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Thursday, July 31, 2008
I AM TOM SAWYER 7:59 AM
today, my legs were bad & painful. it's like a machine getting rusty, that kinda pain. & it's still painful. & i walked like an ostrich, however ostriches walk -.- it's about time i fall down & die, i haven't been sleeping early this whole week & i'll just pengsan one day. the school is crap. we've changed 8 teachers so far. CRAP! chem teacher's gone, damn sad. i mean, he teaches well & you're asking him the scram. wth la! i cannot. i cannot. i cannot. anw, i'm on a streak of making new friends. i've made 3 this week. OMG, IT'S MORE THAN 3 :D rightt, i'm tired. nights! ta's! SEAN SAWYER! Wednesday, July 30, 2008
yesterday - ily, bynk 7:15 AM
this is for seany lee :D cos his name is a...(thinking of something cheem to say, lol) secret to me. (not so cheem, but..good enough la) haha. ta's! we knew, yet we weren't sure. this secret that we kept silent, that both of us knew. i am buffy the vampire slayer! 7:00 AM
my arms have been aching since Monday. not arms, but..you know the shoulder's downstairs, maybe i shan't explain..IT SOUNDS DAMN WRONG! haha. yes, yes..must be joeline & her wild imaginations. oooh, i saw eugene lee today, he's still short with those cute eyes, HAHA! mugging in bishan library is not THAT fun, especially when the librarian comes around waking you up X: HAHA. I LOVE X-MEN COMIC BOOKS <3 i love them like WHOOOMG! lol. saw caitlan & yilin there, it's weird! to me. training today was kinda fun. it didn't seem to shitty, but i'm feeling shitty. we did jumps, like frogs & rabbits & baboons (oops) & whatever jumpy-dumpy animals. RACHEL'S POND, HAHAHHAHA. & i couldn't jump properly & kept landing on my ass. & david has big feet for balance & Long legs for the distance. wait, he isn't exactly tall but, HE'S TALLER THAN ME -.- we celebrated eriza's birthday with a cakey-cake! happy birthday <3 lol. i made a last-minute hot-pink & blue card for her, it was damn pretty, alrighty! I PUT IT LOADS OF EFFORT INTO IT :D my legs are aching. my shoulder thingy is still aching. my shoulders are aching. i think i'm going to become like, paralyse tomorrow morning & i'll be ponning schoool [: wild imagintaions once again. i hate taking the attendacce early in the morning cos i've gotta walk like zomg-y long, well it's like 50 steps & that's ALOT! i can save myself from 50 steps if i stop taking the attendace, LOL. eliz still spits at people -.- she stills people's hashbrowns -.- she kope's people's food -.- & she feels bad & pays them back -.- TELL ME SHE'S WEIRD, PLEASE! i feel like, sometimes, we leave our friends out, even if we seem all together. although it's not intentional, or so i think, or we believe that it's best if he/ she/ it doesn't know about it, it feels pretty terrifying, cos i've been in that position once & i felt..scared, yes. SCARED! ta's! I AM BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER! Tuesday, July 29, 2008
3:52 AM
isadora is a very preeeetty name, now shut up & repeat after me: isadora <3 2:33 AM
we got 90mins of lunch today :D sweeto-weetos! i'm like freaking piss. i hate it when people copy me, & no, i'm not some kinda paranoid sensitive freak who is over-reacting. let me rephrase myself, i hate it when people use my style of whatever & use it as theirs & make it all cool at their side. do note that i emphasised some words! let's see, back in primary 4, my best friend, disappeared from my life, cos i felt that she was using my kinda things for her own whateverthatwordis. maybe you guys may think i'm like some freak who overrates herself, trust me, i've seen worse. the worstest of worsts! gosh la, i'm so piss. it's no good for my facial muscles when i frown, LOL. sulynn was asking me if i ever wondered if people wanted to be like me. honestly, i've never. i have, indeed, wanted to be like others, you know..so pretty, so smart, so organised, so pro. & thus saw myself as someone 'lower'. but i soon found my ego-metre that boosted me all the way up :D HAHAHHAHA! no la, i figured that life couldn't possibly be about all the perfectos, LIFE WAS ABOUT ME! so then, i hated it when people followed me. everyone's got their own style, why feel ashamed & shy about it? FLASH IT! haha. i'm so tired of people disliking me, I MEAN, DUDE! IT'S TOTALLY FINE WHEN YOU SHOW YOUR DISLIKE RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYEBALLS! cos that's what i do to people [: but people are disliking me behind my back, & made me figure my way out through the maze to actually go OH, SO IT'S YOU AH? kinda thing. waste not my time, for i am a busy independent woman! joeline's magical dao-dao powers are itching to work. joeline's superb eyeball blasting powers are going to work! i lost my name tag, if you find it..PICK IT UP :D haha. i've got an emotional attachment to it, okee! & i strongly believe that it will be found [: COME & JOIN THE JOELINE CAMPAIGN & SEARCH FOR HER MISSING NAME TAG :D history PT; i'm coming, babyy. -with a bigbig chikopeh smile- ta's! muscle aches at the wrong spots. Monday, July 28, 2008
7:11 AM
i love the we talk, the loud laughters, the hysterical jokes, the spitting & the wiping. i wanna change our 'clique' theme that someone actually gave us. WE SHALL BE THE KNIGHTY-KNIGHTS OF THE ROUNDY-ROUND TABLE <3 how cool is that? & i wanna go back in time for ajy's picnico ]: I'M GOING TO BE A SADSAD EMO KID! lol. my phone just ringrangrung :D ta's! will you be coming tonight? Friday, July 25, 2008
7:02 AM
6:41 AM
