i count numbers back & forth just for the thrill of it.

2012-01-31T05:54:00.001-08:00

Friends. Leave footprints behind. However, we always fail to note that the tide comes back & harsh winds blow over time. Leaving behind the same, plain beach you started out with. It's like trying to collect water in your hands, it'll always be flowing out. Until one day the source has gone.

Perhaps, there is a need for eternity. Perhaps, this is prove of eternity; it is human nature to want something that lasts.

You win. Shoot me. Everything dies eventually.

2011-10-12T04:38:00.001-07:00

The blind pursuit of academic success.

At the expense of the individual. Their dignity, pride and self-worth.

At the expense of the artists amoung us. Their creativity, talents and voices.

Ultimate question of life, What are you living for?

Don't define yourself the way society does.

Don't limit yourself with the restrictions placed upon you.

Find your own definition of Life.

We are all factory made. From birth till death.

2011-07-26T05:36:00.001-07:00

R.I.P. AMY WINEHOUSE

The best, how unfortunate.

2011-07-26T05:34:00.000-07:00

Addiction is a disease, not a crime. Society is in serious need of changing the way it views people who suffer from such a horrible affliction. These people don’t need to be criticized, they need to be helped.

2011-04-02T09:00:00.001-07:00

A year & a multi-million days.

Haha.

Year 4. Isn't really so bad. Stress still comes from you.

How well I do now doesn't show how well I'll do. Of course it plays a part.

I'll be a wedding crasher :D

Don't need much brains. Haha.

NAH. I'll be what I'll be. Just wait & watch me!

2011-03-03T08:43:00.001-08:00

Jayjay Jiho Rumpelstiltskins's gonna die.

2011-03-03T08:38:00.000-08:00

Bah Bah Black Sheep Have You Any Wool?
Yes Sir, Yes Sir! Three Bags Full.

Take these anxieties in a bag.
Take these pessimism in another.

Take these sense of lost in the last.

Change.

Joe

Windows, Holes

2011-01-21T07:27:00.000-08:00

I could walk into the woods by myself without you having to be there.

Have you ever felt hole-y? Like there's this big hole in your chest & you've got no idea why. It seriously feels like a hole, like you can feel the wind blowing through it & it hurts, cos it's cold.

Or perhaps you've felt really sad before & your heart seriously hurts! I used to think that those were the cheesy stuff emotional people said, but it's true! You can feel it. You should try it sometime.

People fall into holes. Sometimes they get stuck. Usually when they get stuck, they start hating holes forever. They see holes as an obstacle that leads you to failure. Windows are holes too, aren't they? So are doors. They're holes to a house. But sometimes we fail to see these windows & doors, we still see them as deep endless pits that suck us up that we can never come out from. So when we past them & we mock them, we hate them, we make ourselves believe that they're all no good.

Breakfast with Bros.

It was cold. It was warm. It was comforting. It was freezing.

It was fun. It was silent.

Open your eyes & come home.

ta's!

Joe

Dear M,

2011-01-08T01:09:00.001-08:00

I see you broken,
But I don't ask

When you're breaking,
I fail to realise

But if you need me,

If you ever do

Please know that I'll be

Waiting here for you

Joe

2011-01-06T06:56:00.000-08:00

It kept drizzling/ raining today. Remember it was raining?
We all got wet.

I'm so tired.
1 big topic to cover tomorrow, Quadratic Functions!
Not bad though, hope I'd keep the pace.

2011-01-05T06:47:00.001-08:00

Raindrops are falling on my head.

2011-01-05T05:05:00.000-08:00

Life sucks.
Kinda.
Indecisive.
Noobs.

Love.

Life sucks.
Kinda.

Be with you everyday

2011-01-04T05:38:00.001-08:00

Just revised 2 topics [:

Gonna skip 1. & 2 more tomorrow.

Is there a way to not sleep in the afternoon? I can't help but feel the need to close your eyes, think of..things & just drift off into whatever you're gonna drift off into.

Could you picture yourself on a hill. A hill you've just climbed a longlong for no particular reason. You're tired. It's drizzling heavily. You're wet, your hair's wet, your shirt's wet, your socks are juicy, your shoes are soaked. & you're kinda tired. But once you step upon that hill, you see a hut with a table made of stone & seats around. So you sit down. You feel the wind, it's pretty strong. Your hair's all over the place. You're laughing. You're smiling. You feel calm & pleased, satisfied. & you think to yourself, I could stay here forever. So you sit there for about an hour as the rain continues to pour, wind continues to blow, as you continue to feel safe & protected in this new environment you found. You glance up & you see a kite stuck on a tree. You laugh, cos you've always loved flying kites but never did, but imagine your kite having stuck up there on the tree. You feel so sleepy.

Trying to put into words where I've been.

Then you're there. & all is good.

Anw.
Mons & Fris are my coffee days.
Tue - Thurs are my tea days.
This is to ensure that I don't sleep from 7.45-1pm daily.
Life sucks.

I'll not sleep in class.
I'll do my homework within a day.
I'll drink my coffee& tea till I die of over-consumption.
No, I'll wait till the end of the year. I've got 51 weeks & 4 days left. Looking forward to it already.

& I'll wait & remember. & wait & remember. & count the weeks.
JUST YOU WAIT & SEE!

ta's!

I'm walking on a rocky roof, & I'm looking at the sky

2010-12-08T04:13:00.000-08:00

Okay, wow. Just watched Dorian Gray, pretty spooky. Pretty awesome. Rather strange.

It's about this guy, Dorian, who comes to London cos his grandfather passed away or something & he stays for good. Has a good friend, a painter, who painted a marvelous portrait of Dorian & believed that Dorian changed his view of art cos of his beauty & youth. Then Harry comes into the picture. Harry's a badbad man! Haha. He brainwashes the young & innocent Dorian into thinking that lust & pleasure is all there is in the world. & naughtynaught Dorian gets naughty. The cool thing in the story is that Dorian's soul is sealed in his portrait while the picture of Dorian's youth is granted to him. So Dorian stays young while all his friends & whores all turn grey. Oh, & Dorian fell in love with Harry's daughter. & Harry's not very happy about it. So Harry goes searching for the secret of Dorian's youth & beauty! & OH, IT'S THE PAINTING!

In the end, the painting gets burnt (Harry's fault! Lol.) & Dorian stabs his painting, & the ugly face is now his. & he burns in his attic, while his picture returns to it's original painting.

Pretty sad.

I mean, dude! It's not all Dorian's fault. He was this innocent, naive, pretty boy who came to London. While HARRRY came trotting by with his hormones & brainwash the poorpoor Dorian.

Harry should die too! Well, his daughter kinda pangsehed him. BUT HE SHOULD HAVE DIED, YO!

It's a pretty nice movie, except for the many horny scenes. Haha.

ta's!

Oh, bring back my bonnie to me!

