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Monday, June 30, 2008
7:24 AM
there's one good point of being tired, YES, that one special reason: it keeps me away from the competition syndrome, haha. today, training was crap; school training. we wasted an hour on transport. there was some angmoh school sport's day going on & the stadium was FULLL! anw, the we came back to school /: coach's training was kinda boring, not saying that elle is boring, she isn't, alright :D just that, there weren't so many people there to keep me entertained. & i was having a right-side-of-the-head type of headache & it kept feeling hot & painful ]: stamina is one thing i cannot stand. just that sentence simply tells you that i ain't a long-D runner, lol. school today was bad. i was seriously, awfully tired & Math was first block. so i'm very sorry to say that i fell asleep, although it's not totally my fault. i was emotional unstable due to the fact that i forgot to bring my pencilcase to school, thus causing my table & i to feel bare! lol. i tried my bestest best not to sleep, so i started reading a book..but it was TOOO boring ]: i started to close my eyes, but i vowed to listen to the teacher (yes, with my eyes closed -.- ) . however, the teacher's voice started to disappear, REALLLY! & by the time i woke up, class ended. PERFECT TIMING! kiddin' & i got dragged out of the classroom by Shing, so i didn't get to continue sleeping ]: HMPHHHH! anw, i'll be sleeping EARLIER tonight <3 WOAHHHH! haha. chem teacher's still really cool. aesthetics is like crap, sewing makes my eyeballs fall! IT RHYMES [: i'm so glad we're done with the apron..they hurt my eyeballs big time! we're gonna learn how to sew hooks &whateveryoucallthat tmr..hoepfully, they'll be less stressful for the eyeballs. ooh, & i broke the machine needle today :D cos it was slanted & i insisted on stepping on the paddle & SNAAP! it was gone! hahaha. evan almost booked me for my finger nails ]: HMPHH! now my fingers feel so bare! AHHH, malay thingy tmr again /: ta's! i close the door, so many times, so many times before.. Sunday, June 29, 2008
7:01 AM
It has not been raining lately, I feel like a withered flower. My face is drying up & wrinkling. You wouldn't want to know more. 6:07 AM
gawd, i've done the most embarrassing thing that i could ever do! my sisters & i just finished watching Enchanted online, yes..it's kinda old. & right after that, i opened the door (i live in a terrace, so there's still a gate, PHEWW!) & i went, 'I'VE BEEEN DREAMING...shitt!' & i sang it really really loudly & there was this stranger, presumbly my neighbour, & he was walking by, staring..& i slammed the door. & i started scareming. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! IT'S DAMN EMBARRASSING LAAAA! 'i've been dreaming of a true love's kiss...lalalalla' -.- i've been bad lately! anw, after the movie & suddenyl realised that Sunday's going to be over! GASPS! that means, THURSDAY IS COMING..& i'm going to start freaking out again ]: goshh, how stressful is this? VERY! my sister finally bought a dress :D FINALLY! dangg, i can't stand it. everytime i use the comp, i need to peeeee -.- anw, my parents are still out. the phone's ringing :D DADDDDYYYYY! something's wrong with me today. there's something i need to do, that's why i'm online, but i kinda forgot. SHEEESH! damn it ]: ta's! I'VE BEEEEN DREAAMING OF A TRUEEE LOVVEEE'S KISSSSS... & mr neighbour walks by. HIDE YOUR FACE, DUDE! Friday, June 27, 2008
8:33 AM
Goodness gracious me! I'm actually, for the first time, saying that! I am perspiring again & I've got an ulcer on my tongue. ta's! She tossed her hair & said, 'That's retribution.' what a bitch! 6:41 AM
let's talk about yesterday first, wasn't online cos i was studying :D for once! ICT was really crap, we were spamming Lizzie's blog about..qirui's pink strong long muscular..chest hair & his moobs (Z-cup) X: i did not just say anything, haha! it was seriously weird! sudden bursts of laughter were audible! today. chem teacher's seriously coolio. the last lesson we were talking about bisexuals & homosexuals. this lesson, we were talking about..iforgot. but it was kinda interesting to such a large extent that i finally stopped reading my book after reading it trough 3hours. i'm so in love with books! you just read them during boring lessons :D i love Timbaland- the way i are..it's catchy! training today in school was kinda slack. training in bishan doesn't have a heart anymore, but..i'm still trying to DO SOMETHING about my 200m. you know? 3 years of never really attempting to sprint the full run. i'm attempting to breakthrough. it takes time! & candace sister, shermaine! she's like..bloddy strong! she can do 6 chin-ups. & i can barely do one ]: AHHHHH, not funn! one bad thing i did today (other then reading books in class). 's'cuse me, can you get off the lane? they're running' 'JOEE! YOU DON'T SAY GET OFF!' 'then what do i say?' at that moment, eriza says 'GET LOST' & this other guy behind her moved away, LOL. 