chem was fun :D we learnt covalent bonding which seems to be the bouncy-bouncy-share-share thing to me, HAHA! i'm so pretty, oh so pretty! i'm so pretty & witty & gayyyy! chem's coolio <3 english was crappy. our new word today is BIRDIFIED! which is the summarised version of chirped happily, lol. & mr angulia, i can't stand his name! it's so loong, everytime someone speaks of his name, i'll be waiting for them to end at the ANG, but they continue with the GULIA & it just annoys me ]: & he didn't allow me to pee -.- (but i did evntually after asking in the sweetest way i ever could) 'dearest, mr angulia (i couldn't call him sir, he didn't like it -.-), may i proceed to the toilet, PLEASSEEE? ' -with a bigbig smile- 'now that wasn't so hard, was it?' 'VERY!' assembly, let's not talk about it X: -i'll cross my eyeballs if i ever could- today is S Day SHIT. don't ask, i just got super pissed.. i mean, there's nothing exact to be pissed about, but i was piss. I MEAN, THERE WAS SOMETHING, BUT NOT..SOMETHING THAT'S WORTH MY TIME, you know what i'm talking about!! AERGHH. pms la, pms la -.- i missed ajy's picnic. & i'm kinda disappointed. i couldn't help it, could i? i'm going to church tomorrow & as zhouning says, i'm going to TRY my best to be sociable & talk to people & smile & sit with them. LIKE ZOMG!? it's freaky trust me, if you were in my shoes, IT IS..very! after 6 months of being some anti-social outcast, IT IS FREAKY. i'm going to attempt to make friends, LOL. omg, i'm gonna be a bigbig loser O_O KSEJ BFAGFKJHYSVCK JS,BDK,JSDZGXV,JSDN HELP! HELP! lol. fyi, i'm a super self-conscious person, SO I DON'T LIKE OR WANT & CANNOT AFFORD TO LOOK OR BE & LOOK LIKE A LOSER. i'm going to die ]: i totally sense it! SEE YOU NEXT TIME! WHEN WE MEET AGAIN. ta's! stupid + stupid = STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPID! Thursday, July 24, 2008
4:56 AM
today was a bigbig joke :D i was starving the whole day, i was really really hungry & i mean, REALLY. & i'm still hungry ]: during lit, marissa as drawing moustache, i was making my card, sulynn got all worried for our presentation, i was making a card. & all of sudden i said, 'I AM TOM SAWYER!' it was suppose to be tom robinson, this guy in To Kill A Mocking Bird. & everyone started laughing -.- i seriously didn't know la /: BUT TOM SAWYER IS COOOL :D geography, we went to the library after 30mins of going through this weird thing that i seriously flunked, & i thought i was smart -.- cos i got the 1st 5 questions correct, LOL. the macs in school are SLOOOOW & LAGGGGGGGYY. & i was all bang-y whack-y cos it was too wols for me, LOL. & zhouning was like, 'CHILLLL!!!' they disappoint me, the macs, they really do! ICT wasn't as fun today, cos most of the comps were down & WHY CAN'T RGS GET SOME GOOD FACILITIES LIKE RI? anw, we had to do this 3d cube thingy which was a big disaster. eliz was spitting at everyone, eeew! i'm going to have pimples by the end of this year! sulynn seemed bored. marissa's fat fingers were on the mouse, LOL. & eliz kept saying, 'puddycat...PUSSYCAT!' it sounded super wrong, mann.. oooh, eliz invented a cheena version of Umbrella & it's..really, trust me on this, LAME! but it's entertaining :D sulynn had her indian, malay, whatever language that was, of some, shit i forgot the song, go-to-sleep-if-not-the-mosquitos-will-bite-you song [: mrs j wasn't here today :D oh, yea..baby! OHH, YEAA! we played netball & it was super crappy. i was center, so couldn't get into the D. eliz could, but she couldn't catch the ball & she couldn't shoot, so we saw her running in the circle not knowing what to do, & WE WERE LAUGHING LIKE CRAPPP :D & she catches netballs before she falls. so it's like, catch, fall catch, fall..LOL. we lose 1-0. AHAHHAHAHA. we spent out 10min of 'loser's break' laughing the hyperventilated laugh from..QIRUI! haha. & we went all nutts about it. 'let's all laugh together! 1, 2, 3!!!!' -3 of us laughs the hyperventilated laugh- & everyone starts laughing. it's addictive & infects people (infectuative, HAHAHHA!). you should try it one day [: ooh, i may be going running tomorrow :D ta's! HEEEHAW..HEEEHAW..HEEEHAW! Wednesday, July 23, 2008
2:44 AM
Monday, July 21, 2008
2:59 AM
we celebrated RHD today. i felt like an auntie with my shirt today. i was sweating like a banana today. i was too annoyed to take the attendance today. eliz's pumps were killing her with bruises. eliz's jacket was making me feel empty. eliz looked down my shirt today. (zomg) eliz got me a white shirt. eliz thought she was refine today. (but nooo, she wasn't!) eliz was accidentally pangseh-ed in a shop. eliz spat her thingy into the cigarette thingy. (zozozomg) sulynn was suggesting whacky suggestions. sulynn likes pink glue sticks. sulynn got her fingers black. sulynn retied her hair into pleats. we took stupid, weird, cliche, funny, super-model photos today. i still think i looked damn auntie in my shirt. ta's! it's gonna be a hot date! 2:30 AM