2010-11-28T05:31:00.001-08:00

Don't let anyone take this gift away from you.
Could anyone ever forget it by not using it? Is it possible?

2010-11-28T05:11:00.000-08:00

Do you know the parable of the prodigal's son?
The son who ran away with lots of cash, splurged it all till he was broke & came running back home to his dad knowing his mistake. His dad was so glad & celebrated his son's return.

What if this incident was repeated over & over again? Maybe, a few years later the son made the same mistake again- taking all the cash, spending it & come running back home again? Maybe the second time, his dad would be glad his son 'knew his mistake'. But what if it happens for the third time? & then the fourth & fifth time? Wouldn't daddy be impatient & frustrated by then? But that's just a guess. But how would the dad really feel? What's he going to do about his problematic son? & you'd also be wondering, what on earth is wrong with the son? Has he not learnt his lesson time & time again?

2010-11-10T06:37:00.001-08:00

Today, I spent time with my swings and I wondered, 'Could someone come play with me?'

It's not fun alone.

2010-10-30T08:50:00.001-07:00

Just need to find somebody.
How boring.

2010-10-30T08:41:00.000-07:00

Talent Vogue last night was pretty nice, way better than last years performance actually. It ended off really well! Haha.

Gym Performance today wasn't that bad, wasn't that awesome either. But not bad la [:
Was super cute!!

Mmmm, Halloween's here. I don't celebrate.

I love babies.
Cats aren't that bad.

I think architecture's cool. I could be an architect!
Fairytales are stories that are made up by people, they're stuff that can't ever be real. But buildings are real, you can make design them in any way you want to, as long as it's feasible, & you just need to make it come true! It's realistic stuff.

Turn left to give up.
Turn right to continue.
Roll the dice to skip a turn.

ta's!

Byebye

2010-10-30T08:39:00.001-07:00

You think I'm pretty without any makeup on.

2010-10-16T07:58:00.000-07:00

LISTEN
to the sound of this.

2010-10-14T22:32:00.001-07:00

I used to think of what we could do. What I would wear. What I would say. Where we'd go.
I used to what things at their best. It's like fitting your fist into a the cookie jar. If you take all the cookies, you'll always be stuck.

2010-10-14T22:30:00.000-07:00

Water flows.
Dams block the flow.
Dams are man-made structures.
They're not part of nature.

2010-10-14T19:42:00.000-07:00

I don't know what you're thinking. Don't know what I'm doing. Don't know where we're going.
So let's make it stop.

So that's the end of us

2010-10-14T19:32:00.000-07:00

I had this picture in my head.
It was a picture of me floating on this stream of water, allowing it's currents to carry me. & it didn't matter to me where this current went. It wasn't a hot day. It was windy, cloudy, peaceful, serene. I was with myself & I felt such calmness. The air was sweet. I was happy. The stream stretched out into different routes & I was afraid one of which would lead me to an unpleasant place. & I wanted to stop, I wanted to analyse each route & know what's at the end. I went against the current, trying to decide. Then I realised that there's really no use in that. The current's like life. I need to learn how to flow with life & stop always trying to decide on things that I'm not sure of myself. I need to stop holding on to every aspect of my life to tightly, trying to take control of it, because there's always going to be other people involved. & I'm going to be constantly hurting the people around me. & I'm done with that. I can't force life to have a pleasant ending, I can only live it.

2010-10-14T07:14:00.000-07:00

This is a MUST post.

Today was fun.
For the first time ever, I didn't sweat like omgzz in the East.
The East is an unusual place that constantly makes em feel uneasy.
But it is rather lovely. I'd like to buy a house in the East next time.
A quiet, lovely house with a big dog of my own.

I WANNA LIVE IN BALI BESIDE A POND OF FISHES, WITH MY BIG DOG! WITH NICE LIGHT CURTAINS REACHING DOWN TO THE FLOORS! OHMYGOSH!

& i love the straw, btw! I'm using it now [: to drink milk!

Next up,
MOVIEW MARATHON ONE DAY!

ta's!
HONEY

2010-10-04T08:18:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I'm really good.
At smashing the brains & juicing the heart.

Xoxo,

Final Geog Notes

2010-10-03T06:18:00.000-07:00

Map Reading
Steps:
1. Pattern - Nucleated/ Linear/ Dispersed
2. Type - Urban/ Rural + Town/ City
3. Location Relief
- Height (<200>600 = High)
- Gradient (Steep/ Gentle)
- Main Functions (Mountainous/ Conical, Hills/Knolls, Ridges, Valleys)
4. Drainage (Domestic & Commercial Function) - Rivers (Name), Tributaries, Meanders, Waterfall
5. Man-made Features & Functions - Industrial, Agricultural, Commercial & Transportation

Note:
- Read bottom left of square
- EASTING followed by NORTHING

Dominant Functions:
1. Market Town - Agricultural/ Farming areas
2. Mining Town - Self-explanatory
3. Industrial Town - raw products --> manufactured goods
4. Port - Rivers/ Coasts
5. Route Center - Strategic junction of natural & man-made transport points
6. Service Center - Recreational, educational, shopping, healthcare
7. Cultural & Religious Settlement - Rich historical background
8. Administrative Center - Regional center/ Capital city
9. Residential Town - Inhabitants retired/ work elsewhere

Migration & Urbanization
Urbanization (Increase of percentage population living in urban area) --> Urban Growth (Expansion of land area &/or increase in population living in urban area) --> Overpopulation (Too many people, too few resources - Disequilibrium/ Mismatch)

Rural-Urban Migration:
Multi-dimensional process that involves change in demographics, urbanization, economic development & social change

Migrants Profile:
- Lowly educated
- Lack/ Have little relevant skills
- Poor

Challenges:
1. Migration Laws
2. Anti-foreigner Sentiments
3. Assimilation (Blending of minority groups & communities in dominant society) - Racial/ Religious discrimination & language/ communication barrier

Push Factors:
1. Natural disasters (famine/ drought) --> Poverty
2. Poor rural/ social living conditions -Harsh conditions (poor housing)/ (Poor quality of life - poor educational opportunities)
3. Economic hardship - Overpopulation --> Unemployment/ Informal Jobs (Low pay) --> Income disparity

Pull Factors: [Perception]
Employment (More & varied) --> Higher chance of employment --> Higher wages/ income --> Better standard of living -->
1. Urban facilities (Piped water, sanitation, sewage disposal system, electricity, social services: Healthcare & medical facilities)
2. Upgrade housing
3. Afford education

Pull Factors: [Reality]
Overpopulation (Too many people, too few resources) -->

1. Traffic congestion --> Roads blocked near gridlock --> Transportation infrastructure over-burdened -> Pollution --> Degradation of environment --> Quality of life suffers

2. Strain on environment & urban facilities --> Ecological stress on quality of life

3. High cost of living --> Few resources drive prices up --> Inflation

4. Competition --> High Unemployment/ Informal Sector --> Lowly paid/ Minimum income/ wages --> Income disparity --> Informal/ Substandard housing (Slums & squatter settlements) --> Violent, dirty, lacks family support & unconducive learning environment --> Trapped in vicious & endless cycle of poverty --> Easy targets for crime