'umm, hi guy! lane 4 is a very nice lane, yea?' & Guy moves to lane 4.. pheww! natalie was telling me that..it's not very nice. but i said sorry, okee!! when he finished running his round. soo, i'm a very nice person toooo! we did a 1 paragraphed compo on 3 words/ phrases, i chose, a group of teenagers, shopping mall & stolen items. i can't stand the way i write! it's so..teenager-ish! HAA. tomorrow's the wedding & i have yet to decide what to wear. i desperately need to know if there's anything else i can wear other than a white dress. i like the scientist- coldplay! sunday's coming [: my classes begin again <3 i think Nicky's too guai. it's so queer, it's like a saw a different side of him when he was on his starting block, you know, kerkarisan, however you spell it -.- he just stayed there, blinking ALOT OF TIMES, trying to find where he left his confidence, taking a deep breath before he lifted & ran. hurdles look fun, they must be..hard on the mind. wax models, painted lips, eyes of excitement, that of horror. i hate clowns. i hate mannequins. i hate barbie dolls. ta's! welcome to my amusement park. Wednesday, June 25, 2008
7:12 AM
I've got to be strong! For me. I will be all that you want, and get myself together, cause you keep me from falling apart... 7:08 AM
i want jiayun back! i still remembered the 4 x 400m finals, i was crying like a kid..she told me it was going to be fine, that if i really didn't want to go for it, i could always choose not to. but as she said that, she feared, deep inside, she herself was freaking out. & when i took my mark, she cried. & i never got to say thanks for acting all macho for me. this year; Nationals. she's not going to be there for me as before. i'm fighting this battle, alone. when you're so numb that you don't know how 'scared' feels like. when your faith is so strong, that you place your life in His hands. 6:52 AM
my heats are on the 3rd & 4th July, 10.15am & 11.10pm specifically. & i'm starting to worry over it now. & i'm desperately hoping that someone will do something to get my mind off Nationals. i was hoping that 200m will come after 100m, cos i kinda feel more comfortable with 100m. but i guess it's a blessing in disguise. cos if i run 100m first, i'll freak out on my 200m. but if i run 200m, i'll be looking forward to 100m. & 7 days will go by, & next week will pass. i'm stuck on 'i will be- avril lavigne' i remembered jiayun popped out on my screen one day & asked me to listen to it, cos she thought it was great & all.. & i'm feeling to weird listening to it, cos..you know, we created a 4 x 100m blog, this whole 'team' thing. but look, it's splitt up equally, 2 in nygh, 2 in rgs. & on the track, we aren't a team anymore. we're enemies, we're warriors of different clans, soldiers from different countries, made to fight. with one another. i will run my best. i will run, not for myself, but for God. cos he's always been there for me, even when i strayed. thank you! ta's! it's about pressing on, breaking that barrier! Tuesday, June 24, 2008
7:28 AM
gosh, i feel like ranting on my blog about how everything's different. everything's supposedly normal, but the feeling just ain't there! & i thought it would be exciting & splendid, but, oh well! i'm practically lifeless! as good as dead in school, reading books, accidentally pissing teacher's off & after school? training/ tuition. weekends? study. i don't want to be any different from how i use to be, i just want to continue being happy & flappy & free! lol. but all these circumstances are pressing me down. it's annoying how i thought everything would be fine when you piece up a jig-saw puzzle. it doesn't work that way anymore. ta's! there's a stranger in my life, the way you look at me is just not right. 7:27 AM
i seek comfort in deceiving myself, whether you like it or not. i don't know why, i'm starting to hate my phone alot. i want to throw it away & run. 6:10 AM
righto! i ponned my Malay class cos it's cancelled, or at least i thought so. the reason? it's some chinese week today! & i've got to go to Chinatown tomorrow for some tea drinking thing -.- & then proceed to Bishan for training..AHHHHH! I DON'T WANNA TRAIN ]: Your account is temporarily unavailable due to site maintenance. It should be available again within a few hours. We apologize for the inconvenience. -stupid facebook!- so, the whole class sitting arrangement was still pretty screwed up! !@#$% yea, & people are extra-ing all around which infuriates me! & soooo, i was kinda figuring it out during higher chinese class & the teacher got pretty piss. OOPSIES ]: i'm sorry! yea, she's our new teacher that's going to take us for the next 2 terms, & first impressions are important, i guess. not exactly first, but the first few. so, i guess i'm pretty screwed this year. one thing i learnt last night: DON'T EVER READ IN THE DARK. it makes your eyeballs feel dry, & thus you feel tired. oh, Andre's back :D i mean, finally! after the long wait of eternity. i think i'm weird today. 'i think we shouldn't be studying anymore, it's a waste of time.' 