tagged by marissa & bRyan. A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people. 1. What are your reasons for having a LJ? -.- 2. What do you do before bedtime? talk to myself & recall the moments of the day 3. What will your dream wedding be like? me & you. 4. What is the city of your dreams and why? i'm fine where i am :D 5. Are you an introvert or extrovert? extrovert 6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? being loved. Do you trust easily? nope! 8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model? i don't have a role model /: 9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days? these days? nothing in particular! I'M A HAPPY PERSON :D 10. What is your best quality? happiness (i gave up on sociable. LOL.) 11. Is being tagged fun? at times. 12. How do you see yourself? someone with the potential to do anything she wants (have i ever mention that i hate the word potential, cos too many people used it on me & i didn't believe in it anymore..) 13. Who are currently the most important people to you? god, family, besties & one rank below that! HAHAHHA. 14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is? bRyan is like a kid, he's nice & not nice. marissa is nicer than bRyan, cos she's not like a kid, LOL. 15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor? married but poor. don't ask why, cos i explained the last time. 16. How many children do you want to have, if any? i want a daughter & a son & another whatever there is left. 17. What's better, to give or to receive? give, you really do feel happy when you give from the heart. 18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick? i'll choose the one that treasures & appreciates me more :D 19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly? i mean, i'll probably be ALREADY MARRIED by then. i'll go to the hospital & check it out! haha. 20. What is your biggest fear? my biggest fear is to fear. i tag not. Sunday, July 20, 2008
3:12 AM
i went to ikea again, today! & i saw that same balloon guy, just that he wasn't giving out balloons (drats), he was pumping them, haha! O_O pumping sounds like humping..LOL. back to school tmr after 3 weeks of ponning ]: OHH, YEAA..we're celebrating racial harmony, have yet to decided what to wear. ta's! she could hear them; every word, every breath. Saturday, July 19, 2008
3:13 AM
i primary 5, i use to have an imaginary boyfriend called Alex. he lived in the 3rd floor of my house & i left him there till today. 12:51 AM
this one is for eileen! (4th time doing this -.-) 1.The person who last tag you is eileeen 2.Your relationship with him/her is classmates, friends 3.Your 5 impressions of him/her #1. RE TIRED TWIT! #2. zomg, isaac & joel O_O #3. twit boyfriends #4. super white #5. super blur, LOL. 4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you so far she tied her hair the same way as i did halfway during curriculum time. 5.The most memorable words he/she had said to you iie lurbbe euxx! 6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will NOOONOONOO, DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT! 7.If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be the white-ness & the twitness 8.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will she'll die, she'll cry! LOL. 9. If he/she beomes your enemy, the reason will be TWIT! 10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is listen to her sing my birthday song & thank her after that 11.Your overall impression of him/her is WEIRDO-FEIRDO! Friday, July 18, 2008
10:51 PM
today, i woke up cos a thumbtack had been poking me the whole night. apparently, some stuff from my board fell & it came along with a thumtack -.- it was painful, alright! LOL. last night = the best night ever! -quote, unquote, jiayun. bryan's like a kid, when i talk to him..it's as if i'm talking to a little kid he just messaged, 'DON'T DAO ME AGAIN! DON'T DAO!' lol, hahhaha..it's seriously super amusing :D he's currently at some library, feeling really bored, cos according to him, there're no chio girls there -.- LOL. i'm currently deciding on whether i should continue daoing him [: it's so weird! i've got a friend X, he has a girlfriend Y. i strongly feel that Y is a very possesive girlfriend, cos everytime i talk to X, some suay happens to him ]: oh, wells..so am i suppose to dao him too? -rolls my pretty eyeballs- that's like, STOOOOOOPID! now i feel so bad everytime i talk to X, it's like..i'm not suppose to say this, i can't say that! or i'll be getting your delicate ass into deep shit ]: i'm super guai today, i finished a super along cheena compo & i've done 2/3 of my math worksheet (i took a break after every 1/3..I'M HAVING MY 1 HOUR BREAK NOW, lol). after 2 weeks of ponning school & this week of holiday, no way am i going to tune back into studying again! lesson's are draining, they make me hungry. they make me sleep, they make my eyeballs tired! ZOMG, I DID NOT JUST SAY THAT! I HATE COMPETITIONS LIKE 10000000% correction, life is empty without any excitement! happy birthday, mum :D i love my mum, she started supporting me like 100% ever since i said that i felt i didn't have enough support, so it's like every run, she tries to make it, to be there for me! but the sad thing is that, sometimes i get pretty annoyed. but i'm really appreciative of her what she has done for me. she stayed up so late on finals just to wait for me to return home, it's really sweet <3 & they say that a mother's love is the greatest, what about fathers? LOL. i still think sean's really sweet! haha. ta's! i can do anything! x'mas-tine day! 7:05 AM
it's my mother's birthday tomorrow <3 sean is so awesome :D i miss him sooooo much!! can't wait for some time for us to do some catching-up! ta's! when i see you smile, i can the face the world! Oh-oh, i can do anything! Thursday, July 17, 2008
i've had my 48-hours of fun. 8:03 PM
haha, i would still like to thank the 61 people who wished me happy birthday yesterday! i will now, officially, extend my birthday for a month, with an extension form from inet! LOL, hahaha. last night was bad, i smsed qirui at 00:00, cos my birthday was over & switched my phone off. guess what? I COULDN'T SLEEEEEP ]: i was still smiling (lol) & smiling, & everytime i was so sure i was gonna sleep, i would open my eyes again & be wide awake... i can't sleep at normal times now. it's like a sleep past 12 midnight & wake up at 10am. i love finals <3 color="#ff6666">EYEBAGGGGS ]: 12:45 AM