Effects of Migration
Area of origin:
` Reduce underemployment
` Lessen pressure on resources & facilities
` Bring back new skills (return of migrants) -> Revitalise Economy
` Send remittances back - Finance services (healthcare) & education --> Revitalise Economy
x Younger adults age group migrate -->
1. More likely to be males --> Disproportionate number of females left
2. Older population left --> High death rate
3. Lose people of child bearing age --> Low birth rate
4. Lose skills & entrepreneurial talents --> Slow down economic development
x Perceived benefits of host country --> More migrations --> Detrimental to social structure of country
x Returning migrants --> Social cost on community

Area of destination:
` Increase in proportion of young adults age group --> High birth rate & Low death rate
` Migrants take up undesirable jobs (Low pay, long hours) --> Contribute to economy - Gain skilled labour at low cost
` Influx of new providers of local services
` Cosmopolitan city (Hybrid cultures) - Variety of traidions, cuisines & religions --> Increase understanding & tolerance of one another
x Increase in number of people --> More competition for locals & puts more pressure on resources
x Over-reliance/ Over-dependence on migrants
x Discrimination (Minority & ethnic groups) -->
1. Racial Tension & social unrest
2. Anti-foreigner sentiments
3. Segregation (Schools & area)
x Cost of educating migrant's children
x Loss of cultural identity

Facts & Statistics
More Economically Developed Countries (MEDC):
1. Osaka-Kobe, Japan (Commercial center of Japan) - As of July 1960, Osaka & Kobe had a population 2.6Million & 1.42Million respectively. Population over 9Million now.
2. NewYork, USA - Largest city in the world in the middle of 20th Century

Less Economically Developed Countries (LEDC):
1. Culcutta, India - Population of 7Million in 1970 --> Population of 12Million in 2000
2. Rio De Janeiro, Brazil - As of 2002, 6Million live in urban areas & 10Million live in metropolitan areas

1. Housing
- Osaka-Kobe - High housing density of 100000 living within a square km & 25000 people homeless
- Culcutta - Population density of over 150 000 km2 with 3Million people living in bustees

2. Unemployment
- NewYork - 1980s, 1.5Million people unemployed (New industries were high tech - required less workers)

3. Transportation (Traffic Congestion)
- NewYork - Over 2Million commuters travel to NewYork each day, with 75% of them taking public transport
- Culcutta - Old buses are insufficient to carry everyone & many slow rickshaws add to traffic congestion

4. Pollution (Air/ Water/ Visual/ Sound)
- Osaka-Kobe - Smoke from heavy industries + Rubbish incinerated & dumped at sea + Oil Spills + Vehicle exhaust --> Smog (Fatal)
- NewYork - Severe refuse collection & disposal problem + Run-down houses + Graffiti + Vehicle exhaust --> Smog (fatal)

5. Crime - major problem (Murder/ Drug-related/ Violence) + Ethnic/ Minority groups congregated in their own communities --> Racial tension
- Rio De Janeiro - Well-off residents moved out to safer & cleaner environment with their families
- NewYork (1980s)

Slum & Squatter Settlements
- Dilapidated/ Shanty/ Informal/ Substandard
- Extreme poverty - informal jobs/ unemployed --> low/minimum wages
- Social & physical deterioration
- Slums - Legal
- Squatters - Unauthorised

Characteristics:
1. Cramped/ Overcrowded (High housing density) --> High incidence of fire
2. Built with discarded/ poor quality material (Fire hazard) - Planks, wood, cardboard --> High incidence of fire
3. Lie outside of formal planning - Vacant land (marshy land/ steep slopes --> vulnerable/ susceptible to floods/ landslides)
4. Lack basic amenities:
-Clean water (Irregular & unreliable, sometimes contaminated --> *Epidemics (Cholera, tuberculosis, measles) --> High infant mortality rate)
- Electricity (Use lamps as as source of light)
- Drainage & sewage facilities - Cracked sewage pipes --> Effluent runs down narrow lanes --> [Refer to *]
- Waste disposal system - Attract pest --> Carry contagious diseases --> [Refer to *]
5. Illegal occupants of state land
6. High social crime rate - Prevalence of illegal activity
7. Strong social network - Survival based on independence

ta's!
That should be it

2010-10-02T07:49:00.000-07:00

If nothing SATISFIES...

S&S Settlements

2010-10-02T07:27:00.000-07:00

Slum & Squatter Settlements

Descriptives: Dilapidated, Substandard, Shanty, Informal

- Physical & social deterioration

- Extreme poverty - low wages/ informal sector/ unemployed

- Slum - Legal

- Squatter - Unauthorised

Characteristics:

1. Cramped/Overcrowded - High housing density --> High incidence of fire

2. Built of low quality/ discarded material - Wood, planks, cardboard --> High incidence of fire

3. Lie outside formal planning process - vacant land (marshy land/ steep slopes --> susceptible to floods & landslides)

4. Lack basic amenities:

- Clean water (Unreliable & irregular, sometimes contaminated --> *Epidemics: Cholera, Tuberculosis, Measles --> High infant mortality rate)

- Electricity

- Drainage & sewage facilities - Cracked sewage pipes --> Effluent runs down narrow lanes --> [Refer to *]

- Waste disposal system --> Attract pest --> [Refer to *]

5. High social crime rates - Prevalence of illegal activities

6. Strong social network - Survival based on independence

Map Reading

2010-10-02T07:12:00.000-07:00

Map Reading

1. Pattern - Linear/ Nucleated/ Dispersed

2. Type - Urban/ Rural + Town/ City

3. Location Relief:

- Height (<200>600 = High)

- Gradient (Steep/ Gentle)

- Main Features (Mountainous/ Conical, Hill/Knoll, Ridge, Valley)

4. Drainage (Domestic & Commercial Functions) - River (Name), Tributaries, Meanders, Waterfalls

5. Man-made Functions - Agricultural, Commercial, Recreational & Industrial

Dominant Functions

1. Market Town (Near agriculture/ farming sits)

2. Mining Town (Self-explanatory)

3. Industrial Town (Raw materials --> manufactured goods)

4. Ports (Along rivers/ coasts)

5. Route Center (Strategically positioned at transport points/ natural routes)

6. Service Center (Recreational, educational, healthcare, shopping)

7. Cultural & religious settlements (Rich historical background)

8. Administrative Center (Regional center/ capital city)

9. Residential Towns (Inhibitants retired/ work elsewhere)

R-U Migration

2010-10-02T06:07:00.000-07:00

Rural-Urban Migration: Multi-dimensional process that involves change in demographics, urbanization, economic development & social change.

