PURPLE GRAPE ICE-CREAM THEY SELL AT BISHAN!! green tea's not a bad choice, either <3 CHOCOLATO TOO. 20. What are your favourite colours? dark purple, white, i'm still trying to appreciate that gay kinda pink. 21. what is your least favourite thing? I HATE TRACK COMPETITIONS, they give you bad sleep, make you cry & may lead you to heart attacks. IT'S TRUEEE! 22. What/Who do you miss most right now? I MISS JIAYUN! & 6G ]: i miss the guys! 23. What are you listening to right now? listening to Eliz talking to herself O_O 24. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? WHITE! no one will use me! 25. What is the weather like right now? BRIGHT? i guess..just rained. 26. Last person you talked to on the phone? MUMMY :D 27. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? HEIGHT!!!! I'M SHORT, OKAY -.- GO AWAY! 28. How are you today? i'm still pissed! 29. Favourite drink? LIME JUICE <3 30. Favourite alcoholic drink? i like veni..something. white grape wine <3 31. Natural hair colour? black. 32. Eye colour? dark brown, MINE'S THE DARKEST IN THE FAMILY <3 I TOLD YOU, I'M SPECIAL!! lol. 33. Wear contacts? (almost)perfect vision.. 34. Siblings? 2 older sisters. 35. Favourite month? July; it reminds me of Jupiter & purple..somehow.. 36. Favourite food? seafood! 38. Favourite day of the year? 17 JULY! 17 is a nice number <3 39. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out? umm, HEE! NOPE. nownow, what were you thinking? 40. Scary movies or happy endings? HAPPY ENDINGS. 41. Summer or winter? summer&winter 42. Hugs or kisses? hugs&kisses 43. What book / magazine are you reading? NOTHING, i'm trying to get myself started on Pompei.. 44. What's on your mouse pad? THE SCHOOL DOESN'T HAVE MOUSE PADS! i just realised O_O 45. What did you watch on TV last night? i'm so guai, i didn't watch TV last night. instead, i used the comp till 11 [: 46. Favourite Smell? baked cookies. 47. Do you regret ever breaking up with someone? use to, NOW I DON'T. done with the quiz. i will now consider if i should reply qiru's sms. ta's! everytime i try to fly, i fall, without my wings, i feel so small. i guess i need you, baby.. 6:25 AM
2.4km today...HEEE. evan ditched me on the 5th round (cos i chose to walk -.-) 5th round was bad, cos i was tired & the lactic acid was not shoo-ing away like i told it to do so on the 3rd round. AHHHHHHH....... i'm so sorry, i've been telling people not to walk, but i did :D (BIG CHEESY SMILE!) okee, BUT I STILL GOT AN A. lately, i've been rather vulgar. it's unlike me to suddenly scream or whisper one..BUT I'VE BEEN SHOUTING IT! & it's really not like me. i don't know why either, INFULENCE? maybe.. BY WHO? no one i know speaks vulgarities like eating ice-cream...lol. damn, THE RUN'S ON SUNDAY! & of all heats, the last one; 5.. so i'll be the one that suffers from all the freaking out the most ]: i rather be heat 2! like eriza! jiayun's heat 4 ]: JOELINE, DON'T FREAK OUT.. breathe in, & out! chill [: i've been so piss to, felt jealous, huffed & puffed out vulgarity after the run, scream at innocent people cos i was mad..gosh! ALL BECAUSE OF LIARS -.- gosh! ta's! i'll rip you apart, I PROMISE I WILL!! Wednesday, April 16, 2008
6:31 AM
i feel so dissed today ]: today is the worst day so far this year; maybe not the worst, but one of the worst. cos today, ERISA & I WERE COMPLETE DUMB DUMBS.. -points finger at eleesa, HER FAULT!- CAT high was there (DOG high11 toooo) & Farfield & ACSI & their rugby opponents..& CJC, they're everywhere..& CEDAR too! ryan & joshua were there & my leg hurt & still hurts & will continue to hurt. & we walked all the way to the sheltered area to chill, literally & they walked...FAR FAR AWAY TO WHERE WE WERE AT FIRST. damn, & this happened a few times. JIAYUN! I SAW HQ, muahahhahaha, LOL. ahhh, i slipped on the cover of a baby longkang & it's not the type that goes BHAAAM! & your butt hurts...IT'S CALLED...the slow-mo slip [: & my butt got wet ]: for coach's training, i call coach, coach & the school one..umm, mr tan :P so for coach's training, we did kinda light training = THE HURDLES THINGY THAT MAKES YOUR BUTT ACHE -.