happy birthday, joee! Wednesday, July 16, 2008
9:59 PM
firstly i wanna thank the following people (in random order): gerald thashi jaslin dog boonhowe sherry danetta eliz kaixin sulynn isaac jinrong tricia juleen jessica cheryl pearlyn jiya bRyan amirah marissa brandon hanzhen gwendolyn yenjee jacob natalie koh anissa weisheng zhuoning eugene eileen joan zen clare sheryl celine my tuition teacher priyanka jingyen rachel zestin qirui eriza yukiko jasurin dad 2nd sister 1st sister aspen mum tongtong yuemin david syafiq chernhwee jingwen kimberly zen clare & SEAN LEE! & all the other people i missed out who wished me a happy birthday. & i think i've replied all your messages & what-nots :D it's really sweet, i woke up, flooded with smses..i woke up at 11, HAHA! really tired from yesterday & my phone kept vibrating, even when i was brushing my teeth, LOL. my sister woke up, gave me this super big hug that sent me crashing back onto my bed, goshh, she's heavy! LOL. so i'm really really happy & touched! & i've been smiling since i woke up! it's so sweet, really! so here's about yesterday. finals was GREAT :D there were soo many people & it was like a p6 get-together! junyuan, kevin, weesheng, nicky, this dao guy from 6b, jingyen, junhao, it's like everyone was there! haha. the chij people had really high voices, really HIGH!!! & it was..kinda, heeheehawhawhaw! although we didn't win anything, it's alright with me. actually, it's not. but it's good to let people know that it is. lol. we came in 4th for both relays..oh, welll! i spent the rest of the time there running around like some ass! oh & we needed tickets to get into the stadium, & the sad people would give us tickets when we exited the place. the 1st thing that came to my mind was to go in & out & in & out & in & out & in again, just for the fun of it, HAHA! it's so fun! this nicholas guy from my english class was there! HAHA. he's so whitey-white! yukiko & i spent our time sight-seeing, haha! #163 <3 sam is not cuter than #163! & i want they pictures! LOL. we just ran & ran & ran <3 color="#ff6666">memory, all alone in the moonlight, has the moon lost her memory? she was smiling alone. Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Ikea balloons are love <3 7:54 PM
oh, i forgot to post about my day at ikea! cos they were celebrating..wait, it was a sale! & there were 2 guys at the entrance giving out YELLOW balloons <3 cos i was standing behind my parents, & they got offered one but rejected it. i was like, stretching my arm out, before the guy offered one to me & said, 'thank you!' really loudly with a very big smile. & that guy started laughing -.- BUT I WAS REALLY REALLY HAPPY I GOT IT :D  oh, i still remember how it took me years to realise that the walls in my room were & are purple. until one day when one of my friends went, 'i wish my room was purple, i loovveee purple!' & i said, 'yeaa, i kinda wish that too..' & then O_O 'THEY ARE ALREADY PURPLE!' lol. that was in primary 4! haha, i still remember there were quite a few people who couldn't stand my guts in lower primary. p1 & 2, clarissa, klarissa, eriza & myself always had big (it was a big deal back then, okayy!) issues to deal with. & i broke mr wong's marker on the last day of school when i was p2, cos..there wasn't any ink & i started whamping it on the board, when i uncapped it, the thing was..broken! HAHA. but he was always wondering how i ever did it X: ooh, & on the first day of p2, mr wong thought i was some guaikia & appointed me as monitor & you could hear the whole class gasping & i started smirking, cos they were all going to diee! HAHAHHAHAHAHHA! ta's! evil intentions. 7:30 PM
this morning, my sister's stupid alarm was ringing & ringing, like 6 times..& it went 'hey, there Delilah, how's it like in New York City...blahblahblah' & it just kept ringing the shit outta me ]: & it was so loud that my alarm couldn't be heard ]: my darling Mary Jane <3 HMPHH! ooh, & i painted my nails, LOL. it's just the base coat, so it's shinessss! my sister did my right hand & she screwed up my pinky ]: why do i feel that i sound like some........... my right hand's pretty though :D i'm so excited! the run's at 4.10pm, or so i think. BUT IT'S GONNA BE SO FUN, WITH LOADS OF PEOPLE; CROWDS, & EVERYTHING :D & they are going to make the experince freakier for me -.- shiitttt... but i'm going there to have fun! the chances of us winning is x, the chances of us losing is x. that sucks, doesn't it? HAHA! i'm seemingly in a good mood today :D cos i haven't eaten breakfast & i dont' plan to eat it! i'm starting on lunch soon!! HAHA. i love yellow, i'm gonna wear the waddle shirt, yellow socks, bringing a banana & a golden (it's yellow toooo!) apple [: oh, & we're really going to have dinner with the RI trackers at Suntec, Swensons tonight. couldn't it have been ACSI instead? AIYAAA ]: lol, the sec 1s are so white, it scares me! i'm allergic, you know!! haha. ta's! i pray to stay. 4:00 AM
BRYAN IS GOING DOWN! THAT BIG FAT BOBO BRYAN! DIE! DIE! DIE! I'LL SHOOT YOU WITH MY WATERGUN, BANGBANGBANG! & CHOP OFF YOUR HEAD & ROLL IT AROUND THE CCK TRACK! hmph, 3:35 AM