Urbanization (increase in population in an urban area) --> Urban Growth (Increase in land area &/or increase in urban population) --> Overpopulation (Too many people, too few resources; disequilibrium/ mismatch)

Profile of migrants:

- Poor

- Lowly educated

- Have little/ Lack relevant skills

Challenges faced:

1. Migration Laws

2. Anti-Foreigner Sentiments

3. Assimilation (blending of minoritiy groups or communities into dominant society)

-Racial & religious discrimination

-Language/ Communication barrier

Push Factors:

1. Natural Disasters (Famine/ Drought) --> Poverty

2. Poor Rural Living & Social Conditions - Harsh conditions (poor housing) & poor quality of life (poor educational opportunities)

3. Economic Hardship - Overpopulation --> Lack of jobs --> Unemployment/ Low wages --> Income disparities

Pull Factors: [Perceived/Real]

Job opportunities (more & varied) --> Employment --> Higher wages/ income --> Better standard of living --> 1. Urban facilities: Piped water, Sanitation, Electricity, Sewage disposal system, Services (Healthcare & medical facilities) 2. Upgrade housing 3. Afford education

To be continued...

2010-09-29T07:11:00.000-07:00

BUT I CAN'T HEAR A THING!

Periodicity

2010-09-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

Period - No. of quantum shells

Group - No. of valence electrons

-Down a group, reactivity increases (AR decreases, IE increases, E increases)
1. When AR decreases, decrease in electrostatic forces of attraction between nucleus & valence electrons

2. Shielding effect increases - increase in no. of quantum shells

-Across a period, effective nuclear charge increases (AR increases, IE decreases, E decreases)

1. Increase in no. of protons in nucleus

2. AR increases, increase in electrostatic forces of attraction between nucleus & valence electrons.

-Across a period, electrical conductivity increases:

Metal --> Metalloids --> Non-Metals

Good conductors of electricity (Good Reducing Agents) --> Semiconductors --> Insulators (Good Oxidising Agents)

-Across a period, melting point increases then decreases:

Metallic Bonding (I, II, III) --> Giant Covalent/ Macromolecular (IV) --> Simple Covalent Bond (V, VI, VII) --> Monatomic Atoms (VIII)

Group I (Alkali Metals):

- Soft, Low density, Low melting point, Highly Reactive (with cold water --> salt + H2)

Group VII (Halogens/Diatomic Non-metals):

-Reactivity decreases down the group - wants to attract an electron, greater effect of shielding down a group, harder to attract

Transition Metals:

- High density, High melting point, High tensile strength

- 'Typical' Metal: Metallic lustre, Good conductor of electricity & heat, Malleable, Ductile

- Forms coloured compounds

- Catalyst - increases rate of chemical reactions

2010-09-05T10:07:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I have this plan. I plan to run away to nowhere. We'll see where the world takes me. I'm going to Greece.

Xoxo,

2010-09-05T10:06:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,

Why do people become fake? Or is it just me?

Xoxo,

2010-09-05T10:05:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,

Today I learnt that beauty is in the eye of the beholder & the beholder alone.

xoxo,

2010-09-05T10:04:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,

I met a boy who said he would buy me a dog on my 21st Birthday!

I think I fell in love with him again.

Xoxo,

2010-09-05T10:02:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,

I met a boy who wanted to bring me to Hawaii.

I fell in love with him instantly.

xoxo

2010-08-31T07:25:00.000-07:00

I love Nanyang Primary! Hahaha. Maybe not. But I really miss our stupid we all used to be.

The whole 饮水思源 thing really kinda makes sense now. Like, well. You kinda remember who you are, who you're supposed to be, who you've always been.

& 2 years ago coach told me that I was gonna be different 2 years later. Yea, & I've been different. I forgot how it was like to be...normal?

Sometimes you get kinda caught up in so many things...

I FEEL SO YOUNG AGAIN :D Heh.

Miss all the lameness.

Went out with the guys & yukiko. Went to HaoYi's house after that...after 30min of bugging ><

HAHAHA.

Crazy miss everyone.

RG seems so dead already /:

ta's!

RACHELLOW! EPIC.

2010-08-22T08:54:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday from 36 days ago!

Haha.

2010-08-22T08:53:00.001-07:00

2010-08-22T08:43:00.000-07:00

I miss you.

2010-08-15T17:54:00.000-07:00

hbl today.

wow.

pe hbl.

wow wow.

2010-08-09T06:25:00.005-07:00

THROW IT AWAY,

FORGET YESTERDAY!

2010-08-09T06:25:00.003-07:00

THROW IT AWAY,

FORGET YESTERDAY!

2010-08-09T06:25:00.001-07:00

THROW IT AWAY,

FORGET YESTERDAY!

2010-08-09T06:23:00.001-07:00

THROW IT AWAY,

FORGET YESTERDAY!

2010-08-08T09:30:00.000-07:00

Honestly, my whole Walk with God thing, has not just gone down the drain, it has died! & I'm secretly hoping that, maybe, if someone sees this, you'd help me out or something! Pull me back up. Idk, man. I need help. I can't be bothered anymore. Seriously.

I just read Mae's blog. & I realised what a hypocrite I am. I've been asking people to pray & trust in God. I mean, look how 'high' I used to be & how I really fought for what I believed in & all about me being a tool of God & all that stuff. & now. I can't be bothered. I guess, reading her blog's like a wake-up call to me. To get back on track. Every time I climb this ladder, I slide back down. I'd never be able to reach the top at this rate. & I see myself slowly giving up on everything I once had. Let's be brutally honest. I'm giving up on God, Track, Family.

I can't be that self-centered, right? NOOO, CANNNOT.

Yea, so I needa get my act together. Not just soon, but reaaal soon!

ta's!

I know Your grace is sufficient for me!

2010-08-07T08:43:00.000-07:00

Everyone's an asshole once in awhile.

So stop trying to be an asshole all the time.

2010-08-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

Results are out tomorrow.

I starting to doubt things.

Go out this Saturday?

I remembered how when I was young, I wanted to be 'perfect' the way my classmates were. They woke up every morning which crazy enthusiasm for school, coming prepared & awake, neat, ready. & I would wanna be like them. & maybe I still do.

I don't really lose out, having no life. My chances of being able to make it big in the future are higher. I don't know what I want.

I could be normal, someone who'd blend in.

I could be someone who stands out with a unique personality.

I could be me. Who's she?

A personality's made up from different experiences, from life, environment.

So your surroundings & circumstances make up who you are.

So..who are you, really?

Lightning. Rain.

The trees swaying with the wind.

How vulnerable they are to collapse.

No one would hear.

Covered by the thunder.

Then again, constant motions of silhouettes.

Then again.

Exciting. Murderous.

I could choose to look away.

ta's!

All my secrets away

2010-07-31T09:53:00.001-07:00

DAMN IT LA, JUST BUZZ OFF!

Just buzz off.

Just disappear.

Disappear.

2010-07-31T09:19:00.000-07:00

Maroon 5 is now the best!