'O_O WHYY?' -rolls eyes- 'cos the world's ending.' & i seriously meant it! dude, look at the state of the world now, not just the still-looking-good S'pore, look everywhere! give it a couple of years & KABOOOOOM! you never know if it'll really explode. the inflation thingy is like 7.5%, according to my sister & it'll continue to rise, like du-uh! cos it'll be about time when we have no more oil left, & how, then, are we to deal with the pressing circumstances? honestly, i doubt there's anything we can do about it. & if the world really ends in 2012, then..i'll be sec 4 with no life, no boyfriend yet! haha, jkjk.. one question that has been stuck in my head, if the world ends & we all die, will i still..remember the people that i know? or do we have to..remake friends again? LOL. training tomorrow, it's..driving me nutts & nationals are next week, it's driving me nutts-er! ta's! BACK <3 Monday, June 23, 2008
6:29 AM
i feel so dead. i'm going to have muscle ache tomorrow! i didn't cool down, i didn't stretch. i'm a complete slacker that's waiting for my anger-metre to go up & i'll start wailing like a little kid. & i get angry when i feel tired, cos it's equivalent to be being lousy & useless, well, almost! & i'm piss with myself, cos i have yet to face my biggest fears. & i've been & currently doing my utmost best-est of best efforts to run away from them /: no smiley, cos i don't feel too good about it, but i'm satisfied, yet..i know that's not what i'm suppose to do. anw, Nationals start on either the 2nd or 3rd, i forgot & they end on the 16th. yess, & THEN 17TH JULY, HERE I COME! i'm reading this series of super bimbo, bitchy books just for entertainment, my life is almost dead! now my tuesdays are gonegonegoneGONEEE! i'm still trying to make time to really chill. here's my weekly schedule: monday, training tuesday, weird malay thingy wednesday, training (this wednesday, i've got some tea drinking thingy that's at Chinatown -.- i'll drink till my hearts contents! dangg, should have been wine!) thursday, tuition friday, training saturday, I'M FREE! no, i don't go out every Saturdays, cos i've got work to catch up on -.- sunday, tuition what a sweet & secure & pretty & stupid & boring & loseristic life! guess how i went through term 1 of school? came home everyday after training, pushing myself to finish the day's homework, didn't allow myself to sleep until everything's perfectly perfect! but NOOOOOOOO, i'm not going to stick to that, I'M SICK OF IT! BIG TIME. BIG time. & i'm deprived of ice-cream, yet i shouldn't indulge in it. NATIONALS AH, NATIONALS AH, KINDLY SIAM OUT OF MY WAY, pleassee? btw, happy birthday, ryan! he got dao-poked :D haha, is it tao or dao? i think dao looks nicer.. haaaa. i still feel dead. my ass probably grew bigger during the weekends, cos i spent almost the whole day eating, sitting in front of the comp & sleeping <3 WEEEEEKENDS! it's only monday, i shouldn't be thinking much about it. i can't wait for nationals to be over... GONE! BOOM! NADA! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3 ta's! everyday i pray for determination, focus & perseverance, yet i make no effort in wanting it; i don't show that i hunger for it. Friday, June 20, 2008
I met a stranger, in my sleep. 11:24 PM
This dream, he draped his arm over my shoulder when he spoke, he pulled me close & took me to places where I've never been. He spoke to me; always smiling & asked me if there was more than that. He chuckled when I shyly replied, 'No...' there was so much to wonder about. We ran around like little kids, enjoying ourselves, laughing at the slightest mistakes. We joked, we talked & i felt loved. But love from a stranger I met only at dawn would be a matter that was rather queer. But then, he fled, upon seeing another of himself. He jumped down a steep slope, while I could only stare at it. He had beckoned me to follow up, but I simply could not. He then ran, like an animal, from it's predator. I tried to look for an alternative route, but nothing was what I found. & then, at the corner of my eye, I saw something that was somewhat like a wolf. 'I had better leave,' I thought, 'but what about him?' He knew his routes well, he would be fine. As I walked, my heart lurched. It had just been a day, from dawn to dusk, & I had met a stranger, whose name I never knew, whose face I have now forgotten, but he had cared & felt that I mattered. But now, when dusk meets dawn once again, all would be but past, & soon forgotten, as these feelings disappear, as the images fade. Would I meet him again? This special stranger who brought me so much happiness, just within a day. & as I walked, I awoke, with a strange sensation, a sense of love with a pinch of regret. this was what i typed into my phone right after i woke up & retrived it from under my bed. it was so real! & i felt so touched! ta's! whatever there may be, i hope to see. 7:13 AM