& this one is for qirui who tagged me :D 1.The person who last tag you is qirui! 2.Your relationship with him/her is ex-classmates, friends. 3.Your 5 impressions of him/her #1. GAY! #2. kinda despo, but he's getting better! #3. self-conscious #4. afraid to lose out #5. he's a pretty nice guy when he wants to [: 4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you so far oh, he kept calling me at ORA & i kept laughing! cos he was looking for me, while i was running around, HAHAHAH! 5.The most memorable words he/she had said to you nothing! he probably said memorable words to marissa lor /: HMPH! 6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will NO, THANKS! I WANT A NICK! lol. 7.If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be white-ness! must be blackblack like me :D 8.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will HE'LL DIE! he'll suffer the same fate as isaac! MUAHAHAHAHAH! lol, damn amusing! 9. If he/she beomes your enemy, the reason will be ego too big, too despo, too white! 10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is get a him a nice girlfriend whom he'll never get sick of. 11.Your overall impression of him/her is AIYAAAAA! qirui, this is for you! & i'm sexier than you :D LOL. 3:18 AM
i'll do this quiz AGAIN, just the top part though (edited) for Eliz! LOL. what a nice friend i am :D 1.The person who last tag you is ELIZABETH THEE LOSERR! 2.Your relationship with him/her is she's my lesbo partner, shhh! 3.Your 5 impressions of him/her #1. damn loser :D #2. super funny #3. has attitude #4. she's hole-y, cos her mouth has a hole, that's where the ice lemon tea came out from, HAHAH! #5. nuutts! she sings The TingTing's songs really awkwardly, haha! 4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you so far oh, she kiasu-ly photocopied EVERY SINGLE ONE of my worksheets for me while i was away for competition, SO TOUCHED <3 lol. 5.The most memorable words he/she had said to you 'Do you have a boyfriend?' 6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will she IS already my lover, LOL, jkjk! i will puke a tsunami! 7.If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be the loserness has to go! hahaha. 8.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will i'll bitch the shit outta her! (LOL, ELIZ! DOES THIS FREAK YOU OUT ENOUGH?) haha. 9. If he/she beomes your enemy, the reason will be we no longer click = i'm different = when i think she's an ass! lol. 10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is i want to draw a mole/ tumour on the left side of her cheeeeeek [: 11.Your overall impression of him/her is L-O-S-E-R :D in a good way, of course! okee, eliz! all these are for euuuxx! HAHAH. twitting is scary, it makes my heart beat fast! ta's! hello, can i be your stead'? Monday, July 14, 2008
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NEW SKIN, BABY :D & i love it so! tmr's finals & we'll be going out for track dinner after that. heard that rg, ri & rj will be out as one! LOL. sounds rather weird to me. 4 x 100m finals <3 it isn't freaky this time, it's exciting & spectacular..just that i may freak cos there're gonna be loads of people there, but..whatevs' lol. TA'S! hello, i'm joeline! 6:08 PM
haha, Jass tagged me :D List out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for: i want world peace! HAHAHA..jkjk. 1. i want a chocolate cake <3 2. i want something that really makes itself worth it & useful 3. i want JL! hahahhaha. 4. i want an adidas deodorant thingy! 5. shoebag <3 Answer the following questions: 1.The person who last tag you is jaslin <3 i'm the 2nd person tagged, I'M IMPORTANT TO HER [: haha. 2.Your relationship with him/her is friendssssssss 3.Your 5 impressions of him/her #1. whacky! #2. really sporty, zomgg, i love dark people (that includes myself)<3 #3. coolio :D #4. has attitude. (people who have no attitude have no life!) #5. laughable with [: 4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you so far oh, when she pasted some iloveryan<3 sticker on me! or was it rachel? LOL. both of them la! 5.The most memorable words he/she had said to you i've got short term memory loss, my apologies X: 6.If he/she becomes your lover, you will turn LESBOBOBOBOBO! 7.If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be be more MANNN, like HEMAN! 8.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will out of sight. DAODAODAO! haha! 9. If he/she beomes your enemy, the reason will be she doesn't love me anymore ]: 10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is i want to pluck her eyeballs out :D 11.Your overall impression of him/her is WHHOOOOOOSH! 12.How you think people around you will feel about you? I DON'T KNOW! but i'd like to know... 13.The character you love of yourself is being sociable! 14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are lack of confidence during competitions -.- 15.The most ideal person you want to be is JOELINE! 16.For people that care and like you, say something to them iie lurrbee euxx tuhzzz w0rhxx (i took so long to learn this twit line!) 17.Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you 1. Eriza 2. Elizabeth 3. Sulynn 4. Marissa 5. Jingyen 6. David 7. bRyan 8. Boonhowe 9. Yukiko 10. ANDRE [: 18.Who is no.6 having relationship with? (david) i don't know, i don't wanna know O_O 19.Is no.9 a male or female? (yukiko) FEEEEEEMALE! 20.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? (bRyan & andre) hahaha, it'd be interesting, gheytards! LOL. 21.How about no.8 and 5? (boonhowe & jingyen) ZOMG!!! 22.What is no.2 studying about? (eliz) the art of loserness & how to stop puking my ice lemon tea onto people. LOL. 23.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? (sulynn) long long time ago, (in a land far far away...) 24.What kind of music band does no.8 like? (boonhowe) i don't know... 25.Does no.1 has any siblings? (eriza) an elder sister. 