Lol. I'm kinda sick of The Script & AAR.

Age Gap.

Everything's annoying me & no, I'm not being paranoid this time. It really is annoying this time.

Timings are just wrong, words are wrong, attitude is different. It's so bothersome, troublesome. It's so damn annoying!

ta's!

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye...

2010-07-28T08:09:00.001-07:00

No. More. Sky.

2010-07-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

I'm angry.

I needa break.

Needa be happy.

Kinderjoys are amusing anymore.

I needa smash some glass.

Break a heart.

Make some blood.

Needa be happy.

2010-07-26T08:23:00.001-07:00

When you're trapped inside yourself & you don't know how to get out. You're just somewhere, but you don't know where.

That's the worst.

2010-07-24T09:11:00.000-07:00

Dance concert wasn't too bad. It was pretty entertaining.

Mmmm. Yea.

Today wasn't a very bad day, considering the fact that I woke up past noon. So I only had to live through another 12 hours. Which was spent pretty happily.

Hope colin's concert goes well. Band Aid. Hmmm.

LOL. PLASTER.

ta's!

Can't buy back love.

2010-07-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

Speechless- Natasha Bedingfield

Moodswing madness!

2010-07-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

Natasha Bedingfield's new song, Speechless :D
Notch bad, notch bad..haha.
Will attach it in next post.

PTs have been going pretty well, I've been doing them waayy ahead of time. Just that ZN's cable is with her dad who's overseas & we've recorded stuff in it. Soooo, yea. Work during the weekends!
Geog, Bio, SS left.

Exams: Left with Chinese compo & physics (which apparently, there's nothing to study for, heh)
Waddle Campaigning - 21st - 3oth!
Eggggciting much :D HAHA.

Track wise. Deteriorated. Terrible.
As I was trying to explain today, I seriosuly don't know what to do - continue training with coach & try once again or to just simply forget about everything. The longer I wait, the harder it gets. But Idk, man /:

School's been pretty good, I haven't been sleeping in class & I can survive 3 blocks without food. I'm coping & adapting well. Yea. After half a year in school, about time. LOL.

'Crystal can be a photcopier when she grows up!'

So how's everyone? (Rhetorical question = persuasive device)
I went to play with the swings today & for once, it wasn't raining. But it was still awesome <3
I love every single tiny moment I spend playing with the swings.
They're the bestestest thing ever! Hahahahahahah.
I feel super free & happy. Odd. But SO WHAT MAN, MAKES ME HAPPY HO LIAO :D

ta's!
[:

2010-07-01T07:15:00.000-07:00

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman?
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand?

-Kryptonite, Three Doors Down

The grey skies will clear.

2010-07-01T06:59:00.000-07:00

Secretly hoping it floods evertime it rains.
Imagine lifeboats & dead bodies. Mud & fallen trees.

I used to think nice people were always complicated. There'd be some corner where there's too much to hold & everything pours. That's the same place where you usually find yourself pounded on. But I met a friend who was rather simple. But not just simple. Simple & constantly happy. How do people do that?
Maybe I was jealous, maybe I was mean. In an attempt to turn a life the other way round & prode it with a burning rode. But I'm just a kid, what difference could I make?

Like a leech, it attaches itself onto you until it's got enough of your blood.

I feel like an asshole. Feel like a jerk.
Feel like an idiot. Feel like a sucker.
Are you still happy?
Still a joker?
Still a sadist?

ta's!
-

2010-06-26T08:09:00.000-07:00

This week's been so fast moving. Why? Cos I crammed all my studies in ONE week :D
I feel kinda happy....HEEHEEEHEEEE. I'm left with one chapter of math left to do.
Then Idk what to mug for physics. & chinese will come later /:

I'm gonna be busy. This week's been eventful.
Pretty good.

ta's!
Oinkster.

Alejandro

2010-06-09T05:49:00.000-07:00

So work is close to labour, just with aircons & lots of break time.
Gaodim-ed letter, catalogued & counted brochures, tied recycled paper up.
2 hours of taiwanese drama. 1 hour of lunch. & we ended up leaving 2 hours early cos there was simply, nothing to do. Oh, well.
It's just an itsy-bitsy bit waste time la. Other than that & the itsy-bitsy scratches all over my hand that's pretty annoying, work was fine.

I got pushed by some auntie at the MRT Station. & nooo, I didn't get pushed when I was entering/ exiting the carriage. I just got pushed at some random spot! Really la, auntie. You push me for whatt ]: Early in the morning, push small girl, spoil her day.
MRTs are super crowded in the morning. But complaining won't work, cos SMRT's already supplying us with loads of efficient MRTs. It's the people. BUT ACTUALLY IT'S NOT THAT BAD LA. Just wait a little longer & you'll be able to board!

Lunch at Chinatown was quite hot. Okay. It was really quite hot.
I think the people working in the office are pretty sad. There're only 5 people working in there - 4 females & 1 male.

I Like Titanic <3

Anw, as I was saying. I think they have quite sad lives. So little colleagues stuck in such a small space, always on the computer. THEY SHOULD HAVE LIKE...FAMILY DAY OR LUNCH-TOGETHER DAY OR BE A-NICE-PERSON DAY! Or something. We're gonna buy coffee for them on our last day at work. I hope they'll find fun someday. So sad la.

Went joggingjoggingjogging! I like the park. & today's weather. It was cold, but kinda humid. So when you jog, it's like..hot-cold-hot-cold-hot-cold, haha!
Reflection: In reflections, everything becomes so mild & gentle. Okay. At least it appears that way. It's peaceful & serene & it sways. But when the reflection's in a pond..
When you try to reach for such serenity & almost-perfection, you can't hold on to anything. You get drenched & cold & wet. It spoils everything. Is it unreachable? Unattainable?

ta's!
GIVE ME BACK MY TROPHY LA YOUUU!

2010-06-08T06:02:00.000-07:00

WEP is the most exciting thing that could ever happen to anyone!
2nd day of work. 3 more to go. They can't find stuff for us to do. Oh, wells.

Shark or Whale?

ta's!
ZZ

In a blue moon.

2010-06-06T07:33:00.000-07:00

It's funny how sometimes we get so upset over little stuff. How we find ourselves reacting with such a large & dramatic response. Usually when this happens, we're hiding a part of ourselves or our lives from someone else. To protect that something from anyone else. When that happens, you shouldn't be so bent on breaking down the barrier. It will subside, just like a wave, in time to come.

Waves hit you so damn hard, they leave you cursing & swearing.
Waves touch you, leaving you with a refreshing, but cold & damp sensation.
Sometimes they're rough & vicious, sometimes their gentle & endearing; so harmful yet tempting.
So are they good or bad?
Are you good or bad?

ta's!
Who's Sky?

2010-06-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

Back from camp.

Came back, slept till the evening.

I had a dream, I dreamt about it before.