boyboy's birthday today <3 happy birthday :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY! i don't know how i'm feeling. happy, mad, sad, stupid, queer? i'm tired! i feel like smiling, what's that feeling called? smiling for no apparent reason, smiling for everything! ahhh, something's wrong. i'm missing you so badly! i can't take it anymore, talking to myself for the past few days, i wanna tell you everything, but i can't! & now it leaves me with my girlfriends, asking me what i had wanted to talk about. but i don't want to let them know anything, i just want to talk to you! yes, i'm selfish & choosey! THAT'S WHY I'M FEELING LIKE THAT! goshh, i'm missing someone special to talk to.. ta's! be back soon, kiddo! Thursday, June 19, 2008
6:17 AM
Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real places, names &/or objects, but nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same 1st initial. You can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. And Have Fun With It!!! AND TAG 5 PEOPLE TO DO THIS :D 1) 4 letter word: jack (& the beanstalk!) 2) boy name: josh 3) girl name: Jayce (i like this name <3 ) 4) occupation: journalist O_O 5) a colour: jade 6) something you wear: jeans 7) beverage: juice 8) food: jell-O (oh, mann..this is bringing back fond memories!) 9) something found in the bathroom: jacuzzi 10) a place: Jerusalem 11) reason for being late: JESUS! STOP ASKING, WILL YA? 12) something you shout: just shut the hell up! that was rather interesting, haha! 5 people: #12345 ta's! prickly pimple! lol. 5:57 AM
the weekdays past so fast, & for once, i'm not exactly looking forward to the weekends. i've realised that all they did were to make me think that they're great -.- but honestly, they give me shit. TOMORROW'S THE 20TH & I FINALLY REMEMBERED WHAT'S HAPPENING <3 yea, i was brain-dead for awhile & just couldn't figure it out. anw, today's the worst day of my life, not the worst, but one of the worsts. i've finally got a REAL pimple, not that there are fake pimples or what, but..it's really real! lol, & it is, indeed, kinda scary. woke up this morning, & there it was! a red coloured thingy on the left cheek. & there was all the decision making on whether i should burst it (oh, mann..it sounds scary! eeew...) or just let it disappear by itself with the help of some cream. bursting it could leave a scar, that would 'scar my entire life', has quoted my amirah, lol. but it's really scary, i fet rather uncomfortable with it. yea, i got a suggestion, 'just pretend there's nothing on your face & stop touching it.' but the fact is that THERE IS SOMETHING ON MY FACE!! oh, we had photoshoot today & yukiko & i wanted to do the YES-POSE! haha. didn't tell you about it, training on Wed was at S'pore Poly & there were 2 poly guys taking pictures for some reason (school magazine?) & they just placed their arms around each other & went 'YESSSS!', it was seriously funny :D & the bad thing was that my 'first-pimple' day was my first track photoshoot day, how sweeet -.- eliz is still dying from shingles, i have yet to specifically find out what that is, but..oh, wells..i know it hurts [: & we're finally starting on our Goeg Presentation tomorrow, after school, when some groups have, like..already finish rehearsing it over & over again with scripts & whatelsedoyouexactlyneed.. we've (my class) has changed our english, chinese, math, geography & i believe, literature teacher. well, the one that left the greatest impression, so far, is the english teacher, 80% due to his unusual name that nobody seems to be able to pronouce. Mr Angulliah (pronouced as: ang, as in angkukueh. gulliah, as in mongolia, just change the second 'o' to 'oooooooooo' = ang-gooooo-lia) haha! i've yet to complete my Lit PT! start of the term; i wrote in my dairy last night that i would be a perfectionist! & yess, i'm having second thoughts about it! ta's! brittany mcwalsh Tuesday, June 17, 2008
twitty twit, chirpy chirp 8:59 PM
we all know that friendster's really popular among s'porean kids. however..it does freak me out once in awhile... i went to some weird-person-who-added-me's links &..it's just flooded with twits! i mean, a few per day is alright, but it was just WHOOOOOOOOOOOSH! like a tsunami, lol. & it's really hard trying to read a book while using the computer, cos you get really impatient with the author cos the book just seems to keep dragging, you know, like how a computer lags. last night, was bad. i wasn't exactly in the best of moods, so..i started talking to myself (i've got to learn to stop that, cos i've been talking too much recently) about so much stuff, training, church, people, school, everything! & it kinda freaked me out. i think i spent the whole night + morning, up to 6.45am talking. not that i stayed awake the whole night, or what, it's like..when you're in your subconscious state, between sleeping & being awake. & i just continued talking. & right after i told myself, 'alright, you can go to sleep now!' it was kinda bright already ]: & i guess, i slept for 2 more hours before i had to wake up. BUTBUTBUT, i had this really cool dream, which didn't end, cos my sister was sitting on my bed, using my phone to take unglam pictures of herself to put up for my wallpaper -.