26.Will you woo no.3? (sulynn) yea, cos she's sulynn babe/ baby! LOL. How about no.7? (bRyan) i haven't even seen him in person yet! haha. 28.Is no.4 single? (marissa) i don't knowwwwww -smirksmrik- 29.What's the surname of no.5? (jingyen) tan 30.What's the hobby of no.4? (marissa) paiseh, i don't know! collecting stamps :D HAHAHHAHHHAHAH! 31.Do no.5 and 9 get along well? (jingyen & yukiko) so far so good :D 32.Where is no.2 studying at? (eliz) RGS, 1o5.. 33.Talk something casually about no.1 (eriza) SHE'S A BIGBIGBIGBIG JOKER [: 34.Have you try developing feelings for no.8? (boonhowe) omg! no! 1st he was so fierce & everything, then he became a weirdweird person..HE'S FREAKY!! lol. 35.Where does no.9 live at? (yukiko) jalan somethingsomething [: i rock! 36.What color does no.4 like? (marissa) she's emo..must be black & white & grey la :P 37.Are no.5 and 1 best friends? (jingyen & eriza) nope. but they know that each other exists, lol. 38.Does no.7 likes no.2? (bRyan & eliz) do they even know each other? 39.How do you get to know no.2? (eliz) OH. she was the first person who talked to me when i entered 1O5, guess what she said! 'do'u have a boyfriend?' LOL. 44.Does no.1 have any pets? (eriza) nopey-no! 41.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? (bRyan) somehow, i think i'm sexier X: haha, it's so weird! i just woke up, my eyeballs are aching ]: ta's! hello, will you be my boyfriend? 7:28 AM
ta's! i could hide & cry. 7:19 AM
S is for Screwed S is for Stupid S is for Sucker F is for Fishball 1:41 AM
rachel got 3rd. jasurin got 4th. hongyi is 1st. jinglong got 3rd. TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY, NOT THE BEST THOUGH. when we lose, we don't know what to do. when you cried, i didn't know what to say. our goals differ greatly, our focus & priorities vary. didn't dare to say much, i didn't know how you felt. but disappointment; yes, i did know. other then that, there was nothing more. i'm so sorry, yun..i didn't know, i couldn't feel. we practised our baton passing today & coach was seriously pissed cos we were taking forever! actually, we were not..he was piss, don't ask me why. & i really wanted to buy a drink, really really really wanted to. i had $20 :D WOW! but i didn't have any coins -.- so we went around asking for coins, but somehow..NOBODY HAD ANYTHING! until we came to the ACSI people, haha. this really nice friend of jinglong emptied his wallet of coins, LOL, but i needed 10cents more. ahhh, damn joke!! after i got that from jinglong, the machine ate the 10cents when david attempted to buy it for me..stupid la ]: so i approached this nice looking stranger & said, 'could i have 10cents, please?' super embarrassing la, asking people for 10cents, LOL. anw, i got my drink in the end & JOELINE LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER [: hahahaha. did i mention that i was willing to give my $10 note away to the nice friend? LOL. i mean, if i didn't, i'd be so paiseh..giving me money for free & i didn't & don't even know him..but the nice nice david saved my day! LOL. but today was a very sweet day <3 despite the super weird weather! i love it when it rains <3 IT FEELS SO COLD & COMFORTING! lol. hahaha. but seriously, i does feel that way, at least to me :D i had a dream last night, i dreamt of attending church & thewho was there & it all started again, you look, i look, you look & i look & you look again, just that it happened while i was entering the car. it's so fun! i miss looking at people in church, LOL..sounds stupid, but it's realy fun to look, you know? HAHA! i'm deciding on the dumbest thing, which way to tie my hair on finals X: if i tie it with one hairband, i'll tie it really high like a hooty-hoot. if i tie it with two bands, i'll tie it really low like a...looty-loot! LOL. i'm thinking... i'm so excited today, i mean..i'm still so excited over what happened in the afternoon :D HOW COOL IS THAT? not cool, LOL... ta's! i wasn't flustered, was i? i wasn't acting all cranky, was i? at least i was trying not to ;P Sunday, July 13, 2008
4:11 AM
i burnt my thumb today & it hurts ]: today. welll, my family kinda overslept, so we missed church. (oops!) i haven't been praying, i try to make it an effort to pray every night, but..somehow, i keep falling asleep. oh, well... english class was kidna fun except for the fact that we did comprehension today! i don't know why, i just suck in it. & I'LL BE AT THE STADIUM TOMORROW <3 & we'll be having training <3 & jinglong will be running <33 & jasurin will be running <33 & rachel will be running <3 & i'll be chilling out, relaxing, watching them run! i've been waiting for this moment to come, going to the stadium just to support! short & sweet. i'm sweating, therefore, i don't feel like posting, GHAHA! & joe is not a guy's name, IT'S A SEXY FEEEEEEMALE NAME :D ta's! hello, mr collar shirt guy! 'who are you?' -.- Thursday, July 10, 2008
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we could make something that would hold, or at least we think would hold. we could make wishes, that we'd never want to belive wouldn't come true. we could be winners, as long as we wish ourselves to be one. i suddenly feel that i need track; there's a need for it. i used to think that competitions were moments for me to freak out, i'd wait for them to past & start smiling again. but, it's different this time, somehow, i don't want Nationals to end. it was only a week ago that i was freaking out so badly, the anxiousness, the fear. everything i couldn't stand. track is not just another activity, it's something that allows you to experience & feel the different faces of yourself. if i compared the people in school, & the people in track..oh, well! 6:30 AM