It was after a tsunami in some country & there was this person telling me her experience. Her house was freaking gged & she was so tired, just looking for somewhere to go to, somewhere to rest. She was walking, she found this house which was in this really crappy state. But there was a sofa, the only thing in the house that was intact. & she slept till there was light again. When she woke up, a bear walked in with it's cub. Everyone knows that a mother bear's freaking protective. She freaked out like crap, she was so damn scared & I was her. So she prayed real hard, & after a super long time, got the courage to stand up & leave. In the basement, came a sound of a girl. Her name was Elizabeth, & she looked exactly like Nick's sister. Petrified. & the bear was going towards her. & I rushed to pick her up to grab her & tell her everything was gonna be alright. Then it was all gone.

Somehow, I woke up learning that I needed God in my life to protect me. Somehow. Yea.

SO ANYWAY, CAMP WASN'T VERY BAD :D In fact, it was rather entertaining.

My group was called..okay, idk. Something to do with the butt.

Amazing race along the red line yesterday.

WALKWALKWALKWALKWALKWALK. TSK!

Had swensons & pizza hut for dinner. Went high on some Earthquake (yea, that's the name of the ice-cream) & spent the rest of the night laughing like some drunkard. OH WELLS, we had fun :D

RUUUUSHING

KITTTTY

BANGBANGBANG!

MARRFIN

MUUUFIN

wth la! HAHHAHA.

Okay. got stuff to do. Shut up.

ta's!

FATTIES!

2010-05-28T00:58:00.000-07:00

YAYZYMY!

Alright. SPORTS FEST WAS PRETTY AWESOME. Although we didn't win & my sister's house did & she was busy bragging about it yesterday (whateverrr, mannn! haha). It was fun. & I kinda realise the purpose of Mass Dance after a super long time. HERE GOES! The purpose of Mass Dance is an attempt to make the Sec1s more loved & accepted in the school. HEH. Okay, kidding. But the Sec1s were pretty cute & good. -reach out for the stars!-

It's fun to be in a house, like. As cheesy as it may sound, the whole 'being united' thing is fun!

& TERI CAME BACK! OMGG, TERI THE SMALL LITTLE GIRL :D

She's the most awesome v-capt ever la. & the shortest ><

Went for dinner with Jas, Mae, Rach & Sheryl @ Toa Payoh.

(POTATO MY ASS LA, JAS!)

The rojak got suuuuper long queue!! LOL. Andre's supposed to try it & tell me if it's nice [:

Went swimming this morning with my eldest sister.

Last night: Ey, Joeline. You better wake up or I'm leaving without you.
This morning: EY! CHRISTINE! WAKE UP!
& then: WHY YOU NEVER WAKE ME UP? NOW WE'RE LATE!

Soo, I'm sunburnt & my face itches.

Yesterday was crazy hot la. The track was burningg.

& my arms are all chaota.

Eriza almost tore her hamstring, super lucky she didn't.

Track Camp next week [:

I'm sweating like crazy. This sucks.

Okay. Back to stalking :D

ta's!

Turn around, bright eyes!
Every now & then I get a little bit lonely.

2010-05-25T06:28:00.000-07:00

Dear Friend,

Love,
Joeline

2010-05-24T08:30:00.001-07:00

Hello, Jealous Beyatch.

2010-05-24T08:11:00.001-07:00

EMPTY HEART

2010-05-24T07:45:00.000-07:00

I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

- Praise you in this storm, Casting Crowns

Emptyemptyempty, that's how I feel. Despite having achieved quite a lotta stuff today.

If a heart's empty, accomplishments don't really matter anymore. There's no satisfaction, just numbness.

Red.
Marooon.

Marooned.

Marooned.

When you're falling behind, I will carry you. - I will carry you, Clay Aiken

I'm such an asshole.

TSK. So annoying.

An asshole for the better.

ta's!

You don't even know what best friends are!

2010-05-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

All of us has the ability to affect someone and to change the circumstances.

So what are you going to do about it?

2010-05-23T07:31:00.000-07:00

Sooo, I've been sleeping the whole day. Almost.

& I managed to chiong abit for Math GA tomorrow, despite remembering that I even have one like 30min ago.

& I'm tired again.

This week's gonna be good. Cos it's the last week of school. & cos I'm gonna be sleeping before 12 everyday [:

I owe my dad $30 bucks for my phone bill. Exciting, isn't it?

I haven't even gotten Jenn's present. It's 2 months overdue, I think.

WAAA, CRAP.

I'm damn sleepy, lol.

ta's!

Who's got what it takes to be..

2010-05-21T08:17:00.001-07:00

2010-05-21T07:10:00.001-07:00

I'm quite disappointed in myself, currently.

):

You know, this could all be avoided if we talked things out.

-Jas

Right, Left, Right?

2010-05-21T06:25:00.000-07:00

Fist punch here! Haha.

When I was a kid, I used to be really confused. I'd always wanna help others out & be busy with everything else other than mine, so I would never really accomplish anything within a day. My mum would always scold me, telling me that 'If you can't even take care of yourself, how do you expect to help others?' But as I grew up, I learnt stuff like 'Love your neighbour as yoruself'', the whole care for others & put others before yourself thing..So, yea.

But I suppose it's fun. Satisfied content.

I really should start sleeping early. Every day becomes a killer. Mornings a murder, dragging yourself outta bed, brushing your teeth. Everything takes so much effort to accomplish! & classes, are your worst nightmare. Today was bad. Woke up not being able to walk straight. So I ended up bumping into my bed twice after shutting my phone alarm up. Bad start, dizzy much.

The Last Song; terribleterrible show.

No, Zara. It's not even sad. I was so willing to cry my heart out but, dude. It didn't give me a chance to!! Tsk. & Yukiko fell asleep ><>

It was boring. Really.

Open house preperations. We did up our track board pretty fast! Hmmm, not bad :D

At least it's done! One down! No more proposals!

Yesterday, was the worst day ever. & I won't let it affect me. Nothing will. Nothing will. Nothing will. Nothing will. Nothing will. Nothing will.

Damn it. Damn it. Damn it.

ta's!

fatass

2010-05-15T08:45:00.000-07:00

Alrighty.

Are you cold?

Are you worried?

Are you wondering?

Are you bored?

Are you happy?

Are you serious?

Are you questioning?

I don't know. I'm scared when people freak me out. I get freaked out easily /:

Especially. Especially. Exceptionally.

2010-05-12T09:30:00.001-07:00

Wednesday, May 13, 2009
7:37 AM

I don't know what's gonna happen next time.
We're all movin' outta town,
No more hearing the familiar sounds...

2010-05-12T09:18:00.000-07:00

Tick-tock! Tick-tock!

Blast the clocks.

Tear down the posters,

shoot the losers.

Where do you stand?

2010-05-09T08:24:00.001-07:00

Do you know the story of the spider in my toilet?

I actually felt so disturbed while showering with it in there, like..it was looking at me or something! Lol. Do spiders eat their little spidlings? Why are there always like dead boyfriends hanging around?