- it was fun, 2 sets of everything :D & we practised starts, I CAN'T STAND RACHEL! SHE RUNS FASTER THAN ME ]: & on our last run, she said, "I SAW YOUR HAND! I SAW YOU HAND MOVING!" rightt, is that an insult? that the furthest i can go is..something, so that she can only see my hand..& NOT MY HEAD? gosh, i've got a really beautiful head, you know? LOL. & a compliment, that i have finally improved so that she can see something of me; my hand, rather than not see me at all... AIYA, but i wanna do 100m..cos of my super cheapo reason, LOL. it's the shortest, baby! YOU JUST RUN FOR A FEW SECONDS & YOU'LL BE OVER WITH IT :D that means that i can get my ice-cream faster <3 but my goal for reaching the finishing line last year, for 200m, was the purple ice-cream they sold at Bishan, IT'S REALLY NICE, GRAPE FLAVOUR :D do try it! & 100m is really short, quite..so you don't really take note of every thought & emotion you feel during the run. the most, you just forget about it really fast. HOWEVER, 200m is really loooong & you just think of so many things..lol. i don't think of winning, i think of completing the race. cos i always freak out due to the lack of self confidence & Stamina..SO AS LONG AS I'VE CROSSED THE FINISHING LINE, not the last few, I'LL BE THE HAPPIEST DUDETTE THAT DAY! how retarded! & everyone wants to WIN. is it really what reality is? winning, winning, winning? then i'll have to say that i'll never be able to fit in with reality. i'm goal-driven, okay..but my goals are REALISTIC [: maybe too realistic. i don't want to be someone great. now you can infer from the previous sentence & Continue this weird paragraph. A WHOLE CHUCK OF WORDS! not my cup of tea. LOTS OF SPACE; I'M CLAUSTRAPHOBOC* my leg hurts bad, each time it gets worst. the pain lingers & moves around the area. i use to think that injuries were the best-est excuse for slacking, but i'd rather work hard now. it's annoying, when you want to sprint, when you want to stride, the pain just gets more intense. & IT SIMPLY ANNOYS THE SHIT OUT OF YOU! cos you feel useless & you can't run properly; & tell me the use of a tracker who can't run properly? NOTHING. NO USE! " You have to learn that no matter what happens out there, you must stay focused, completely within yourself, and not allow any distraction to pierce your concentration " -YES, COACH!! YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND ]: SEAN LEE :D haha, talking to him now. amazing how we've grown, from p1 - NOW! lol. still remembered how i loved to sabo him -MUAHAHAHAHHAHA- i figured that it's normal for people to get despo & become so loseristic after that. GO SH! ERISA, IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! lol.. i want to like you as a crush, cos crushes are passing emotions & you'll pass, WON'T YOU? :D ta's! kiss or diss Tuesday, April 15, 2008
7:01 AM
i've realised that all my life, i've been waiting for new people to come & spark it up once in a while. & I've been forgetting about the people who turned 'old' . & i've been forgetting about the people who brought simply too much joy in my life that i took it for granted & experience it everyday. thanks for making me happy, people. i don't always need the new, i figured the 'old's the best! but i would still like to meet you. BAH! i feel like a horny stalker today -.- ta's! i don't wanna go another way. Monday, April 14, 2008
5:35 AM