- here's it, it was some kinda marathon thingy, but it wasn't exactly the runrunrun kinda marathon, there are obstacles along the way, like climbing & whatever. & there was this really straight wall, perpendicular to the ground. it's like slanted, then..you know, it become perpendicular! yea! lol. & guess who was there? nicky & his parents were there...yea, yea! family outing with my in-laws, lol. & i was climbing, feeling kinda scared, cos i'm afraid of heights, & i was afraid i would fall & just as i was going to push myself upwards, i woke up. ohohoh, & the wall was yellow! HAHAHA. so, i've got my trainings later & i really really hope we'll be practising relay, cos it'll be slacker, anyway, we need the practise :D MUAHAHHA. i've been praying about so many things & i've been trying. oh, welllll...... ta's! ''you jolly well..." you weren't invited, cos you didn't exist..not that anyone knew. 6:04 AM
ahhh, i feel so shitty ]: outcast! & cos of that, i don't feel like posting! goshh, it's soo..it's nobody's fault -.- sheesh, i don't have anyone to blame. that sucks! hurt! ta's! GRUMBLE. GRUMBLE. GRUMBLE! SPULRT. Monday, June 16, 2008
deep inside, that feeling's just for yourself to know 6:56 AM
'That,' Ruth said, 'is chasing him. As in calling him & hanging up when he answers' Oops. Guilty. 'As in haunting the places he normally hangs out in, memorizing his schedule, & pretending to bump into him by mistake.' Guilty. Guilty. Guilty. -Safe House today's school training was kinda tiring, chasing Jean. NO FUN, MANN! i felt dead tired, really dead! & lay on the floor for 20min, getting up, only to feel dizzy ]: you know, it's really good when you're pretty close to your trackmates, cos it's the one & only time i'm in one of my unglam moments, & it's pretty common. like, my hair was shit from lying down & my faced looked green, or so i thought so, when i looked into the mirror. & my pink clip was..on the floor. my shirt was super dirty & i was sweating all over! hahaha. coach's training was pretty okay la, accepting the fact that i kinda slacked. i bargained my number of times of runs from 16, to 12, to 10, to 6. that's bad, yea, i'm aware of that. especially when Nats' are round the corner. so i'm kinda tired. ERIZA'S BACK! so, i guess..i got a little excited cos i've got one more person to talk to! haha. i've got cheena tuition tomorrow morning ]: & some malay thingy after that. how..exiciting! wow! weee! wahhh! I'M GOING TO CRY, MANN.. now my tuesdays are not even free! & i thought i could have them all to myself. what an awfully awful week! hmph! my heart is broken into 2 & each half broke into a million pieces, so total them up & you'll ahve 2 million pieces, how cool is that? HAHA. anw, nights! i'm trying to learn my ting1 xie3 for my cheena tuition, I'M TRYING SO VERY HARD! my brain..my eyeballs, my hand..MY FINGERNAILS! gosh, what's happening to me? AHHHHHHHH! hahahahaha. ta's! he said, 'WE' <3 Sunday, June 15, 2008
7:08 AM
ohohoh, & i saw this person at Raffles City last night..& she looked damn familiar! & we waved, BUT I SIMPLY CAN'T REMEMBER WHERE SHE CAME FROM! & i spent the whole of dinner THINKING, but..i couldn't remember ]: yes, indeed! i'm getting older! NOOO! but..i know her! that's not fairrrr! 6:51 AM
here's about the competition. i got 2nd.. & i met scary people.. for more info, please contact..JOE! haha. seriously, it sounds MUCH better with my voice &..it's more impactful, you know, BHAAAM! that kinda thing? YES! today, church! i mean, FATHER'S DAY <3 oopsies! i don't know why, i can't stand still & i can't stand on both legs -.- i mean, you know, sometimes you lean on one leg, but i happen to lean on the same leg, LEFT LEG, all the time ]: so it's pretty tiring for me, & it's kinda weird like, trying to shift legs & you always end up leaning on the same leg... rightt [: the sermon was about men & mirrors..pretty interesting, but it didn't really link with me..it should la, i mean..atleast abit, but..yea! i think i'm weird, typing like this today, like..saying 'like' how many times, but deal with it! i'm..just feeling HAHAHAHA :D & i didn't sleep during the sermon [: I DON'T! & NO, NOT GUILTY! hmph! anw, shopping! my sister, yes, the 2nd one, wanted a dress..she suddenly wanted it. so i spent half my day walking..actually, it's just 2 hours, but..it felt like half of a day.. just walk, walk, walk..3, 3, 3 shopping centres, & in the end, we didn't buy any, cos..she has yet to decide, that mean, there's going to be another 'outing' for dresses! eeeew. my toes hurt. really, they do! PAINFAUL, MANN! not that bad la, but..PAIN ]: tomorrow's training..& training, yes, there are 2 trainings.. THIS SUCKS! but training's kinda interesting. cos..there's alot of whinning, from me, & crapping around.. & once in awhile, SLACKING <3 oh, the joy of slacking, it just makes you feel so good. ohohoh, & no, we didn't go for lunch with the Zengs, cos we kinda told them we were going out to celebrate daddy's day, but NO, WE DID NOT! & that's like..bad! you know why i'm talking to much today? cos it was a boring day today. & I'M SWEATING! did i tell you how ironic it is? that i'm in track, but i hate to sweat... OMGG, IT'S RHYMES! HOW SWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEETT <3 i'm a natural, man :D rightt, i'm starting to rattle on. ta's! you were looking, then i was looking, then you were looking, then i was looking, & we walked right past without saying a word, but.. it felt great <3 Thursday, June 12, 2008