it's when different types of emotions are blended together & you sit down, wondering where all these start, when they'll end. i'll be back in school tomorrow..it's so different! i'm tired of trying to climb the rope, i keep slipping! i've got blisters, i'm letting go, on you, on everything! ta's! take a break, have a KitKat! 5:25 AM
i don't know you, you don't know me = we don't know each other. SO WHAT DA HELL IS GOING WRONG? something is wrong..dang, i'm contridicting my previous statement -.- it's the whole..bobo love trap! it's not dumb, IT'S TRUEE!! 5:08 AM
i can't believe i'm falling for this bobo trap, the same trap that i've fallen before previously! it's called the bobo love trap! lol. amazingly true! 2:53 AM
i am currently trying my best to multitask - eating an apple, doing some CLE thingy & posting. i heart DURIAN <3 today was a damn sad day, not for me though ;D hwachong's C & B Div kinda screwed ]: 3rd to 4th, baton dropped. 2nd to 3rd, the guy had a problem, leg pain or something. oh, wells..we win some & lose some. so weird, isn't it? i'm supporting HCI instead of Raffles, haha! nat was super loser, LOL. she got dao-ed 80% of the time when she attempted to ask Jinglong for the tape!! DAMN FUNNYY! jasurin was 4th runner for nygh, kinda weird.. but raffles was 1st in da heat <3 overall 3rd..aiyaaaaaaaaaaa ]: sport's school, cedar & RAFFLES! shit, my hand still smells of durian! SHIITT! I GOT APPLE STUCK IN THE KEYBOARD O_O oopss X: eriza is mean! she eats an ice-cream everytime she goes to the stadium & tempts me! the last time she did that, i bought one & shared it with jean.. then don'tknowwho came & started giving her a lecture & She pointed at me & i was saying it was eriza was tempted me! haha. & TODAY ERIZA WAS EATING MY FAVOURITE GRAPED-FLAVOURED PURPLE ICE-CREAM THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH IN BISHANNNN! you moron! lol, jkjk. tmr's 4 x 400m, ALL THE BEST TO THE RUNNERS, YEA? muahahahhahahahha. i'm starting to hate school. great! now i sound like some little kid. 'MUMMMYYY, I DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL COS I HATE IT!' haha. the teachers hate me & they don't give a damn. & yes, once again! I HATE SCHOOL! i've gotta get some geog thingy done by today, & i don't know anything about it -.- & there's some FA & there's math homework, & did i mention chemistry? we're suppose to hand-up some idon'tknowwhat! WOW! SCHOOL IS EXCITING & SPECTACULAR <3 & yess, that was sarcastic -.- from today onwards, i wouldn't be able to pon school again ]: i'm going to be guaikia & continue my 10th word for my CLE anger management thingy -.- ta's! p.s zomfg! Wednesday, July 09, 2008
2:55 AM
i'm laughing my eyeballs out, but i can't tell you why!!! 2:22 AM
eating breakfast every morning, when i'm having early runs, is bad enough. i'm not a morning person, i don't eat breakfast. it's seriously difficult to have something going down your throat while you're still in the process of stoning. so these few mornings, i was forcing myself to eat & it was terrible! LOL. this morning, i woke up & lay in bed...already freaking out. imagining myself running, how i was to run, where my competitors were & my heart? it just kept beating & beating & beating..i was trying to chill, but i couldn't -.- it's annoying! well, breakfast was bad. i just sat down, thinking & stoning & nibbling on my food. i just ate a stupid egg for breakfast..& when my mum sees this, she's going to speak to me about how much more i was supposed to eat. today, i learnt that EATING AN EGG IS VERY HARD! lol. kinda pissed my dad off, cos i took super long to eat. ohohoh, mr choo found my track pants <3 i left it at the stadium yesterday ;P i've got an emotional attachment to it, haha. sitting in the call room, i didn't stretch, i didn't move around. i just sat down & continued freaking out.. yea, you guys must be wondering why i'm freaking out like a gay-ass loser.. i've yet to find an answer to that. my heat was the 2nd one. after adjusting the block & stuff..i walked back & i seriously wanted to cry!! LOL. i was thinking, if you wanna back-out now, this is the time to do so. then, you've been freaking out just for this, get over with it! OVER & DONE WITH. you've been running for ages, what's wrong? confidence level was very lowwww. kekarisan (however you spell it -.-) - come on, joe.. sedia - just go for it, it'll end stand up - WTH !@#$% & THEN AGAIN... kekarisan* - dear God, stay with me. sedia - bring me through this race, amen. BANGGG! & i started running.. relax, relax..just run..relax <--that's what i was thinking the whole time. being in lane 8 is the worst thing that could ever happen to me ]: what could i do? i started pacing the person behind me, you know, listening to her footsteps..they were LOUD! very. after the 100m mark, i just wanted to beat whoever was beside me ;D & i did! haha..sounds so cheapo. at the end, i really didn't care if i did well or not. i wanted to cry (again -.-) cos i was super happy it was over <3 went upstairs & falalalalalala... i don't know why, i started crying..& i asked myself why. there's no reason for me to cry! NOTHING I CAN EVER THINK OF. was it cos i was tired? angry; angry about what? happy; no i wasn't feeling THAT happy..was it cos i didn't put in my all? but i felt that i did! i seriously, honestly didn't & don't know what was happening.. well, it's over. i miss jiayun ;D me laughed a few times today, the REAL kinda laughs. all the best to HQ, elle, nat & rach [: tmr's 4 x 100m semi-s <3 i thought i missed school, but i realised i didn't when i went back to class.. it's boring & dreadful. but classmates? ZZZOOMG, eliz is super funny!!! my birthday's next week [: I WANT A CHOCOLATE CAKE! haha.. ta's! catching you. TRIANGLE FACE <3 lol. Tuesday, July 08, 2008