a babe should be a girl, right? why's the one on my blog a guy? O_O O_O O_O O_O it's seriously scary, you know... especially when a guy-babe asks so many questions about...G-U-Y-S. O_O O_O O_O O_O J for Joe i still rememberd i got 104/200 for my piano exam :P that's a pass, yea? my sis just got her results: 116/200.. at least it's..better than mine, haha. i think the highest i got was 148 or something.. i get jealous really easily; that's a bad point about me. well, i should be satisfied with what i already possess. i figured that i've been wanting too much, way too much. i want to be myself; when i'm angry, i'll tell you straight in the face, i'll spite you if i wish to. when i'm happy, i'll share it with everyone. when i'm jealous, i'll spite you again, if i wish to, haha. when i'm annoyed, i'll glare at you till you get my message. i don't want to keep on smling. i read in a book today, that the reason for hiding behind who you really are is based on TRUST. you can't trust your friends, you're not sure that they will accept you when they know who you really are. you're insecure. that's a somewhat reliable book, but..that hasn't been the case for me. i was afriad that i would hurt people. but i don't need to care anymore [: cos no one really cared how i was. so i just need to be blunt & happy. not that i'm heartless, i'm having a sample of the real world. being realistic. ta's! i'll bring you along, follow my directions. i'll hold onto your shoulders. 1:02 AM
d i s a p p e a r qirui, make me happy again [: 12:31 AM
nothing lasts forever. i'm sorry, i can't be perfect. Sunday, April 13, 2008
11:43 PM
 i ain't a sadist, i'm just giving you what you've given to me, Joeline. BE appreciative. i hate the taste of reality, that's why i'm doing my best to screw it up.& did anyone tell you? YOU ARE A STUPID IDIOTIC FOOL TOO! cos you've been telling yourself over & over & OVER again not to live in your stupid world of fantasies, but..NOO! you continue to do so! & what does that result in? it results in YOU being jealous; YOU being hurt; YOU being that complete loser who tries so bloddy hard to be happy when YOU're not. & this type of people are called: C-O-M-P-L-E-T-E L-O-S-E-R-S! how about you stop dreaming & get to your senses. BE MORE REALISTIC, WILL YOU? stop being that stupid illusion that you are. what is within? nothing but emptiness; emptiness & shit! guess what? you even thought that happiness could last forever! drean on, girl..THIS IS IT; THE REAL WORLD! you can go & cry your bloddy tears for all i care, CRY & lET THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW YOU'RE A LOSER! it's pretty obvious you're hurt, what a sight. how about you prolong this moment, just so that i can laugh at you. what's IN you? only the hope to be happy again? & Forget about how people were in the past? trust me, nobody has changed, n-b-o-d-y! 9:19 PM
i'm still so happy :D gosh, this is so unbelievable. it's been 2+ days & the most, i'm only 15% less happy as compared to Sat, 11am. I WANT TO TALK TO QIRUI EVERYDAY SO THAT I'LL BE HAPPY EVERYDAY! how strange it is when random people share with you that happiness that you long for.. sorry, too lazy to go support you [: competition's on Sun; 100m. man, it suddenly seems so long ]: practised starts today. & there's training later toooo...HAHA! I AIN'T GOING! stupid, joeline! you slacker! ahh, i still can't believe that i'm still so happy! & it's all thanks to you [: T H A N K S <3 & i thought i'll be some kinda sad sad weird person that will stay away from being sociable at the start of the year, cos i just figured that i won't be happyhappy again. you know, just happy. so i'm really really appreciative of you making me happy! ta's! make me laugh again! AGAIN! & AGAIN!!! Saturday, April 12, 2008
3:47 AM
i'm so freaking happy, la-la-la-la-la-la! i'm so freaking happy, la-la-la-la-la-la! i'm so freaking happy, la-la-la-la-la-la! oh, no! this looks damn gay. i'm so freaking happy, la-la-la-la-la-la! i'm so freaking happy, la-la-la-la-la-la! i'm so freaking happy, la-la-la-la-la-la! i'm so freaking happy, la-la-la-la-la-la! i want to post about today again! ORA :D super fun! cos everyone was so..i don't know, everyone was happy, & we just talked :D other than talking, we spent half of the time looking for people/ each other & eating! HAHA. & i would like to go back nine hours back into the past of my present. oh, yea..it