busy bastardious busty beastly bees. 8:17 AM
HELLO [: i'm kinda happy & i don't feel like posting. i can't find the details for this Sat's competition. have got new spikes. i've got a big right foot & a smaller left foot -.- i don't have perfect feet. tmr's training's in the morning, school. ta's! molamolamolamolaaaaaaa Wednesday, June 11, 2008
6:40 AM
i missed 963 today, so i had to wait 15min for the other one ]: can't we have effecient bus services in S'pore? yea, they're trying..but is there really an improvement that is visible to us, the citizens? goshh, let me continue. ahh, what's wrong with me todayyy? school training at S'pore Poly. we did starts & endurance. it sucked! i know my stamina sucks & i've got to work on it, but..i'm trying! trying to get the ' I GET TO DO IT, NOT I'VE GOT TO DO IT!' thing into my head, lol..that's one thing we learnt in church camp :D well, i was seriously tired. we took a TAXI to Bishan, cos RACHEL did not want to take a bus. & the taxi took the EXACT SAME route as the bus [: wow -.- why are taxi prices rising like a tsunami? yea, oil prices are rising, that is understood, but taxi's come with services & are they really providing citizens better services? coach training was kinda slack, or you would put it as, I was kinda slack. dude, i'm tired enough with 2 trainings a day ]: yea, i know, i need to train hard, Nationals' are coming..the freaking out sessions will occur more frequently... !@#$%^&*()_+ damn it la! anw, people annoy me, they always do. i kinda thought when we grow up, we generally become more mature & stuff, but it so happens that some people DON'T! i do wonder, sometimes -.- tmr's thursday, TUITION :D the smiley's extra, LOL. i don't like tuition cos i can't talk as in CHATCHATCHAT &..actually it's not that bad. it's not say fun or what, but..acceptable. weekends are coming, competitions are coming, sunday <3 is coming, that's the only thing i look forward to, how spectacular! goshh, why am i so grumpy? maybe it's cos..i'm tired. & i want to sleep, but i can't, cos my alarm's set at 7.30, making my waking up time 10.35, & if i sleep for too long i'll get a headache ]: yess, i need 9, NINE, hours of beauty sleep, haha! & there's the Lit Project which i'm not even half-way through. i got 6 poems & checked the poets out, but heyheyheyyy, THAT'S NOT ENOUGH -.- i've got to add my personal reflections on the poem (maximum 150 words), rightt, that's extra..BUT I STILL HAVE TO DO IT. & i'm the type that needs to be in my not-grumpy-&-not-too-happy mood to write good reflections, to really bring out the best in me. HAHAH, how cheesy is that :D i chose the theme 'Relationships' for the project. why? cos it has the MOST poems written on that, but i can't write it out on my Epilogue, cos it's simply inappropriate! i wanted 'Identity' & start talking about racism & that kinda thing cos i really feel that it not only affected our world in the past, but it still is, now, in the present! what's the next topic? yes..'belonging'. doesn't have much impact on me, haha! my muscleache's not gone.. ta's! far far away, that's where i am. 6:24 AM
thanks, joan -.- i'm sorry, you happen to tag me at the wrong time, cos today's bad! i'll be removing the instructions, yea? i don't like them, LOL. 1. if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? i'll be upset, that's human reaction, isn't it? 2. if you can have a dream to come true, what will it be? i'll go to Neverland :D 3. whos butt would you like to kick? camel. do they have big, fat asses? 4. what would you do with a billion dollars? i'd donate some away, splurch some &..use the rest for the people who need it. 5. what's your ideal guy like? i'm not in a good mood. 6. which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? being loved, we all need that. 7. how long do you intend to wait for someone you really love? if i really do love, then..i never know! 8. if the person you secretly like is attached, what would you do? what can i do? kill his girlfriend? LOL. 9. is there anything that has made you extremely happy? YEA. you didn't ask what, i ain't telling, haha! 10. if you can die in one way, how will it be? my orbituary has to have 2 Conrinthias 2_ to 2_, i forgot the number, lol. & i don't exactly want people to cry, cos it's seriously pointless & it's also pointless for them to pay respects on the 'special' date, cos..it's like, dead already what! 11. how do you see yourself in ten years time? i'll be fairer than i am right now [: 12. who is currently the most important people to you? God, Family, Friends, ME! 13. what kind if person do you think the person who tagged you is? joan! she's CRAZZZZY! haha. 14. would you rather be single & rich or married but poor? married but poor, i mean..when it comes to the end, wealth isn't everything...it's like asking of you need money or love. 15. what's the first thing you do when you wake up? look at the ceiling/ slam the alarm clock beside my bed & wait for my phone alarm to stop playing Collide. 