Happy Mothers Day!

Yea. I said that 4 times to my mum today & she was all, That's not sincere!

I even held her hand & asked her to look into my eyeballs! Hahaha.

Let's talk 'bout mothers. I wanna be a mother when I grow up. I wanna have kids. But I don't wanna have kids. Cos they can get to damn annoying sometimes, they should just shut up & remain tiny. How am I ever gonna teach them English? You can't exactly teach English! But I've gotta make sure they speak good English & moderate Chinese (LOL).

You know what, I'll have to find a husband first. Forget it!

We currently have 6 PTs/AAs in total. I really wonder what the school hopes to achieve for us by spamming us with projects and what nots. But you know what, I'm so gonna get them done.

2.4 is tomorrow! I'm gonna runrunrun, hophophop, whatever it takes me to not walk. Yea, an A is obtainable, but..it's a test to see how far I'm willing to push myself la. I don't wanna be the lousy asshole who just sits there when she's tired & lets her ass grow big.

The fun of life is the danger it has.

Life isn't suppose to be stressful or busy. God gives you what you can bear. While the world, just tries to be funny. Shut up, go away! LOL.

ta's!

Kryptonite.

2010-05-05T07:52:00.001-07:00

Today sucks.

Here comes the ambulance.

2010-05-02T02:12:00.000-07:00

What happened to all the simplicities of life?

Every complicated matter can be reduced to simplicity. If that's what you want. You could make it happen! I am currently having my music therapy session; spamspamspamspam + tumblr. It does help. Makes you calmer. I was so glad last night, downloaded all my favourite songs <3

What am I gonna do, when the best part of me was always you? - Breakeven, The Script

I don't care, cos I won't know anybody there - Anybody there, The Script

How come we don't say, I love you, enough till it's too late - Live like we're dying, The Script

Taking shortcuts through the alleys, while you're racing through the alley - Talk you down, The Script

The smashed the playground to build the Cashew MRT Station. Right. They'll never smash the one opposite the canadian school [: You know what I'm starting to think bout these smileys. They're so fake. I like to watch people smiling. It's so much warmer & friendlier & non-plastic!

I'd watch your face & await your smile! Like some psychotic paedophile! Haha.

Training resumes this Wed. I'm kinda excited. I don't know what I'm gonna do for the 2nd half of the year (yea, other than studying & stalking people once in awhile on fb >< ). I don't know 'bout external trainings, 'bout extra-curricular activities. I'm gonna study, listen to my music, love my tumblr, love you. That's bout it. The year's coming to a..half! That's pretty fast, yes? It sucks. & I was wishing this year'd end on 1st Jan. I don't know what I want with my life.

Why're some people so practical? Why do some people choose to be so pragmatic? Why do they choose to be atheist? Why do they choose to assume that the world's the world & well, it's the world. Don't they wonder how it came about? Don't they wonder about the greater, stranger, mysterious something that made us all? What 'bout the first man & woman, how did they come about? How are we suppose to break that barrier?

Did you try to live on your own? - 21Guns, Green Day

But the more I grow, the less I grow - Try, Nelly Furtado

I hate it when I watch people log off. The offline bar appears too suddenly. It doesn't exactly slap you in the face, but it kinda kicks you in the toes.

Let's go back. To the point where we were such great friends, such committed christians. It was fun, it was a bond that only we shared. What 'bout now?

ta's!

Whydoallgoodthingscometoanend - All good things, Nelly Furtado

Wake up call..Don't you care 'bout me anymore?

2010-04-29T07:02:00.000-07:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

I failed math. Watch me come back.
I failed English. Watch me come back.

Don't rub it in my face, just watch me come back.

I'm an asshole when I don't reply messages. My reason? I don't feel like it. Sucks, right? I know.

I'm gonna study hard. Just so you know. I'm seriously going to.
No more texting/ eating/ sleeping/ stoning in class. I'm gonna do well.

Watch me come back.

I can't wait for tomorrow [:

Hamstring still damn tight. I'll get a C for sit & reach ><

Don't screw up the hamstring.

I'm gonna study hard. I really am.

ta's!

Just you wait & see.

2010-04-28T03:27:00.001-07:00

2010-04-27T06:32:00.001-07:00

M: THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO MARISSA & ONLY MARISSA! LOL.

('cos I left her out in my JERMS post, so paiseh! Hahahhahaha.)

Dear M,

You are high,

I won't let you die.
You are emo.
I'll be your hero.

You are blind (in love),
You are mine <3

I'm a budding poet! I know, right [: I couldn't stand the fact that IKR stood for IKnowRight..That's the most ridiculous abbreviation I ever heard. Dude! Why so spastic one? Lol.

LOVE YOU, GIRLIE :D

2010-04-27T06:13:00.001-07:00

So my East-side Excursion wasn't very exciting.

The East is a very hot place, with little air-con & super lotta sun. It makes me sweat. A lot.

& everywhere I go, I'm so cautious & wary of every little thing. That place's a stranger to me! I could get lost & kidnapped or something, lol.

Went to Parkway Parade? I think. We went there. 22nd Flood, DAS. We didn't exactly managed to get what we wanted to do done, but at least we managed to get some information [:

Went to mug a bit @ Starbucks, sitting in a straight row over a 2m long but very narrow table..lol.

I don't really get modulus functions, but I kinda get them. Oh, whatever!

I didn't exactly do well for my exams this term. So, I'm gonna have to do some serious catching up (for my marks) /: I PASSED CHINESE [: Haha.

I shouldn't read so much books, they give me terrible moodswings.

There was some idiot in class making strange idiotic noises when I was sleeping -.- Seriously, man...shut up la!

I will not eat in class, sleep in class, read in class, fart in class, whatever!

LOL.

ta's!

stop&stare

Touch Fire, Get Burnt

2010-04-25T07:36:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary, LOL.

Today was a pretty good day. I was asked to shut up & stay away in the sweetest possible way & I wasn't even mad. I think I'm crazy. I've got a feeling that I'm playing all the wrong cards & I'm gonna get gged in the end. I'm kinda sure..lol. Uh-oh.

ta's!

2010-04-23T21:37:00.001-07:00

Ohmygoodness. I feel so terrible. Like terribly happy & strange kinda terrible.

I think I've been too blunt. It tends to get quite hurtful sometimes..

I don't know. Everyday is an Idk! So unsure. So exciting. So crazy.

& I don't know how I should be feeling..

2010-04-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

Everyone speaks simple, that's how we want life to be. We wish for what we want, hate what we don't. We speak our mind like nothing else matters & laugh at the slightest joke.

I suppose life isn't that simple. But life has been good. But I've been so damn grumpy everyday.

I finished reading Fake ID! I loved it!!

I love JERMS!

Rachel's like some spastic nerdy-nerd!
Sheryl's voice is so high & she's like a little kid!