sounds cliche! BUT I SERIOUSLY HAD LOTS OF FUN! it's like the fun you get in primary school where you get despos, childish nutts, mature people, big people, short people, losers & people who make you happy, they're the people who make you laugh! shit, & i just keep smiling when i think of today. it just seems so complete. it's not like yesterday, when you had so many things on your mind, waiting to reach Saturday, like crossing the finishing line. it's not like tmr; you know what's going to happen & you memories your schedule. today, is unexpected. & this unexpectedness made me laugh, it made me glad & happy! & it's the kind of happiness that i would like everyday. it's not the kind that makes you laugh just for the moment, but the kind happiness that makes you want to keep thinking about it, the kind that makes you full with it, but yet hunger for it. even though it may not reach us everyday, we do hope that it will come. but i hope for something more; i hope that it will stay. i want to share this happiness with you. ta's! i smile for you. i worry when you fall. 3:37 AM
it's all your fault! it's all your fault that you made me happy. you're so sweet! but it's still all your fault! 12:10 AM
O-R-A it was really great :D the jog/ walk was really short. (& I DIDN'T BRNG MY ACTIVITY CARD!!) & as usual, i sweat like a stupid banana when i jog, i don't know why either. back to RI, with 5 coupons or something like that :D ONLY -.- bought donuts, milk tea, don'tknowwhat tea & cookies..& stuff. & there was this RJ guy selling bubble tea (yea, i rejected it), & after i rejected it... 'HAHA. you're really sweaty!' O_O -i'm trying to smile, is there still a smile on my face? I'M SMILING!!!- my eldest sister was handling the donut store, OTHERWISE I WOULDN'T HAVE BOUGHT IT! my other sister was with the store selling roses. i sold 2 for her = I'M A NICE SIBLING [: her senior bought me one cos i looked really pathetic & was whining for one. THANK YOU, whoeveryouwere. SAW: - qirui - my classmate's (lizzie) guy, & he's damn ugly! serious! REALLYYYY... - qirui's super desperado friend - siyu (deadfish; ex-tracker) - SOME geper GUY that used to be in NYPS - lemuel (remember the no dickmanship guy; 6I? LOL) - jeremy (use to call him bullfrog) - & other ex-NYPS people. RIGHTT! they're all in RI. not bad, yea.. & qirui is surprisingly sweet, as in....he's not horny anymore. LOL. i feel so mean! he was looking for me & i said i was in the canteen when i was on my way to the hall & when i saw him in the canteen looking for me, i just laughed. LOL. but it was funny, okay!! so in the end, he found me! he's in rugby, want to know why? according to him, cos rugby people are damn cool & he wants to have muscles..RIGHT. i can infer that he has finally decided not to be gay, haha. oh, he wanted to bring me to the gym, BUT TOO BAD, had to go ]: S-O-R-R-Y! & he wanted a picture, but i was walking away, so hopefully, he didn't take a picture of my ass. LOL. now, to his friend, YES! his desperado friend -_______________- he is a BIG & TALL guy. he goes around tagging behind girls. [evidence number #1] he asks them what they do & stuff [evidence number #2] he asks for their numbers & emails 15min after he meets them. [evidence numver #3] he likes to look for them just for the sake of finding them -.- [evidence numver #4] FROM THESE, I CAN INFER THAT: he is a desperado! PLEASE LA, NO CLASS! but he tries really hard to be nice. YEA. can't blame him.. my sister claims that SecOne RI guys are despos..believe it or not. LOL. had lots of fun there! why am i smiling? scary! ta's! you made my day, just by walking with me. Thursday, April 10, 2008
11:34 PM
hello (: how are you? im fine, you? ohhhhhhh, great. (: -marissa jesse mccartney has turned ugly. HA! NAPFA 5 stations yesterday. 'A's for i guess :D SIT & REACH TOO! haha. it's kinda weird, i'm still 12 & we don't usually have our NAPFA as this time of the year. training & training later on = 2 TRAININGS TODAY! gosh! i'm already pretty tired today. ANW, TODAY'S FRI! so, i'm already THIS close to weekends. weekends suddenly seem to stress free & stuff, cos: -no training. -no carrying of schoolbag. BUT, YES! - finishing homework. - waking up early. ta's! COMPARABLE. Wednesday, April 09, 2008