16. would you give it all in a relationship? maybe, maybe not. 17. if you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick? i'll be laughing at myself in the mirror. i'd get scolded by Jiayun O_O HAHA. 18. if someone asks you who your crush is in a game of truth or dare, would you tell the truth? why? sometimes you have to lie, depends la! why? cos that's the way we, or at least me, play the game, you don't always tell it all out! 19. the eight people you want to do this quiz. 12345678! ta's! foot hurts. Tuesday, June 10, 2008
6:58 AM
it's thunderstorm-ing <3 WOOOOOOOOOOOOTS! muscles stretch & new ones will grow -jerry berry 6:21 AM
muscleache, muscleache, GO AWAY! 2:21 AM
my sister made jell-O today as part of her project & it's GRAPE flavoured, PURPLE in colour <3 haha. & the 2nd thing she did today, was to to squash my finger against the railing -.- index finger, left hand..IT HURTS, OKAYY ]: i'm starting to love tuesday <3 cos it's my only free day of this week. mon, training tue, FREEEE <3 wed, training thur, tution fri, training sat, competition sun, AHHH, sunday <3 how free am i, man.. the only good thing about this weekend's competition is that..coach's training won't be so tiring on Fri [: yea, yea..me & all my cheapo thoughts :D jerry berry's leaving tonight. jingyen's leaving on Fri. ta's! hiccups, bubbles Monday, June 09, 2008
7:23 AM
i'm suppose to be looking for my 2 poems, yes..i couldn't fnd a good-enough one last night. i can't help it, i really want the easy way out, just that there's a hard way to the easy way. so...I HAVE TO KEEP CHOOSING -.- my dad came back from Russia this morning :D & it was really nice of him to fetch me to & from training! felt kinda giddy this morning, so..yea, ponned a little bit of stuff from the school training. the coach didn't seem too good about it, but..sorry!! so, i started flinging red ants off the fence while the others trained, how cheapo is that? haha. Natalie sprained her ankle cos the stairs/ floor wasn't flat &..slipped, fall..UH-OHH! coach training was..kinda scary. we started with 300m which really made me freak. i feel so mean, i made the other girl pace with me then she kenna scolded :P haha. 200m was really funn! it's like, WHOOOSH. at least that's how it felt. 1oom was fun, with your hair flying behind you, & my shirt was..kinda flying behind me, haha! i forgot to mention that i bought new shoes <3 their orange-y-yellow! pretty sweet, but kinda simple. you know, you kinda feel good that people have so much confidence in you, but you don't happen to feel so for yourself. cos it's like all your life you feel unsure, standing on this platform that is lifted by a rope, & then there's not one, but many people who are willing to guide you through the process of being..stranded on that platform. it's so sweet! anw, i got roped into a last minute competition on Sat. some Wings competition thingy, & i don't know much about what's going on. tell me it sucks..but good news is that THERE'S NO 200M [: how lovely is that! so i'll be running in the 100m event only. jiayun isn't -.- she's running team events only; relay! relay's fun <3 ta's! BYEE! MISS MEE! I LOVE YOU! lol, jkjk. Sunday, June 08, 2008
9:38 AM
it's 12.38am now. & i'm going to die during coach's training tmr, cos i'm going to be damn tired. MY DAD'S COMING BACK TOMORROW [: actually, today..since it's already morning :D & hopefully, he'll be able to fetch me home tmr... Night! ta's! 6 days, 23 hours & 21min! still counting :D 9:28 AM
i've got 2 more poems to look for & I'm so sick of doing so. i can't find anything that has to do with relationship. & i know it sounds fairly dumb cos normal people cna find almost anything on the net -.- day 3 breakfast, i lost my appetite cos i was forced to eat a donut before we left for the breakfast table. worship, scrambled out of the hall for lunch. lunch, rushrushrush! board bus for other camp. they were having this funfair thing for the school children & we just..helped out [: & they're really friendly, cos it's like..they had 2 new comp labs & they went around asking for email addresses. back to hotel, my sisters played tennis with Justin & Brian &...ZengHui, while i stoned at a corner -.- & then we had BBQ DINNER! they barbequed the crabs alive, so it's kinda scary..like they're legs start moving & stuff O_O but they tasted pretty nice :D haha. 'BOO! are you scared?' -talking to me or what- 'haha..' 'BOOOOOOOOOOOO!' 'AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!' lol. how dumb is this conversation? very amusing, yea? HAHAHA [: after dinner, we had the night session, some games to get to know people. & we had this getting-to-know-people thingy where you shake their hands in the most...interesting & WRONG! manner. don't ask, you wouldn't want to know, haha. night. after all that fun, went to bella's room. to..be extra, haha. OH, did i mention? it was her birthday & It kinda slipped my mind. paiseh :P so, yea..talktalktalk & I left. 4th day breakfast & Worship. I FORGOT TO EAT MY SOFT-BOILED EGGGGG ]: danggg! LOL. & check-out, then lunch. the last meal was NICE <3 the ferry trip back was seriously bad. got giddy & all &..couldn't sleep properly cos i got abruptly waken up by the stupid waves -.- lalala, HOME! unpack, dinner, SLEEEEP <3 my mum bought 6 packets of kueh lapis, LOL. it's like $11 there & supposedly tastes good. O_O hahahaha! so the week has started, trainings resume for me tmr. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i will be the biggest & fattest slacker on Earth. BUT DUDE! i am not allowed to pon trainings ]: so i can't be the biggest & fattest slacker on Earth. bad sad case, the thought of training makes me tired. & i'm still kinda dehydrated from my 4-day not intentional anti-water habit. & i get sleepy easily. maybe i'll like faint during training :D MUAHAHAHHA, but it's scary. i mean, you never know how you look when you faint, can be kinda unglam, you know? HAHA. oh, during the camp, my sis saw this cute waiter, who doesn't seem to look cute to me, & she asked my other sis to start videoing him on the last day -.- it was amusing, man..cos, HE REALLY WASN'T CUTE! lol. shawn is a scary guy, bad guy shawn. TRUST ME! rightt, for those of you who are wondering, he's from my church, wow! FFAC, far far away church :D oh, & We're invited to the Zeng's house for lunch next week [: interesting... ta's! 7 days & 9min. 9:28 AM
shit la, heart brokened already ]: I LOST MY POST, SOMEWHERE IN MY ARCHIVES, COS I CHANGED THE TIME WRONGLY, AS IN WRONGLY-WRONGLY & NOW IT'S LIKE...I CAN'T FIND IT ]: & it was areally long post! & i tried looking for it but i can't & i don't want to post it again cos it wouldn't be the same!!! Friday, June 06, 2008
11:27 PM
camp <3 i'll post as much as i can, okee? 1st day good weather. took a taxi to Harbour Front at 9.45am. my dad left at 7am ]: the ferry trip was fine, they were showing Spiderman 3 while i was asleep -.- lalala, we arrived there & took a super long bus-trip, wait, no THAT long la, to this mega mall for lunch & shopping. & we bought J.CO DONUTS there! LOL, haha..super amusing. lalala, arrived in the hotel. the room was pretty pretty!! we were on the 1st floor, & the balcony was pretty pretty toooo! then shower & stuff & DINNER! the food was not say the best, but it was..kinda nice la! & worship after that. it's kinda..touching & stuff, i mean..i've never exactly felt like, touched. yea..! 2nd day breakfast, worship, group photo. it was sweet, they took one group photo, then..the monthly birthday photo. don't feel like explaining it. LUNCH, game time. the parents fled, LOL, most of them. one of the games was.... we were given newspapers & were asked to answer questions from it's context. 'where is the PM now?' & i happened to know the answer, cos my dad was there with him, LOL.. 'RUSSIA!' & auntie jo was trying her best to snatch the mike away from me, hahaha! BUT TO NO AVAIL :D anw, my group got 2nd. & i made this girl cry X: cos i 'killed' her..& she 'died'. -.- then, dinner. i ponned one of the worships & went to help the kids, HAHAHAH! kids X: yea, it was kinda fun. here's something kinda mean :P they're kinda..useless, LOL. i mean, the younger ones. they were suppose to make this butterfly thingy & they just sat there -.- so i ended up making 6 buterfly thingys for all of them -.....- yea, but..maybe i was equally useless at that age too.. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ]: i'll report day 3 & 4 some time later :D i need to peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, LOL. ta's! i dreamt you stared. Sunday, June 01, 2008
10:22 PM
today is crazy! i woke up at 9.30am& fell alseep at 10.30am -.- i seriously don't feel like doing my homework anymore ]: watching ' Thirteen'. it's about a girl trying to fit in & when she really does, she becomes this rebelious paikia O_O man, in short..it's this group of materialistic bitch that made her become one of them... i tried doing hundred sit-ups everyday.. & i don't feel like doing it today! anw, SO LONG! i'll be back different [: ta's! gone with the wind. 1:25 AM
soo..i've done some of the packing today, BUT i'll still have to pack tmr :D today. we went to church really late, @ 10.42am just to collect the camp tees & some administrative stuff. didn't attend service :P heee-ish! rightt, i've just got another unknown person who added me -.- it's getting more & more exciting; the camp. i don't know why either, but i do know that i get excited really easily! the camp shirt's yellow & it makes me look a like a...maid! REALLY, OKAY...it does! something's wrong..i can totally imagine myself coming back from camp right now O_O & i got bitten my a mosquito AGAIN! tmr's Monday, that means Sunday's going to be over................ i think i'm getting weirder these few days, just..like, not myself lately. ta's! don't miss us. US!! it's two letters: U, S..it spells US! |