SuLynn's some closet mugger, random much! Also a little kid!

Eliz is with Howard. She can go & die! I will bake cookies for her! LOL.

Evan is growing taller. She needs to shrink. I'll buy her a shrink gun or something.

Jas is so black. She's still the same! High & bouncy. (Sounds wrong! HEH.)

So school was great today. I didn't sleep in class. In fact, I was wide awake! Like, a bumblebee?

I think giraffes are really cool.

They have long necks, it makes them look like aliens! It's fascinating!!!

ta's!

Everything you say, directed at me.

Never meant to make you cry..

2010-04-21T07:34:00.001-07:00

Lesson #1: Never talk to me when I'm semi-conscious. I don't know what I'm speaking half the time & I get pissed easily.

Lesson #2: Do not speak randomly. It freaks people out when over-done.
Lesson #3: Real Vs Fake is Me Vs You

I know, I'm such an asshole. We had photo-taking today. We had school today. We have school practically every single day of our lives. Eliz got 2nd. I borrowed a book from the library, I will not sleep in class ever again. I slept for 3 hours; 6-9pm. Woke up starving, pretending the world didn't exist. I'm trying to be a good kid, never will be as great as you. Eyeball rolling, story-telling. Tell me about it. Screw you, Lama!

I'm trying.

ta's!

& sorry.

2010-04-20T08:32:00.001-07:00

LIKE YOU!!

Haha.

2010-04-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

Hello. World.

I'm back. & alive.

I survived!

House camp proposal done, Tests are gone. AAs have been submitted!

WOOOOOTS :D

Seriously, I'm so glad my night has brightened by my entire. School has been hell, super sian the whole day & time drags on like mushroom-look-alike slugs. Leaving a trail of slim behind it. Yea, that's how slow it is.

It's funny how everything starts with a blog. All the crazy episodes of life. Welcome to Season 14 of my life! I'm not gonna say that Life is getting better by the day, cos everytime I do, it gets super gged. Life is average. What do'u expect from an average Joe :D

Oh. I failed English. Haven't told my mum yet, teehee!

I love Zong. He's my itsy-bitsy lemon squeezy little bro who..kinda is not so itsy-bitsy anymore, but. Heh <3

ORA was entertaining. Selling loads of random stuff- badges, socks, cards, whatever there is. Some crazy dude spent like $20+ on our shoelace game! HAHAHAHHA. JOKER LA!

I'm not into blogging.

Today was exciting. Today was bad. Today was strange. Today was fun.

Ran in the rain yesterday. SpendSpendSpend.

Got lost in Jurong East today! Haha. GG. I LEARNT THAT JURONG EAST MRT IS NO WHERE NAER JURONG SPORTS COMPLEX -.-

Okay. Sleep. Is precious.

Ginseng. Is precious too. Helps you stay awake in class :D

HEH.

ta's!

Jay.

2010-04-14T08:38:00.000-07:00

I'm not a good team player.
I'm still stuck with freaking out.
Everyone is drowning, I'd really love to help.
But I can't. I'm stuck.
That's why I run. Run away from everything.

Sometimes, it really doesn't matter. Doesn't matter. Doesn't matter.

2010-04-09T22:18:00.000-07:00

Alright. A bit too much rain this morning.

My hamstring's very tight. Didn't really do much today.

While waiting for the rain to stop, we decided to collect rainwater...

Elisa got wet.

Rachel got wet.

We all got wet.

Elisa has long hands.

Rachel has long arms.
Joe has short hands.

She got pushed into the rain.

I think there's something wrong with me. I keep pooping.

Before I sleep, when I get up, after warm up, return home.

Tuition in the afternoon. Edited the stamps. Again.

Will gaodim the background when Chris gets back.

We're all gonna go out after Nats.
We're all gonna play in the rain after Nats.

I haven't seen Nick at all.

ta's!

Rain is falling down...

2010-04-09T07:31:00.001-07:00

Would you meet me by the water tonight

Would you please fall asleep

Holding my hand

One day at a time, step by step.

2010-04-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

How am I to know when all I see is mask & all I hear is naught?

Alright, maybe I'm slow or something. But it finally struck me that my whole life will revolve around one thing, Work; Sec, JC, Uni, Job. & for a moment there I was stunned & upset about it.

I find it rather scary. That this seems to be the big picture of life. But if course, there's gonna be fun here & there. I'll live it through!

My tolerance has been deteriorating. I get pissed & can't even appear fine anymore. I can't look anyone in the eye; I smile & walk away. It's not exactly working.

So I went to school with a super black face, complaining 'bout everything. & 2 hours later, I leave. 3 hours later, I'm back. School's over.

I've completed the damn stamps & rs proposal! Wow. I'm wondering how I'm gonna cope with next week's exam. I can't possibly bring myself to study whole-heartedly till Nats are over. Which means, I'm not gonna score so well. I can predict the future. I can change it.

Awkward much. I'm cowardly.

I heard it's bad to be blunt, so 'I don't wanna talk to you' never came out.

I heard it's bad to be blunt, so 'You'll disappear for good' never came out.

I don't know. I need sleep.

ta's!

Please, sir. Don't you walk away.

-Rachel Yamagata

I THOUGH HE'D BE DELIGHTED!

2010-04-07T04:22:00.000-07:00

There was this period of time, there were so many rainbows at HC. The most exciting day was when there were 2 in the sky at the same time. Everybody loves rainbows, not just kids. They're so fascinating. All of them are merely illusions.

I have no idea what's going on for Math now. But I'll figure it out soon enough, I suppose.
I'm so tired /:
I slept through 2 blocks, so paiseh! Geography & Chem; just so tired! Waking up for school every morning is killing me, it's so tedious. Then I have to walk across the field to the foyer, stand up for 10min for assembly & walk 3 flights of stairs up to the 3rd floor. & I have to do that almost everyday.

I promise I'll try my best to sleep early tonight & not sleep in class tomorrow.
-Work on math
-Gaodim rs

-Geog worksheet

I'm really wondering how Eliz spent her birthday yesterday.
Oh, su's famous quote: I THOUGHT HE'D BE DELIGHTED!

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I do like competitions.
I do not like competitions.
I haven't yet decided.

Thanks for coming down today [:

ta's!

Make my day <3

A-LIZARD-BIRD!

2010-04-06T05:40:00.000-07:00

Dear Eliz, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I know a thousand candles won't be enough to light up your life! (Cos only How Art would).

Dear Eliz,
&
I love your senseless sense of humour. It's so dry & lame that it cracks me up all the time!
Dear Eliz...

Even though you're so white & uncool (& I haven't been taking pics with you, cos I took a along time to find this), YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THE CHIOBU THAT I LOVE SO DEARLY!

Love,

Joe

One more thing, thanks for your mafia wars account ><

HAHAHAHA.

Try

2010-04-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

2010-04-01T07:33:00.001-07:00

becauseiloveyoulikethethunderstorms<3