7:51 AM
you're waiting for me to talk to you, & i'm waiting for you to talk to me. I'M TIRED. Sunday, April 06, 2008
7:21 AM
today, i smile again, & hopefully, i continue to do so for the week. my weeks start with Sunday. i don't know why people like to start it with Monday, it's just awkward & wrong! training tmr; Bishan & CCAB. Tuesday. tonight, i can rest with a smile & wake up the next morning, stress free [: & hopefully, i continue to do so for the week. tmr will be another; i'm sick of telling myself that it'll be a better day. what it brings, i wonder. what it holds, i search. what it tells, i will hear, for tmr, will just be another day. thanks, jiayun, for being there. thanks, jiayun, for being happy today. what's important to me in life is the smile you bring to others & that of what others bring to you. i want to wake up every day feeling happy, & everyday i keep trying... ta's! mysterious stranger; startle me. Friday, April 04, 2008
6:54 AM
i've suddenly got this feeling that someone hacked my account. nevermind, it's a random feeling. i shall re post, cos my comp hung; RIGHTT! so one comp auto-shuts & the other loves to hang -.- today was sport's fest. hot. sticky. sweaty. smelly. brown. i was hot. i was sticky cos of the sweat. i felt smelly, YES, you can feel smelly. i'm browner. i did pretty well for 100m & 4 x 100m. caution of eleesa: PLEASE DO NOT BRING ANY SHARP OBJECTS NEAR YOU WHEN YOU CRY, ESP YOUR SPIKES! lol. i met a new friend on Tue, he's called Ryan. i got to know him through Rachel. (ooh, they're Rs, i just Realised..lol) he's in track toooo; long-d. he's fairly weird. heard that hongyi stopped 400m hurdles..? isn't it a waste? after training for it for a year? 365 days, yea? we were talking about lactic acid today. in my view, it creeps up your legs when you run & if you take note of it, you feel REALLY tired. but somehow, it felt ticklish today..kind of. & it really creeps up your legs, from the calf muscles, to your thigh muscles, than to your butt! they are scary scary thingys. the run's on sunday! it's a LONG run, yes, it's long to me. wouldn't be able to go to church ]: DAMNN! back to square-one! is it weird to jump & do a peace sign after a run? i think it is, cos i got weird stares when i did that.. AHH, it's embarrassing, okay! want to know my embarrassing moments? the 1st trophy i ever got was during a singing competition in K1. i was really hapy & start flinging my hands...& IT JUST BROKE OFF! i was O_O stunned, LOL. another time was at home, last year. i was wearing this pants with HUGE pockets, sitting on a sofa. tried getting up, but..i was s-t-u-c-k. well, my darling sister started laughing at me ]: you see, how could she ever do that? i'm such an innocent kiddo ._. lol. i would like to apologise to all the people who messaged me, but i didn't reply them. i can't tell you why. part of the reason's cos i don't want to. SORRY! it's so strange; how we find it interesting when a stranger comes & we want to talk to that person cos we're curious. however, we tend to neglect those we are & were with us. & i'm afraid that everyone will..disappear? eeeish! we find excitement in new things & people, but what about the old? aren't we suppose to cherish them more? or something in this line of actions? we're selfish. but we can't help it. that's why we need time to mend our ways change it. TA'S! you make me smile, OH, DAMN YOU! you aren't suppose to! Tuesday, April 01, 2008
7:16 AM
training tmr. i don't feel the APRIL FOOLS thingy today. i feel that i'm not fast enough. boyboy's flown offf. lit test tmr. sun's the run; 200m --> 9.15am. at least it's in the morning :D get to relax the other half of the day. |