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i seek comfort in rain <3 when i was younger, they reminded me of crowns, because when they hit the floor, the tiny droplets would bounce up & they'd look like crowns. i would see many crowns & i would smile. i see tomorrow coming, & i see it going. i see myself smiling again; that kinda of smile that's true & real, not the fake cover-ups that you see in many others. i had those once, but i gave up on them. they made you feel worse & miserable. i see tomorrow passing, i see tomorrow night. ta's! when the dogs start whistling Monday, July 07, 2008
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ohoh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DARYL <3 you're the one & only GEP that i truely appreciate, haha! isn't it sweeter this time? 3:13 AM
no sympathy this time, just sarcasm, sarcasm, & MORE SARCASM! 3:09 AM
once in a while, you feel like a bitch & you smile about it. wait, it's a smirk! 1:39 AM
i've got a bruise on my face -.- rachel kinda smashed her watch into my cheekbone (she was swinging her arms) just as i was bending down (to stretch la!). it's not that obvious, but it hurts ]: NO BIGGIE! anw, this morning's training was seriously screwed! i practised being 3rd runner with Rachel & i seriously, honestly, true-blue-y-ly screwed up, BIG TIME! it's kinda depressing, especially when the comps are just..TOMORROW! i'm kinda glad i ain't freaking out like how i expected myself to. i'm taking to easy & light! you know, just run to your bestest ability & COME WHAT MAY! i've figured that benig last in a heat is no big deal, cos someone will have to get last. just by doing that, i've cast away one of my fears. how easy is that? lol. or maybe it's me, freaking our easily. sometimes i question myself, why did i join track? primary school - AIYA, JUST JOIN LA! LOOKS DAMN FUN WHAT [: secondary school - I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE, DO I? actually, that's not the case, that's an excuse i choose i stick to cos it works all the time, haha. i like trainings, i like feeling tired, i like to know that i'm pushing myself, i like to give myself that sense of satisfaction, telling myself that, 'hey, you actually did it!'. but i hate competitions cos they freak me out. yea, i know, really gay! it's like wasting my time, training cos i love it! & when competitions come, AHHHHH! that kinda thing -.- honestly, track has done me loads of Good. i finally found something that really freaks me out! seriously! exams don't freak me out, being the lousiest in class doesn't freak me out, being a social outcast in church doesn't freak me out, insects are scary, not freaky..TRACK COMPETITIONS FREAK ME OUT! haha. i've got Lit FA, Math homework on Algebra, History PT, Lit PT. need ta catch up! i'm falling back. ta's! last night i said, 'tonight's the night, you can sleep well..cos once tomorrow night comes, you'll start freaking out again. Now, rest!' Sunday, July 06, 2008
3:34 AM
tuesday, 100m semi-s (11.20am) & 4 x 100m heats (4.40pm) wednesday, 200m semi-s (10.30pm) thursday, 4 x 100m semi-s (3.15pm) that's for this week. i see these fears fast approaching, soon vanished. ta's! come what may! Thursday, July 03, 2008
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hongyi ran so fast <3 HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA. he got first in his heat! & some HCJ girl almost caught up with Barbie Doll. hq's going to run at 3.20pm, he's probably in the Call Room now. -to be continued! 5:57 AM
NADA TA SA! eyeballs hurt! 100m tomorrow. not for myself, but for God. i get to run this race that only some can. ta's! cos when they come & go, you'd wish you were an outcast. Tuesday, July 01, 2008
5:17 AM
i'm feeling sleepy. i fell asleep in the malay thingy, partly cos it was boring & it was driving me nutts & i was tired. i promise that i will leave the computer by 10pm today! anw, remember the guys who came in the bunny costumes? yess, they decided to have a gingerbread man this time. it's some concert, raising funds for the disabled or something like that. wellwell, the gingerbread man happened to be Sulynn's churchmate.. & the stupid marissa & eliz dared me to hug the gingerbread man for $4..dangg! i should have asked for more, HAHA! 'i need to earn $4, could you give me a hug, please?' i was trying to stare into the gingerbread man's super big mouth, trying my best to spot a face...BUT, NOO..didn't see anything ]: anw, there wasn't much of a respond from the gingerbread man, partly cos..he's too fat. anw, the costumes really soft, i kinda expected it to be harder :D HAHA. i'll be ponning school training tmr :D & making my way to Bishan <3 yes, i can tell that i'll be freaking out by tomorrow. i don't know why i'm scared anyway! that's the gay-est thing ]: the distance? being last? getting tired? pressure? (but got no pressure lehh..) i think it's..I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING!!!! i know that thursday & friday will be passing by really quickly, like WHOOOSH! & I'M GONE! that kinda thing, but it seems to be dragging on & on..i can't wait to run my 100m <3 although i'm running with one of the SSS girls that ran with me on my last-last 100m race -.- once 200m is done, i'm going to relax! hopefully, i don't even get through the semi-s <3 as anxiety builds up, the competition syndrome will take it's toll on me! oh, & i almost got booked by Evan for my fringe -.- yesterday was the nails, today's the hair! i love my fringe! haha. ta's! there she goes, there she goes again! |
